For the past 2 years I've not received any wages. I used to work for my father, the jobs would include normally manual labour but there was a lot of variety. The issue is that I was always tasked to do the work no one else would want to do. He always said that he wants me to takeover the business one day but I've stated that I don't want it because I really don't like the work involved, it's just not for me. for the past 2 months I would be working on weekends as well which frustrated me because that's the only times I could somewhat relax. On one particular Sunday, I got a little fed up with the situation I was since I genuinely have no money. I mentioned that to him and he got upset. He started explaining that the work I do for his clients is what I get paid for and the work I do for him is free. I would hardly ever work for his clients and I didn't receive the money for that anyways. I explained to him that if that was the case, then I need to get paid for his work as well because I can't keep going on having a literal 0 bank balance for 2 years. He did not take this lightly and said something about I owe him rent and that's why I don't get money. I live in such a small ass room that's divided amongst me and my aunts birds. the room its is 2mx2m approximately and I have to pay R2000 ($63/55€) per month. I find it extremely difficult to understand how there's no money left to pay me. Anyways, the only reason I continued to work for him is because I had 0 will power to do anything about the situation. I feel defeated and hopeless. I told him that the only reason I did work for him was because I felt bad since I'm the only one working for him and I didn't want to screw him over. He said that if that's case, I'm fire and I need to find a job and suffer. I'm gonna be real here, being a white male in south africa is tough because BBEEE is a thing. It gives black people the priority when it comes to job opportunities. I understand why BBEEE is a thing so it's fine. Anyways, I got fired and he told me that all his kids are a disappointment to him and I continue to prove that to him. He told me that I wasn't worth the money he was paying me (WHAT MONEY?). He doesn't say a word to me anymore unless it's something negative or him stating something he's doing to punish me. Today he told me he's cutting my power because he want's to use the power for something else.
I have no degree to speak of either so life is shit. I went to gym with my brother today and whilst walking home he mentioned as a joke while walking over a bridge ("imagine we fell"). I considered it for a second but shrugged it off. My depression has gotten to the point where my will to live, passion and care for myself has become non-existent and it has been for a long while now. I have no idea what to do. My dad already turned most of my family against me so I can't ask anyone for help. I can't find work because of BBEEE. It really is a hopeless situation. To top it all off, my dad told me today that he wants me to move out. Thanks for letting me vent
I have no degree to speak of either so life is shit. I went to gym with my brother today and whilst walking home he mentioned as a joke while walking over a bridge ("imagine we fell"). I considered it for a second but shrugged it off. My depression has gotten to the point where my will to live, passion and care for myself has become non-existent and it has been for a long while now. I have no idea what to do. My dad already turned most of my family against me so I can't ask anyone for help. I can't find work because of BBEEE. It really is a hopeless situation. To top it all off, my dad told me today that he wants me to move out. Thanks for letting me vent
