murder

Almost every night I have horrible nightmares about my past trauma. Either it is of the event, or it is a nightmare of me either being chased, killed or tortured. And I don't know why, but when I wake up, it takes at most a few hours to realize that I am no longer dreaming and am conscious and...

And that is totally practical. I know people encourage others and help them. I don't know if I wanted that, or maybe I do want that and just can't admit that to myself. I had a bad childhood and I wish things were different. I was suicidal over my childhood, yes. My dad was a monster, a true...