BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Definitely, I sometimes get periods of feeling like I’m dreaming or I’m in sort some of simulation.

Yeah one day I was like...I can kill myself and not die because I don't really exist. It makes no sense, but that's how my brain felt at the time.

 

[Pebble mouse]

Sorry you went through that. It is pure hell sometimes. I regard my BPD as a secondary problem now, to be honest.

Oh, I hope that didn't come across as minimising or downplaying what anyone else is going through. I certainly didn't mean it that way.

 

[Aves]

Oh, I hope that didn't come across as minimising or downplaying what anyone else is going through. I certainly didn't mean it that way.

No don’t worry, it didn’t come across that way at all 😊

 

[Aves]

Yeah one day I was like...I can kill myself and not die because I don't really exist. It makes no sense, but that's how my brain felt at the time.

Yes! I’ve had that too, it’s so bloody weird

 

[Aurelia]

Does it ever happen to you when you feel ok? It will just happen to me when I’m feeling fine and it’s just so weird because it’s meant to be a protection against stress. The mind is so strange 😂

Lol it is very strange. You have to understand that there is shit going on in your mind that you're not even realizing. Certain thoughts you're having, you will definitely be consciously aware of, but certain ones you won't. So it's possible that it seems to happen randomly, but in actuality, may not be as random as you think. There is no clear cause for dissociation but it does typically happen to people who have experienced traumas and/or acute stress.

 

[Aurelia]

I guess my brain must be like, "eh, fuck it, she'll deal with it..." LOL because there have been times I begged and prayed for a dissociation episode just to not have to be aware of what's happening anymore and nope. It just gives me a big old fuck you, like, "nah, deal with it yourself, bitch...I'm going to go get a sandwich."

 

[Aurelia]

Btw, update on the whole nails/superglue situation...

I WAS able to get them off without having to go to the ER, lol. However, I think I'll still stick to nail glue next time lol.

 

[Ash600]

Btw, update on the whole nails/superglue situation...

I WAS able to get them off without having to go to the ER, lol. However, I think I'll still stick to nail glue next time lol.

I thought acetone would be able to deal with removing false nails? Or is it a set of plier?

 

[Aves]

Lol it is very strange. You have to understand that there is shit going on in your mind that you're not even realizing. Certain thoughts you're having, you will definitely be consciously aware of, but certain ones you won't. So it's possible that it seems to happen randomly, but in actuality, may not be as random as you think. There is no clear cause for dissociation but it does typically happen to people who have experienced traumas and/or acute stress.

Yeah that makes a lot of sense because I suppose your body wouldn’t do something to protect you if it didn’t need to.

 

[Aurelia]

I thought acetone would be able to deal with removing false nails? Or is it a set of plier?

Lol it was mainly my dumb ass deciding to use actual superglue in place of nail glue. Not sure if you know this because you're a guy, but apparently there IS a difference lol.

 

[Aves]

I guess my brain must be like, "eh, fuck it, she'll deal with it..." LOL because there have been times I begged and prayed for a dissociation episode just to not have to be aware of what's happening anymore and nope. It just gives me a big old fuck you, like, "nah, deal with it yourself, bitch...I'm going to go get a sandwich."

😂😂 I suppose even though there are typical symptoms of bpd everyone is different so we all experience them all differently. Like I said before, sometimes it does feel quite good when I’m having an episode like “yeah I’ll just let someone else do the driving for a bit whilst I go off somewhere”

 

[Aves]

Lol it was mainly my dumb ass deciding to use actual superglue in place of nail glue. Not sure if you know this because you're a guy, but apparently there IS a difference lol.

I’m glad you managed to get them off

 

[Aurelia]

I'm totally laughing my ass off at Wikipedia right now.

I just love the persuasive language they use to try to get people to donate.

"We're sure you're busy and all...but dish out some cash anyway. After all, we've provided you with all kinds of false, inaccurate information over the years that was not thoroughly researched"


And then the whole, "we HUMBLY ask you, do not ignore this..." sounds like they're talking about starving children FFS. So I click on "maybe later" and then that shit comes up haha. "Later? Ok. We'll remind you..."

 

[Aurelia]

😂😂 I suppose even though there are typical symptoms of bpd everyone is different so we all experience them all differently. Like I said before, sometimes it does feel quite good when I’m having an episode like “yeah I’ll just let someone else do the driving for a bit whilst I go off somewhere”

I guess, in a sense, it could be looked at as a good thing. As you said, it only does this as a survival mechanism. So maybe I'm just a lot stronger than I think and that's why. Even when it feels like I can't handle something, I can, which granted, has been proven many times already...especially as far as everything my husband has put me through.

 

[Aves]

I guess, in a sense, it could be looked at as a good thing. As you said, it only does this as a survival mechanism. So maybe I'm just a lot stronger than I think and that's why. Even when it feels like I can't handle something, I can, which granted, has been proven many times already...especially as far as everything my husband has put me through.

Yeah definitely, it must be something that your psyche has decided that it doesn’t need because you’ve been dealing with things well enough using what you’ve already got that you may not necessarily be aware of.

 

[Aurelia]

Yeah definitely, it must be something that your psyche has decided that it doesn’t need because you’ve been dealing with things well enough using what you’ve already got that you may not necessarily be aware of.

Pretty much. Though, I do wish it would consult me more on these decisions haha.

 

[Aves]

I'm totally laughing my ass off at Wikipedia right now.

I just love the persuasive language they use to try to get people to donate. View attachment 49264

"We're sure you're busy and all...but dish out some cash anyway. After all, we've provided you with all kinds of false, inaccurate information over the years that was not thoroughly researched"

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And then the whole, "we HUMBLY ask you, do not ignore this..." sounds like they're talking about starving children FFS. So I click on "maybe later" and then that shit comes up haha. "Later? Ok. We'll remind you..."

I remember when I first saw this on Wikipedia and was like “oh is everything alright with Wikipedia? Are they struggling for money?” And then I realised (when my husband told me) that they put these messages up all the time 😂

 

[Aurelia]

But yeah, as far as donations go, I can think of at least 10 things off the top of my head that I'd much rather donate to than Wikipedia.

Sf, for one thing.
Animal rights.
Homeless animals.
LGBT rights.
Equal pay for women at job sites for doing the same exact jobs as men do.
Environmental causes.
Mental illness research.
Addiction research.
Physics research.

...and there you go. That's 10. Lol.

 

[Aurelia]

In fact, that's going to be my good deed for the day. I don't donate to things much because I've always been broke, but while I have it, I think I'm actually going to pick 5 of those today and do that (SF, mental illness, homeless animals, addiction, and physics).

 

[Aves]

But yeah, as far as donations go, I can think of at least 10 things off the top of my head that I'd much rather donate to than Wikipedia.

Sf, for one thing.
Animal rights.
Homeless animals.
LGBT rights.
Equal pay for women at job sites for doing the same exact jobs as men do.
Environmental causes.
Mental illness research.
Addiction research.
Physics research.

...and there you go. That's 10. Lol.

Absolutely, and you don’t see charities for these things spouting that crap that Wikipedia puts on their site especially that “equal access to knowledge” bullshit. I’m sure most of the stuff on there is a load of garbage anyway.