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[Windhover]

How are you doing?
I can understand the need to take time away from here. It can be really difficult as well as helpful

Okay, at the moment anyhow. Odd. Mood is shifting too frequently, and too rapidly for comfort. I can't answer accurately which feels weird.

 

[snails]

Okay, at the moment anyhow. Odd. Mood is shifting too frequently, and too rapidly for comfort. I can't answer accurately which feels weird.

Do you mean you feel prevented from talking freely or you can't bring yourself to do it? I'm wondering if there's things you need to say? I'll happily listen if it's of any help at all, privately if you want.

 

[may71]

That's nice of you to say @may71 .

Hope you are doing okay?

I'm ok thank you

 

[may71]

Odd. Mood is shifting too frequently, and too rapidly for comfort.

I'm sorry it's like that. Is this something that you've experienced before?

 

[Windhover]

I'm sorry it's like that. Is this something that you've experienced before?

absolutely. it's great for painting not so great for other functionality lol. Runs down through from my grandfather to my father to me. Same blood type too.

 

[may71]

Do you have a formal diagnosis for this or do you feel like a formal diagnosis would be helpful?

 

[Windhover]

Do you have a formal diagnosis for this or do you feel like a formal diagnosis would be helpful?

Nope. Well, except for anxiety. I use exercise for calming that, and am very careful about food choices. My weight is neither too little nor too much and has been steady for several years. So that's sorted.
Not likely, as I won't accept prescriptions because I don't take well to medicines.at.all.

 

[Windhover]

Today
There's this overpowering feeling of wanting to protect my two, who are already grown. Even though I am aware nobody gets through life without pain, I wish they didn't experience hard sad tough times. A wise woman pointed out to me a long time ago that a parent, especially a single parent like myself, has to work a little harder to let them fly. They are both flying just fine so I've managed to do that. But sometimes I fall backwards into wanting to protect them. I'm amazed and deeply grateful for these 2 people.<3

 

[Windhover]

Later on this afternoon, I have to do something intense, alone. It's making me extremely anxious. It will take more than a day.

 

[AvidFan]

Later on this afternoon, I have to do something intense, alone. It's making me extremely anxious. It will take more than a day.

I hope it goes well @seabird

 

[snails]

Later on this afternoon, I have to do something intense, alone. It's making me extremely anxious. It will take more than a day.

Hope you're doing ok

 

[KM76710]

Later on this afternoon, I have to do something intense, alone. It's making me extremely anxious. It will take more than a day.

I hope your tasks come and are done as easily and smoothly as possible.

 

[Lifeisthis]

Just checking in hope all is well

 

[Floracuatica]

People sometimes scare me, they can be so mean or it's my social anxiety talking. I hope you do find that special someone you can be stupid with and talk nonsense but be understood and even loved and held dear. Maybe you know what i mean. There is someone somewhere who will love you to pieces and then you can even make a language of your own like twins do.

 

[Windhover]

welll it's been a few days, and I managed it. I'm pretty much recovered. There's going to be some sorting out of basic living arrangements. I've been good about being honest and communicative as opposed to how I sometimes am irl. Cautiously optimistic.

 

[Windhover]

Still cautiously optimistic. But I got yelled at today for not arranging addresses ahead of time for a trip we're going to take tomorrow. But at least it came out pretty much immediately, rather than 2 weeks from now in a more nasty way. Oddly, I'd forgotten how sh***y it feels to be yelled at, and how that sort of behaviour is destructive to communication, as well as relationship.

 

[may71]

Oddly, I'd forgotten how sh***y it feels to be yelled at, and how that sort of behaviour is destructive to communication, as well as relationship.

I'm sorry this happened. Yes, it's awful to be treated that way.

Do you feel like this is something that could or will get resolved, or is it something that will just be an ongoing problem?

 

[Windhover]

Do you feel like this is something that could or will get resolved, or is it something that will just be an ongoing

My feelings on it are that I'm cautiously optimistic.

Thank you May71.

🫶🏻Your and other's support here has helped me to much more confidence in this general area.

 

[Windhover]

I may be kind of busy for a few days but will be around.


hugs to all who want or need them

- s

 

[Windhover]

I don't know for sure but my connection may not be secure. The app I use for email sent me a message to that effect. I don't know if it's just a scare tactic to get me to sign up / pay for their vpn or what.