i just dont know. My PTSD from the assault is really bothering me lately. Things are so real like it just happened yesterday. The memories are so vivid I can see the things he did like its still happening. I dont want to go into too much detail because I dont want to trigger anyone, but its just so hard. I wish these memories would just go away. I am tired of the flashbacks, the nightmares of running from people trying to hurt me. Its so hard i can still hear what songs were playing. In fact yesterday one of the songs came on the radio and i had to have my boyfriend change the song because it started giving me flashbacks. He wanted to listen to the song but he turned it anyway. I just feel bad because he should be able to listen to those songs. It just adds so much more stress. I just dont know why the details are so vivid in my mind. Does anyone else have this problem? I just dont know. I just know its so hard.