BPD Support Thread

[Pebble mouse]

it gets better on its own as they progress towards middle age, like maybe 40s and up.

That is definitely what happened for me. I have only had one admission in the last decade, but at least 20 overall. Actually, I probably don't even meet the criteria anymore. There is hope!

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I think my BPD is better in some ways. I still get suicidal thoughts, but I'm not as full of rage and have better control over my emotions.

 

[Aurelia]

So apparently, my fiance and I had a MAJOR misunderstanding about what BPD was. This whole time that I've been telling him I have BPD, he thought I meant Bipolar. Fucking facepalm.

I'm like BIPOLAR?? That's what you thought I had? Oh, NOOO, sweetheart...this ain't no fucking bipolar...

He's like "Oh...then what? Borderline Personality?"

"Mhmm...any clue what that even is?"

"Not really. I guess I'll look it up."

"Oh, swell...so I guess I better prepare you for the fact that what you're about to see online is probably going to scare the FUCK out of you...usually does most people"

_____

So he goes to read about it.
He's like don't worry, nothing is going to change my mind. I already love you...etc., etc. And I'm thinking to myself like, okay, I sure as fuck hope so, but still knowing deep down that this could also end very badly, LOL. Hell, it scared the shit out of me when I read about it for the first time...I can only imagine how it affects other people to read about it. I was like, "Look, i don't have EVERY single symptom exactly the way that it says online, but certain shit, yeah, I have issues with..." Then he's like you know what, fuck it, I don't even care what it says. It doesn't matter because I still love you. I'm like okay....well, I appreciate that, but there are certain things you still kind of might want to know. Although, it's probably best if I just explain to him how exactly I, personally, am affected by it at this time rather than him reading a bunch of crazy random shit that might not even apply to me.


Lol...I can't fucking believe he thought I had bipolar this entire time...christ.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

So apparently, my fiance and I had a MAJOR misunderstanding about what BPD was. This whole time that I've been telling him I have BPD, he thought I meant Bipolar. Fucking facepalm.

I'm like BIPOLAR?? That's what you thought I had? Oh, NOOO, sweetheart...this ain't no fucking bipolar...

He's like "Oh...then what? Borderline Personality?"

"Mhmm...any clue what that even is?"

"Not really. I guess I'll look it up."

"Oh, swell...so I guess I better prepare you for the fact that what you're about to see online is probably going to scare the FUCK out of you...usually does most people"

_____

So he goes to read about it.
He's like don't worry, nothing is going to change my mind. I already love you...etc., etc. And I'm thinking to myself like, okay, I sure as fuck hope so, but still knowing deep down that this could also end very badly, LOL. Hell, it scared the shit out of me when I read about it for the first time...I can only imagine how it affects other people to read about it. I was like, "Look, i don't have EVERY single symptom exactly the way that it says online, but certain shit, yeah, I have issues with..." Then he's like you know what, fuck it, I don't even care what it says. It doesn't matter because I still love you. I'm like okay....well, I appreciate that, but there are certain things you still kind of might want to know. Although, it's probably best if I just explain to him how exactly I, personally, am affected by it at this time rather than him reading a bunch of crazy random shit that might not even apply to me.


Lol...I can't fucking believe he thought I had bipolar this entire time...christ.

I feel like a lot of people don't know much about it. But the fact that he still cares about you regardless, that's really important. Some people have said they couldn't deal with me even though they actually knew I had BPD and what it entails.

 

[Aurelia]

I feel like a lot of people don't know much about it. But the fact that he still cares about you regardless, that's really important. Some people have said they couldn't deal with me even though they actually knew I had BPD and what it entails.

Yeah, I mean, he's definitely 100% in this. That much I can see. So I'm not really worried about him walking away. I just can't believe he thought that this whole time lol...it's like nope, sorry babe, not THAT one, the crazier one is what I have.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yeah, I mean, he's definitely 100% in this. That much I can see. So I'm not really worried about him walking away. I just can't believe he thought that this whole time lol...it's like nope, sorry babe, not THAT one, the crazier one is what I have.

Lol yeah it's surprising that people still haven't heard of it. I've had people look at the symptoms, or I told them about it, and they said it doesn't sound like me. Well let me tell you, I have all 9 symptoms at varying degrees.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

They probably just don't think it sounds like me because I internalize most of it.

 

[KM76710]

I feel like a lot of people don't know much about it. But the fact that he still cares about you regardless, that's really important. Some people have said they couldn't deal with me even though they actually knew I had BPD and what it entails.

I had only learned and read about it a number of years before joining here, so I can believe that many don't know much about it. I tell folks I am schizoid personality type and they assume it is schizophrenia.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I had only learned and read about it a number of years before joining here, so I can believe that many don't know much about it. I tell folks I am schizoid personality type and they assume it is schizophrenia.

Yeah, I know about the different types. Some people just assume it's all the same. Like my sister is schizoaffective and I know that's different.

 

[Aurelia]

They probably just don't think it sounds like me because I internalize most of it.

Oh sweetheart, trust me, I know you well enough to say with confidence that it most definitely sounds like you haha.

 

[Aurelia]

Finally turned off my husband's internet, which I've still been paying for for the past 6 months like an idiot. But that's done now...enough is enough. Just made the last payment on that account and that's that.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Oh sweetheart, trust me, I know you well enough to say with confidence that it most definitely sounds like you haha.

Well I know you do, but most people don't. And yeah, they just need to get to know me to realize how fucked up I am. haha

 

[Aurelia]

Well I know you do, but most people don't. And yeah, they just need to get to know me to realize how fucked up I am. haha

Not fucked up. I never said fucked up Definitely unique, in the best of ways.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Not fucked up. I never said fucked up Definitely unique, in the best of ways.

Lol I know, I just added that part myself

 

[Aurelia]

Lol I know, I just added that part myself

Well stttoooppp-it. Lol.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Well stttoooppp-it. Lol.

Ok, I'll try to see how awesome I am

 

[Aurelia]

Ok, I'll try to see how awesome I am

Yes, please do. Immediately....and make it stick, don't just think it for a second and then back to hating yourself...uh-uh. Nope. Think it and then keep thinking it and don't stop. K? K.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yes, please do. Immediately....and make it stick, don't just think it for a second and then back to hating yourself...uh-uh. Nope. Think it and then keep thinking it and don't stop. K? K.

I'll keep that in mind....and remember, you're awesome too. All of us are.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Sometimes when I'm on my own, it feels like I'm the only person in the world. Weird but true

 

[Crickets]

Sometimes when I'm on my own, it feels like I'm the only person in the world. Weird but true

Yea. It does get lonely. A life of solitude. Isolation. That's how it is for me.