I cry every day before I go to work and when I come home. Sometimes I even go in the bathroom and cry at work. Right now I feel stuck in life. Stuck at this job that doesn't care about me (but can't leave because there are literally no other jobs in this area that I can get this training in), stuck in this city that I don't like, stuck feeling lonely and depressed constantly. I'm somewhat suicidal but I know that is coming from the depression. However driving has become a challenge since I always have the urge to crash my car when doing it. I've lost all hope of feeling any happiness right now. I'm just going to let these feelings of sadness and despair consume me and numb me so I can get through each day somehow.