Doing the “three day rule”

[ElleisForLisa]

I did not know I have an underlying issue.. being mental then adding to it without the person knowing, it’s been hard. i want to make all it stop, I still just don’t know how. Statistics WOW
I feel so stupid thinking 2022 was the beginning of the end and I also blame the medication for doing longterm damage when I had no option but to take it to be able to function. I went into 2023 off of all my medication except one for my nerves I was fortunately able to take and if you want to count symptom medicine 3 in total. I don’t say this is smart I had serious medical issues and had to stop the huge amounts of medication the had gone on too long. Now 2024 officially cannot take a huge percent of mental health medication. I get sick on the daily now I can’t even take gravel? anyone else have last stage or any stage TD struggles? NOTHING to shut this mind down after being addicted to just that. <Mod edit - method> make it stop. I’m more than ready to give up, I have given up.
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For the mean time if I can get help with…..
The issue is how do you learn to function off them,
not come across as a complete asshat to everyone who try’s to help,
how do you not lose It on the people who make your struggle worse but are the only ones who actually care about you and are still with you.
I just keep running until my chest burns and I hit the ground. This happens more than it should and I literally have nowhere to run, this is odd behaviour also constant SH its like I’m 13 again and it’s all I have to cope.
dealing with you’re baby in the stars and the new news from a cold doctor that at a freakishly young age your not able to have your much wanted baby. Why go on?
< Mod edit - timeline> i will give on last try
This is my most desperate hour and im so pathetic it’s pathetic, and I know like who fucking cares?
I annoy myself so don’t worry i hate me too. I’ve isolated myself so well|badly to stay sober and yet I want to throw it all away.

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[1Lefty]

"This is my most desperate hour and im so pathetic it’s pathetic, and I know like who fucking cares? "

I don't think you're pathetic,
I care and people here care
I'm sorry about your TD
I'm sorry you're not able to have children

For getting off pills or medication, I would expect some change to your personality, that doesn't mean you'll act like an asshat
In fact, being aware may mean you're less likely to lash out at those trying to help
I think that's a lot to do in 3 days

I wish you the best

peace

 

[LonelyHiker]

@ElleisForLisa

You aren't pathetic. You're a good person who got dealt as bad hand (like most, if not all, of us here).

I'm sorry you are suffering. You may not feel like anyone cares, but we do.

I hope things get better for you.

 

[MisterBGone]

I did not know I have an underlying issue.. being mental then adding to it without the person knowing, it’s been hard. i want to make all it stop, I still just don’t know how. Statistics WOW
I feel so stupid thinking 2022 was the beginning of the end and I also blame the medication for doing longterm damage when I had no option but to take it to be able to function. I went into 2023 off of all my medication except one for my nerves I was fortunately able to take and if you want to count symptom medicine 3 in total. I don’t say this is smart I had serious medical issues and had to stop the huge amounts of medication the had gone on too long. Now 2024 officially cannot take a huge percent of mental health medication. I get sick on the daily now I can’t even take gravel? anyone else have last stage or any stage TD struggles? NOTHING to shut this mind down after being addicted to just that. <Mod edit - method> make it stop. I’m more than ready to give up, I have given up.
Mod edit - timeline>
For the mean time if I can get help with…..
The issue is how do you learn to function off them,
not come across as a complete asshat to everyone who try’s to help,
how do you not lose It on the people who make your struggle worse but are the only ones who actually care about you and are still with you.
I just keep running until my chest burns and I hit the ground. This happens more than it should and I literally have nowhere to run, this is odd behaviour also constant SH its like I’m 13 again and it’s all I have to cope.
dealing with you’re baby in the stars and the new news from a cold doctor that at a freakishly young age your not able to have your much wanted baby. Why go on?
< Mod edit - timeline> i will give on last try
This is my most desperate hour and im so pathetic it’s pathetic, and I know like who fucking cares?
I annoy myself so don’t worry i hate me too. I’ve isolated myself so well|badly to stay sober and yet I want to throw it all away.

