The thing is, with me, it always feels like that at first too. But they always end up hurting you one way or another. In the beginning, it's like, I don't know, maybe they are their best selves because try harder to keep you. But then, eventually, they start not giving a shit and treating you like shit, and having very little regard for your feelings. But you're already attached at that point and in love, so you stick around anyway and forgive. But time after time, it just gets worse and worse until it starts feeling like they're not even the same person that you first met. I'm not saying that's how it's going to be with you, Witty, but that's how it's been with me. He's done things that most people would never have tolerated and stuck around for. And then there's the name calling, lashing out over dumb shit, disrespecting me, deliberately doing things that he knows will upset the fuck out of me, lying to me, hiding things from me, being unappreciative as hell of what I do for him and for us, and never even giving a shit when he hurts me and makes me cry. It just feels like the same story again and again. Granted, out of every chaotic relationship I've had, this one definitely takes the cake. But they're all the same in that they all hurt me over and over again, and I can't trust them. Every time I think, "Oh, this one is different than the rest," I end up being wrong. So I don't know, maybe if I decided to go with a woman instead, it wouldn't be this way.