suicidalthoughts

<Mod edit - timeline>. The decision isn't based off life being shit or anything, just simply not wanting to be alive at all (not wanting to try at life). Well if I had to give a reason which could be close, maybe me having depression episodes and doing really dumb things under that influence...

Trying to deal with the loss of my son. I lost my first born a few years ago and I thought I was coping well. Recently I have took what seems like numerous steps backwards. I've become quiet again, ignoring people and ducking out on any interaction I can avoid. I'm usually a quiet and reserved...