BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I just got my whole thumb stuck in a wine bottle and managed to get it all over my face. I'm very clumsy, and yes, still drinking at 5 AM. Hey it's a holiday folks.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

There's a rule somewhere about not using the forum when you're drunk. As long as I can type and I'm coherent, I'm all good though.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

13. If you post on SF or enter chat while intoxicated to the point that it limits your coherence your account will be temporarily suspended until such time as you are able to give and receive support in the spirit of the site.

Oh I see, that's on chat. Thankfully i never go there. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I mean my coherence is limited at some points, but I'm never mean to people. So that's good I guess. I'm mean to myself but not anyone else.

 

[Aves]

And we're only 3 years apart, but I feel like I'm 80 already. lol

Same lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Sorry if I'm rambling too much...I always do it on this thread. But I feel most at home here.

 

[Aves]

Sorry if I'm rambling too much...I always do it on this thread. But I feel most at home here.

Its fine and you’re not rambling too much, I actually feel really at home here too. I like that I can just post something random when I feel like I need to get it out

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Its fine and you’re not rambling too much, I actually feel really at home here too. I like that I can just post something random when I feel like I need to get it out

Even when I'm drunk, my typing still is on point. I'm proud of that at least. haha
The drinking I'm not proud of. But it's good to be proud of something.

 

[Aves]

Even when I'm drunk, my typing still is on point. I'm proud of that at least. haha
The drinking I'm not proud of. But it's good to be proud of something.

I hope you’re ok, is it this time of year that’s set off the drinking again?

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I hope you’re ok, is it this time of year that’s set off the drinking again?

I think that may be it. I felt bad because I stopped for 3 years, I did it again, then I quit again, and I'm back to it. A new year just makes me feel inadequate, like what have I done with my life that's important? I feel that way on my birthday, too.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I feel like I'm letting everyone down. I'm so sorry you guys.

 

[Aves]

I think that may be it. I felt bad because I stopped for 3 years, I did it again, then I quit again, and I'm back to it. A new year just makes me feel inadequate, like what have I done with my life that's important? I feel that way on my birthday, too.

I get what you’re saying about that feeling of inadequacy, I always feel like my life has had many “false starts” which I know is a bpd thing but it’s still really frustrating. It doesn’t help that I constantly compare myself to others and minimise my own achievements.

 

[Aves]

I feel like I'm letting everyone down. I'm so sorry you guys.

You’re not letting anybody down, you’re going through stuff and you’re trying your best.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

You’re not letting anybody down, you’re going through stuff and you’re trying your best.

I just don't want to disappoint anyone. I feel like I'm good at that.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I told my friend I'm happy she has a good guy, and she said she hopes I can find a guy like him one day. I wish I could too, but I'm lucky and get stuck with ones who treat me like shit. But maybe that's what I deserve.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

My great-grandpa died when he was 38, not much older than me. He died of cirrhosis, but managed to accomplish a lot in his lifetime. My grandpa was an alcoholic and lost his bladder from cancer. My mom has fatty liver from drinking. I'll be the next casualty in this lineage, and I kinda don't care.

 

[Aurelia]

My friend asked if I got a lot of nice gifts, but I only got one gift, from @Aurelia. And it was awesome, though it makes me wonder if anyone else cares about me. I got 6 cards this year, last year I had more, it seems to be getting less with every year that passes. I wonder if people are just forgetting about me. My mom wants to take me and my sis shopping after Christmas, everything is half price then so maybe we'll find something nice.

Well, you can choose to look at it as less people care...or you can choose to look at it as things perhaps kind of evened out, because this is the first year I got you something, right? So you've also got new people showing they care now. Not that I didn't care all the years prior...was just too broke to get anything for anyone lol.

 

[Aurelia]

Well, my mom is right it seems...and I hate that she is, but she still is. The reality of the situation is that even though I most certainly can afford that apartment right now, I'm also still very liable to fuck it up by either getting fired or quitting at some point before the lease is up. I'm still trying to learn how to be stable and consistent...and until I basically have it down pat, it's probably not a good idea to commit to something like that.

 

[Aurelia]

Sorry if I'm rambling too much...I always do it on this thread. But I feel most at home here.

That's because all of us have similar problems and understand each other. We all need a place to feel at home. Glad I decided to make this thread.

 

[Aurelia]

@Witty⭐️Sarcasm ⭐️ stop getting freaking drunk, or I'm going to come over there and smack you upside the head. And also, Merry Christmas. Lol 🎄 🎁

@Aves Merry Christmas to you and your hubby and the rest of your family. 🎄 🎁

@Gwyrdd I really hope you're feeling a bit better today. Hope your day is going alright. I don't want to say "Merry Christmas" if it's not, though, because that would just sound stupid. Just know that we love you and care. ❤

@Ash600 Ashy, Merry Christmas. Just want you to know that you are still pretty much always on my mind, regardless of how much we talk or don't talk...and either way, no matter what, you're never getting rid of me lol. 🎄 🎁

@Walker and @Freya I love the both of you so very much. Merry Christmas. 🎄 🎁

@WhereTheRiverGoes Merry Christmas, and hope you have a wonderful day. You're amazing, and never forget that. 🎄 🎁

@Auri Merry Christmas, my dear. You are (and will always be) freaking awesome. 🎄 🎁

Everyone else who might be reading, I hope your day is amazing, or if not, then at least tolerable.