suicidal feelings

  1. IDontWantToDie

    A brakedown

    That's it, I can't take this anymore. I have become a mom to him. Cleaning everything after him, cooking for him, doing the laundry, dressing him, and making sure he has dry socks with him just because he refuses to look stupid in snow boots. Crying over all the money he spends, crying because...
  2. G

    Feeling Suicial

    Hi. I don’t feel like my life is going anywhere. Therapy is good but it doesn’t help in a big way. I think my biggest problem is that I really don’t care to be alive. I don’t care if I died tomorrow. I think the time I will take my life will come soon because I don’t think there is a life that I...
  3. Court

    I just need to end it, I can’t do this anymore

    I’m in pieces, I’m struggling and no one listening I’m needing to escape I need to let go I can’t do this anymore. It’s to much pain I’m sorry. :(
  4. einimeamullaoo

    My mother wanted to die

    "Why Father in heaven cannot take me away already?" That's what she said long time ago, and I was there hearing all that. She said that aloud just like that and so that I could hear it all. She had a fight with my dad earlier, and I was still young back then. And later on my parents were going...
  5. S

    i don't know if i can do this

    I’m sorry I’m not pretty I’m sorry I’m not smart I’m sorry I’m failing I’m sorry I’m to blame I’m sorry I’m such a mess I’m sorry I can’t be proud I’m sorry I’m a person I’m sorry I was born I’m sorry you have to deal with me
  6. Tor

    Coping With Suicidal Thoughts 2022-01-08

    Suicidal thoughts deserve coping resources and support. This short pdf guides you through ways to cope, understand and lessen thoughts of suicide.
  7. W

    A hopeless situation

    For the past 2 years I've not received any wages. I used to work for my father, the jobs would include normally manual labour but there was a lot of variety. The issue is that I was always tasked to do the work no one else would want to do. He always said that he wants me to takeover the...
  8. GreenLightFreefall

    Just an update

    I feel im falling deeper and deeper into this pit of despair. I feel hopeless. I feel as if this is really the only place someone actually cares and listens to what i say and it all hurts. I find myself falling asleep more often and waking up at random hours to find myself unable to fall back...
  9. G

    Lifeline

    Hi :) I had this idea and I thought it might be nice to try it out. Okay, how lifeline works is that you send a message to the last person to post in the thread (the post can be about how your feeling) so that you can check on them and make sure that they’re not doing anything harmful. The...
  10. Soda-Voxel

    I'm running out of time.

    I don't feel like I have long left. I don't want to die, theres lots of things I love in life - but the pain is too great for me to keep going. Every time I have even a slight problem, my immediate thought is "Well, I can just kill myself to avoid this". I'm so exhausted. Hating myself every...
  11. 18breanna

    Does anyone know how to deal with death

    My grandma is getting heart surgery, and her health is just getting worse, and I know she won't live forever but whenever I think about her passing, all I can think about is how much happier I'll be if I just kill myself and follow her. I didn't have a dad, so she is basically my second parent...
  12. alixer

    I'm scared that I don't care anymore to get better

    I am in a rut. I took a few months off to care for my father while he recovered from cancer. Now it's time for me to go back to work, but I don't want to. I've wanted to leave for a while now. I have the option to take an immersive 3-month course. I used to look forward to the idea of this...
  13. M

    Why should a person like me live?

    I am almost 30 and unemployed. My experience of life has never been that great. I am really shy, introverted, anxious, very pessimistic and an extremely negative thinker. I have no idea what I should do in life and I have no real interests. I have never been in love, never been in a...
  14. W

    What's the difference?

    Is wanting to die because the pain is too much the same as wanting to disappear? Sorry if this is not a clear question but I'll try and explain. I just noticed that most people that are suicidal have so much pain that they want an end to it. I for one am not in the same kind of pain that one...
  15. W

    Help me find direction

    I can't help but shake this feeling that I will eventually give up. I don't have anything in particular that I'm passionate about. I'm 22 and haven't started studying anything. I had no real job. I don't want a job either. I just want to do nothing. I've tried getting help and it's been almost a...
  16. A

    I Need To Vent

    Hello this is only my second thread on this site and i feel like i need to vent this is probably the most appropriate place to do so so i decided to make a thread here. Anyway i want to start off by saying that i hate the western Neet and Hikikomori communities that exist on the internet why...
  17. CoffeeArtist

    I'm not getting better

    My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...
  18. Freyja

    Pretending

    I wanted to post "how I feel today" but it got a little longer than usual and actually reflects how I feel every day despite everything I write daily in that thread. Sad, alone, scared, lost, empty ... I just don't see how it can ever get better. It can only get worse. I feel like I'm hanging on...
  19. faeful

    I tried my very best

    I always do try to contain such negative feelings within. I wasn't even in the site for awhile. I tried to do what I loved again and for some time, I actually felt a little alive. But like always, there has to be a price for that quick happiness. Now I'm back to square one again. Thinking about...
  20. NRW24

    I don't want to live

    I am a failure and a disappointment, I am just living here to waste my family's resources. I likely will never find a job. Nor I will ever love someone or be loved by someone. My parents hate me and I hate myself. I don't see why I should continue. I'll never be happy. I'll never make another...
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