BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I had a dream where people kept trying to kill me, and sometimes they did. And I kept reincarnating to the same place. Then I was in a hotel and had this muscular, male model looking dude who was my boyfriend. Not that it matters too much, but it was a definite bonus, lol. And I had PTSD from all these things happening, and tried to push him away, but he was so supportive. So I guess I can only find true love in my dreams. haha

 

[Aurelia]

I wanted to just let it go and not even call him tonight, but then I ended up calling anyway and decided to start shit over him spending what seems like quite a bit of time with someone who seems to like him, even though he claims not to like her. But knowing him, he could either just be using her or using her AND fucking her...so who knows. And if that's the case, I have no idea why I'd even bother speaking to him anymore...I wouldn't. And he knows that, so he could very well be lying that nothing has happened because he doesn't want to lose me permanently. But I also don't want to be the idiot who keeps helping him and caring when he's fucking someone else. Of course, I did that too, when we were on bad terms and not speaking, so I can't blame him if he did. But it's the mainly the fact that I can't trust him to tell me the truth that's tearing me apart.

 

[Aurelia]

He told me I was stressing him out almost instantly btw...

I was like, yeah, sucks when someone calls you and does that doesn't it?

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

He told me I was stressing him out almost instantly btw...

I was like, yeah, sucks when someone calls you and does that doesn't it?

Hmm well I would be cautious because he does seem to lie and twist the truth.

 

[Aurelia]

I had a dream where people kept trying to kill me, and sometimes they did. And I kept reincarnating to the same place. Then I was in a hotel and had this muscular, male model looking dude who was my boyfriend. Not that it matters too much, but it was a definite bonus, lol. And I had PTSD from all these things happening, and tried to push him away, but he was so supportive. So I guess I can only find true love in my dreams. haha

Aww. I'd protect you just the same you don't need a braindead, muscular moron when you've got a bad bitch like me by your side

 

[Aurelia]

Hmm well I would be cautious because he does seem to lie and twist the truth.

Yeah, exactly. So I don't know what to believe.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Aww. I'd protect you just the same you don't need a braindead, muscular moron when you've got a bad bitch like me by your side

Lol I know and I appreciate it. My friends are supportive, but it would be nice to have a relationship that's the same way. Unlike people who will judge you based on a diagnosis.

 

[Aurelia]

Lol I know and I appreciate it. My friends are supportive, but it would be nice to have a relationship that's the same way. Unlike people who will judge you based on a diagnosis.

Yeah, we're friends...but who knows what the future holds

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yeah, we're friends...but who knows what the future holds

That would be cool, haha. This guy was talking about how he dated a girl with BPD and went in for a lay but then she fucked with his head. That's another thing that worries me, people thinking you're an easy score just because you have BPD.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I feel like media depictions of BPD don't always help. Things like the Fatal Attraction/bunny boiler stereotype don't help.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

When I watched the movie it's like...yeah, this is basically the opposite of how I act. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I've written characters with BPD, and mine are more accurate for obvious reasons.

 

[Aurelia]

That would be cool, haha. This guy was talking about how he dated a girl with BPD and went in for a lay but then she fucked with his head. That's another thing that worries me, people thinking you're an easy score just because you have BPD.

Well I'm picky AF lol...so I don't just want an easy score. In fact, the more complex it is, the more it attracts me.

 

[Aurelia]

I feel like media depictions of BPD don't always help. Things like the Fatal Attraction/bunny boiler stereotype don't help.

Dude the media sucks at depictions of lots of things. How people act on drugs or in withdrawal as well.

 

[Aurelia]

I'm sorry maybe this sounds bitchy but what I the point of saying merry Christmas or happy holidays to people you never speak to? It doesn't mean a damn thing coming from some random person I never speak with

 

[Aurelia]

I got a pic of a black hole as my new avatar. I love their sense of mystery and complexity. Not to mention, it seems to fit me rather well. I do tend to destroy everything in my path...both the good and the bad, lol.

And don't even get me started on the symbolism of it, in regard to how I feel.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I got a pic of a black hole as my new avatar. I love their sense of mystery and complexity. Not to mention, it seems to fit me rather well. I do tend to destroy everything in my path...both the good and the bad, lol.

And don't even get me started on the symbolism of it, in regard to how I feel.

Well I don't think you destroy everything, but I can relate to that feeling.

 

[Aves]

I admit in high school I was as dopey as could get. I was a goofy looking kid and my face never really improved unless you are into scars. 5'6" and maybe 130 pounds wringing wet. Scrawny body, skinny buggy whip arms. Folks would comment that they knew my mom bought my clothes and would claim that probably knew every line from Star Trek. I did and still mostly do. LOL

People called me a “swot” in secondary school which is like the British equivalent of a nerd. I was also horrendously shy, quiet and would cry at everything and for some reason my face was a football (soccer ball) magnet

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

People called me a “swot” in secondary school which is like the British equivalent of a nerd. I was also horrendously shy, quiet and would cry at everything and for some reason my face was a football (soccer ball) magnet

That sounds like me and they never apologized, even if they ended up hitting me in the face with a ball. Maybe it was just intentional.

 

[Aves]

The school yard was always pretty much taken up by lads playing football so it was a nightmare trying to get across it without getting attacked by flying balls but it always seemed to be me who got hit