BPD Support Thread

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I have tears rolling down because it's so nice. I'm such a softhearted idiot. lol

 

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Yeah, he smokes a shitton of pot daily too lol..but it keeps him from doing other shit, so if it comes down to either beer and alcohol or opiates, I'll deal with the beer and alcohol. He freaks out too much. That's why i shove one of my klonopins down his throat once in a while lol

I don't do it much, but alcohol and weed both relax me. I know most people would argue otherwise, but maybe that's because my emotions are usually out of whack so it calms me down.

 

[Aurelia]

I don't do it much, but alcohol and weed both relax me. I know most people would argue otherwise, but maybe that's because my emotions are usually out of whack so it calms me down.

I can't do pot. I'm just not myself on it at all...and it makes me more restless than calm. But alcohol....apparently....makes me more fun and affectionate lol.

 

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I'm scrunching my eyes shut trying to stop the tears...not working lol. It's hard when you always wear your heart on your sleeve.

 

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I can't do pot. I'm just not myself on it at all...and it makes me more restless than calm. But alcohol....apparently....makes me more fun and affectionate lol.

You are fun, affectionate, and amazing no matter what. And I wanna cry more because you're a great friend.

 

[Aurelia]

I'm scrunching my eyes shut trying to stop the tears...not working lol. It's hard when you always wear your heart on your sleeve.

Aww. Don't cry, love. You're going to make me cry. Lol

 

[Aurelia]

You are fun, affectionate, and amazing no matter what. And I wanna cry more because you're a great friend.

So are you! Don't ever forget that. Once we're stable and inhaveba job and shit, I'm making him drive me to Michigan to come see you. Or if he doesn't want to, I'm coming anyway. Either way...lol.

 

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Aww. Don't cry, love. You're going to make me cry. Lol

I shouldn't be so open with my emotions...it can make me a target to certain types of people. But I can't hide it either.

 

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So are you! Don't ever forget that. Once we're stable and inhaveba job and shit, I'm making him drive me to Michigan to come see you. Or if he doesn't want to, I'm coming anyway. Either way...lol.

Lol yes, I would like to meet the man that has stolen your heart. It takes a strong man to keep up with such an amazing, fierce woman like yourself.

 

[Aurelia]

Damn...I'm fucked up off 2 beers LOL...wtf. I can't handle my alcohol at all it seems.

 

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My sister was sitting on my bed today and we were talking. it was so nice, like are we getting close again? I'd love that...I hate being distant from her.

 

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Damn...I'm fucked up off 2 beers LOL...wtf. I can't handle my alcohol at all it seems.

Lol me either, but I didn't eat much today so this may be why.

 

[Aurelia]

My sister was sitting on my bed today and we were talking. it was so nice, like are we getting close again? I'd love that...I hate being distant from her.

Yeah it was nice getting closer to my brother again. I miss him. I was the only one who ever cooked too, so I'm sure he misses me also lol

 

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I hope you're really doing ok and happy now. I hope everyone is...I worry about losing my family members and everyone else. You're so important to me.

 

[Aurelia]

I hope you're really doing ok and happy now. I hope everyone is...I worry about losing my family members and everyone else. You're so important to me.

Aw, sweetie, I'm doing okay. You don't have to worry about me. Gotta find a job again which kind of sucks because it was hard as shit the first time finding one I could actually handle and liked, and now I gotta do it all over again. But I'm sure it'll be okay...I did it once so I can do it again. Just gotta not be so negative all the time.

 

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Aw, sweetie, I'm doing okay. You don't have to worry about me. Gotta find a job again which kind of sucks because it was hard as shit the first time finding one I could actually handle and liked, and now I gotta do it all over again. But I'm sure it'll be okay...I did it once so I can do it again. Just gotta not be so negative all the time.

My mom keeps talking about drinking more and she's already sick. My sister has tried to kill herself like 10 times. And I worry about you guys especially because I know how BPD can be. But I'm glad you're doing well...I'm really happy for you.

 

[Aurelia]

My mom keeps talking about drinking more and she's already sick. My sister has tried to kill herself like 10 times. And I worry about you guys especially because I know how BPD can be. But I'm glad you're doing well...I'm really happy for you.

Christ...I remember you saying that about your sister the one time, but she kept trying to do it?

 

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Christ...I remember you saying that about your sister the one time, but she kept trying to do it?

Yeah just recently...and I worry she will succeed one day. I can't live without her or my mom. Besides them and my nephew, they're the only family I have left, and the only ones I have offline. I can't lose them...I just can't. It would crush me.

 

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More than anything, I'm scared to be alone. Maybe sounds dumb but it is what it is.

 

[Aurelia]

More than anything, I'm scared to be alone. Maybe sounds dumb but it is what it is.

I know, love...I'm so sorry. I would say just try your best to be there for her. It's all you really can do. I'm sorry you have to go through that.