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BPD Support Thread
- Thread starter Aurelia
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Just when I come back to the party, it's over. Great.
WS: I wanted to reply to the audio hallucinations thing. I have them. They were way worse when I was younger and not on any meds, but I still get them now. The voices I hear never say anything of real meaning or tell me to do anything. If they did, at least I know they are not real. Sometimes I can't even make out what they say, but it could be one word like what you described WS.
The longest sentence, or the only time they told me what to do was when I was about 7 years old. They said, "get away from that shoe." Ha ha ha. It was NOT funny at the time. Not at all. I nearly shit my pants and ran out of the room. I ran to my brother but was too afraid to tell him what was happening in fear he'd think I was nuts, which I was.
I also have synesthesia, but it was stronger when I was younger than it is now. It's not the kind where I can taste colors or music. It's a weird kind where letters and numbers are colored. They also have personalities and genders! It was hard to read and they thought I had dyslexia back then. If certain letters were next to each other and I knew they wouldn't get along, it would hold me up in a sentence or on a word. How fucking weird is that?
Anyway, don't be scared of hearing random words, or even snippets of sentences. I think it's a highlight of the anxiety/paranoia of BPD. I also have bipolar and it could be a little bit of a schizo-effective feature I have in there. I'm not sure, but it ran in my family slightly. My mom heard voices too. I have not ever had visuals. I'm happy for that. But just know it's as harmless as having a Deja-vu or something. Try to look at it that way. It will go away in the same moment it came.
I dated a guy when I was a teen who had schizophrenia and it was just coming on for him (around16). It was so scary for him. He had both audio and visual. He was petrified as it was all happening. I felt so bad, but I was as supportive as I could be with him because I understood it to a degree.
Anyway, I blabber a lot because I can't stay on here as long as you guys can and have fun with you, but I wish I could.
And share away. Makes me feel better about my own stuff. I feel like I overshare all the time.
How's your writing going?
WS: I wanted to reply to the audio hallucinations thing. I have them. They were way worse when I was younger and not on any meds, but I still get them now. The voices I hear never say anything of real meaning or tell me to do anything. If they did, at least I know they are not real. Sometimes I can't even make out what they say, but it could be one word like what you described WS.
The longest sentence, or the only time they told me what to do was when I was about 7 years old. They said, "get away from that shoe." Ha ha ha. It was NOT funny at the time. Not at all. I nearly shit my pants and ran out of the room. I ran to my brother but was too afraid to tell him what was happening in fear he'd think I was nuts, which I was.
I also have synesthesia, but it was stronger when I was younger than it is now. It's not the kind where I can taste colors or music. It's a weird kind where letters and numbers are colored. They also have personalities and genders! It was hard to read and they thought I had dyslexia back then. If certain letters were next to each other and I knew they wouldn't get along, it would hold me up in a sentence or on a word. How fucking weird is that?
Anyway, don't be scared of hearing random words, or even snippets of sentences. I think it's a highlight of the anxiety/paranoia of BPD. I also have bipolar and it could be a little bit of a schizo-effective feature I have in there. I'm not sure, but it ran in my family slightly. My mom heard voices too. I have not ever had visuals. I'm happy for that. But just know it's as harmless as having a Deja-vu or something. Try to look at it that way. It will go away in the same moment it came.
I dated a guy when I was a teen who had schizophrenia and it was just coming on for him (around16). It was so scary for him. He had both audio and visual. He was petrified as it was all happening. I felt so bad, but I was as supportive as I could be with him because I understood it to a degree.
Anyway, I blabber a lot because I can't stay on here as long as you guys can and have fun with you, but I wish I could.
And share away. Makes me feel better about my own stuff. I feel like I overshare all the time.
How's your writing going?
Well I just meant live recording, not recording "recording". I seriously meant "props" though as in you have more balls than I do for not being too reserved to do it. And I don't think you're a slut. I've gone against my own morals quite few times in the past, so can't really judge anyone for what they do. Sorry, I didn't step away because of that, I was just trying to get ready for work. I caved and texted you-know-who...even though I'm coming in a couple hours anyway, but either way, now the ball is in his court lol. So we'll see what happens. I'm just trying to figure out if anything changed or he was just tired maybe yesterday.
Lol, there's always a party going on around here several times daily it seems. And you're always free to start one 
Shit, I can only imagine if we were all in the same room together...I'm imagining lots of drugs, music, and sexual escapades.
Shit, I can only imagine if we were all in the same room together...I'm imagining lots of drugs, music, and sexual escapades.
Lol, I'm now being made fun of for the way I cut butter last night to make dinner. We had basically a chunk of it that was kind of like 2 sticks together to make the shape of a 3D rectangle. And the recipe called for 2 tbsp of it, so I cut a cube out that looked like 2 tbsp lol. My brother looks at it and starts laughing his ass off at me, asking why I didn't just cut it long ways. I'm like idk...cubes look nicer? He's like, "But it's still not even, though...I'm talking about geometry-wise here..." and keeps laughing. Lol.