Can't get up it the a.m.

[hazeleyes]

I am not a morning person, I never have been. I have the hardest time waking up in the morning, EVEN when I do get ENOUGH sleep at night. I just don't have a good enough reason to wake up. I really don't care about my life. I always hated going to school and now work is just impossible to wake up for. I'd rather be sleeping (read: I'd rather be dead). Anyone?

On the other side; nighttime. I purposely keep myself up much later on work nights because I think "the longer I stay awake now, the further away going to work will be, if I go to bed now I'll open my eyes and it'll be time for work". Does that make any sense?? It's also like night time is MY only time. The world is quiet, no one is up that I have to talk to, I can watch Netflix/YouTube/ go on Tumblr without my mother nagging me constantly. Late at night is the only time I can get my own peace.

 

[Rebreb]

I also feel better at night when the world is asleep - no guilt comes up from the busy people around if they are snoozing..

When I can't get up in the a.m., like today, then I get up in the p.m. And so it goes.

If you have to get up for work in the morning that's another story.

Before this depression I could get up in the morning so it's definitely related for me.