hatred

Let me begin by saying this; For whatever fucked up reason, my mind just cannot accept that being a virgin at 20 years old is normal. Now, typically I hide my loneliness, depression, poverty, social anxiety, concern about my lack of sexual activity (I even lie to my doctor), the list goes on...

I don't know if anyone can help me with this, because it's not really a question, but I have to get it out. For a long time I didn't seem to feel anything for anyone. No one attracted me in any way, and I was worried because everyone else had a partner or at least a crush. Now I met this guy...