alone

[seabird]

losing ground

 

[seabird]

I need help to do something but it's going to be very hard despite help. Very hard

 

[seabird]

Carrying garbage out back to the bins at night, and worrying about bears isn't funny but makes me laugh anyway

 

[KM76710]

Carrying garbage out back to the bins at night, and worrying about bears isn't funny but makes me laugh anyway

Makes me glad the largest predator in here parts are bobcat and coyote. One crack of a bullwhip and they will scatter when the sound barrier breaks. Mountain lion are creeping closer each year. Not long ago one was verified by the parks or game department as killing a deer about an hour drive from my house.

 

[seabird]

@KM76710 That is cool you use a bullwhip. Metal clanging against metal scares most animals off too. Lions are imho, as far as being a danger, worse than bears. But they aren't going to mess with a grown human in broad daylight. Where I used to live they did unfortunately learn to snatch pets from backyards. I used to catch a glimpse of one that used the dry wash as its way to get through the neighborhood. That long thick tail gave it away.

 

[seabird]

So a, no like 100 lightbulbs went on as I watched a video on NPD.

This is the corner I couldn't locate, but the obstacle I was needing to go around.

 

[seabird]

It's been interesting & stressful to work today. The ideas of the past kept trying to creep into the present. Painting is a process, so when other issues force their way into my mind, it's extra work to keep focused on the task - literally - at hand.

In the middle of the day I stopped and wrote all the symptoms of stress that've been occurring.

Maybe the crescendo has happened, and some peace is on its way.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Maybe the crescendo has happened, and some peace is on its way.

I hope so!
You deserve peace.
✌️🕊☮️
🦩🦩🦩🦩

 

[KM76710]

It's been interesting & stressful to work today. The ideas of the past kept trying to creep into the present. Painting is a process, so when other issues force their way into my mind, it's extra work to keep focused on the task - literally - at hand.

In the middle of the day I stopped and wrote all the symptoms of stress that've been occurring.

Maybe the crescendo has happened, and some peace is on its way.

I hope that you get that bit of peace for yourself that you deserve to get to experience and enjoy.

 

[seabird]

Sort of gloomy, yet a peaceful & quiet winter day. Can't see the big old mountains behind town today because it's snowing. I wish I had a real camera to zoom in on details. There was a bald eagle sitting on the branch of this tree.

 

[KM76710]

Thanks for sharing, looks beautiful as a Fall day should but I admit that gray and gloom is right for the season.

 

[seabird]

 

[seabird]

This is the local ski resort - & it is not my pic. It's where I hope to be able to go for a day of fun, once the storm leaves & warmer air moves in. Too cold for at least the next couple of days

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

This is the local ski resort - & it is not my pic. It's where I hope to be able to go for a day of fun, once the storm leaves & warmer air moves in. Too cold for at least the next couple of days
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looks beautiful.

 

[seabird]

It diesn't matter one bit. Somehow that makes the depression easier

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

It diesn't matter one bit. Somehow that makes the depression easier

Sending you soft comforting hugs.

 

[seabird]

@FlamingoWrangler thank you.
I hope you're feeling good for the start of the New Year.

Thing is I don't seserve hugs, I've been hiding & lazy & not trying hard enough lately.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

@FlamingoWrangler thank you.
I hope you're feeling good for the start of the New Year.

Thing is I don't seserve hugs, I've been hiding & lazy & not trying hard enough lately.

You need the hugs even more. It’s to remind you that you are worthy & deserving of peace.
Sometimes when we only see our flaws, it’s everything we can do to survive. SF is here to help us survive. Keep surviving, it is really hard to do for some of us. Sorry you’re struggling.

 

[KM76710]

@FlamingoWrangler thank you.
I hope you're feeling good for the start of the New Year.

Thing is I don't seserve hugs, I've been hiding & lazy & not trying hard enough lately.

Just take and do things as can for the best for yourself and you do deserve hugs, care and support.

 

[seabird]

A little note: since I'm working on a stack of work that is intended to hang at a public place, I've asked the mods and they've moved the theead "not seriously" into my private diary area.