Do you mean you?:cool: We all know this Chuck got put in his place.:ohmy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bqzQ2qrtBeg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bqzQ2qrtBeg
Well, for one thing, NOIR means Black in French (which I'm sure a lot of you are aware of). My life is described as dark, and I picked this particular screen name to indicate that, hence the reason why I'm on this forum too. AND, I'm into anime, my favourite anime happens to be called Noir as well lol.
i found this site when i was a disaster...my safety was questionable...
when i wasn't thinking of ways to kill myself, my head was screaming "please help me...please, somebody, help me" but i never said that out loud
and i guess the screen name was the only thing i could think of at the time...and, in a way, me reaching out for the first time to ppl who could understand me...
when i wasn't thinking of ways to kill myself, my head was screaming "please help me...please, somebody, help me" but i never said that out loud
and i guess the screen name was the only thing i could think of at the time...and, in a way, me reaching out for the first time to ppl who could understand me...
I started using this as my " penn name " for english and on deviant art my name was " StayingScarlet " and my xbox live is " Stained Scarlet " which might obviously mean blood stained if not idk what else it could be. Blood stained articles of clothing seem to be a very strong for symbolism and get the point across pretty quickly
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ive been nicknamed kitty right since school days, and in high school everybody called me that, friends and non friends, so i worked that into the s/n..
also 'ahurtlil' sounds all cutesy and girly, and im a hopeless tmoboy trying to work it back as a porcelain doll girl, so i thought its a start.. XD
ive been nicknamed kitty right since school days, and in high school everybody called me that, friends and non friends, so i worked that into the s/n..
also 'ahurtlil' sounds all cutesy and girly, and im a hopeless tmoboy trying to work it back as a porcelain doll girl, so i thought its a start.. XD
This is a cool thread. I enjoyed reading how everyone arrived at their screen name. Mine isn't very clever at all. I've had people tell me they wish they were me or had my life or other BS like that but that's only b/c they have no clue who I really am: I hate myself, the woman I love wants nothing to do with me b/c I broke her heart, I believe no one really loves me, my parents fucked up in so many ways I can't even begin to explain, I drink too much, I really drink when going out w/ so-called "friends" b/c I hate crowds, I survived a suicide attempt in high school, I saw what a combat zone is first hand and the atrocities that go along with it and when I returned I was homeless for about 6 months b/c I refused to ask anyone for help and just roamed around. Today, on the surface, I look like I have it all together but inside I am as broken as it gets. That drawn out explanation is where my screen name comes from - other people think my life "seems perfect" but I am fucking miserable and I literally have to say to myself, "Don't kill yourself" every single day of my life.
When I was little, I remember going over to my grandparents house all the time. My grandparents on my mother's side of the family are VERY German.
They have lots and lots of German stuff all over their house. Including a big record collection of German classical and operatic music. It's quite a large set of records as well. It came in albums and was labeled alphabetically. On the cover of the 'W' album, which was mainly filled with all the compositions of Richard Wagner, was a scene from "Tristan and Isolde".
Whenever I would go over, I'd pull that album of the bottom shelf and think to myself "When I grow up, I want to be her."
They have lots and lots of German stuff all over their house. Including a big record collection of German classical and operatic music. It's quite a large set of records as well. It came in albums and was labeled alphabetically. On the cover of the 'W' album, which was mainly filled with all the compositions of Richard Wagner, was a scene from "Tristan and Isolde".
Whenever I would go over, I'd pull that album of the bottom shelf and think to myself "When I grow up, I want to be her."
TBear - my only solace so many times from the time I was three - was a teddy bear. After beatings, after rape... and now after flashbacks... and when coming here looking for comfort my "TBear" is still with me
I now have more than 40 teddy bears - my kids even give them to me as gifts - and yes, there are times when the little ones within need comfort - and a Teddy Bear is all I have.
I now have more than 40 teddy bears - my kids even give them to me as gifts - and yes, there are times when the little ones within need comfort - and a Teddy Bear is all I have.