Mod edit - timeline and method>

I'm sorry for all of the bad things that have happened to you, the uncertainty, and not being able to get the help you need, from relief of your mental health symptoms--due to being intolerable to the medications now. It really is all quite tragic. Never fun when you switch doc's & the new is not as good as the old. Reliable, trustworthy, whatever. Sometimes it can feel, as though they are working more against you, than for. Anyway, I don't have any answers, nor any solutions. Just wanted you to know that you've been heard. And I am now at least the third member hear who has replied to your post, and/or story. So, take for that what you will. Surely there are others who have read it and would also fall into this camp, virtually, of carers, so to speak. But to what that means to you, only you can know, and say. And although it wasn't overly clear to me, upon first & only read I am capable of doing in & of this moment, to what extent you are unable to get ahold of, or gain control of your mind & to be able to understand what it is that is going on at all times. For what loss of consciousness, or ability to have an awareness of what is happening at all times. I feel for you, I truly do! So here's hoping for the best, @ElleisForLisa

 

[ElleisForLisa]

I fully expected a change and I was told I would be supported through that process they

"This is my most desperate hour and im so pathetic it’s pathetic, and I know like who fucking cares? "

I don't think you're pathetic,
I care and people here care
I'm sorry about your TD
I'm sorry you're not able to have children

For getting off pills or medication, I would expect some change to your personality, that doesn't mean you'll act like an asshat
In fact, being aware may mean you're less likely to lash out at those trying to help
I think that's a lot to do in 3 days

I wish you the best

peace

oh friend you are too kind, BUT I have very sadly been (and I’m putting it nicely to say) a complete asshat. Thank you for saying a change is pretty much going to happen, I wish other people had that summon sense too. It has been almost a year a half though so it’s a tired excuse but it hasn’t been easy and very much was dependent on them on the really truly awful days. Yes you would think that would make me less likely to act out but to the contrary. I feel like I have to do an apology tour at the end of every week. Thanks for caring and showing support, best wishes back

 

[ElleisForLisa]

@ElleisForLisa

You aren't pathetic. You're a good person who got dealt as bad hand (like most, if not all, of us here).

I'm sorry you are suffering. You may not feel like anyone cares, but we do.

I hope things get better for you.

Thank you, everyone saying this isn’t pathetic is so supportive. I took a chance posting it because I thought and I was right people here would understand not feel annoyed with someone feeling this way. The things people say to someone who voices this aloud is so hurtful. You’re a good person too if you took time out of your day to show a stranger kindness, I hope all our suffering eases

 

[ElleisForLisa]

I'm sorry for all of the bad things that have happened to you, the uncertainty, and not being able to get the help you need, from relief of your mental health symptoms--due to being intolerable to the medications now. It really is all quite tragic. Never fun when you switch doc's & the new is not as good as the old. Reliable, trustworthy, whatever. Sometimes it can feel, as though they are working more against you, than for. Anyway, I don't have any answers, nor any solutions. Just wanted you to know that you've been heard. And I am now at least the third member hear who has replied to your post, and/or story. So, take for that what you will. Surely there are others who have read it and would also fall into this camp, virtually, of carers, so to speak. But to what that means to you, only you can know, and say. And although it wasn't overly clear to me, upon first & only read I am capable of doing in & of this moment, to what extent you are unable to get ahold of, or gain control of your mind & to be able to understand what it is that is going on at all times. For what loss of consciousness, or ability to have an awareness of what is happening at all times. I feel for you, I truly do! So here's hoping for the best, @ElleisForLisa

No solutions or answers is just fine. I’ll take your lovely post and kind words. Sometimes we need just to be heard but thank you and I’m sorry but the feeling is mutual I don’t fully understand this response but it seems like just good intentions. I do hope you the best too though and thank you.

 

[ElleisForLisa]

I did not know I have an underlying issue.. being mental then adding to it without the person knowing, it’s been hard. i want to make all it stop, I still just don’t know how. Statistics WOW
I feel so stupid thinking 2022 was the beginning of the end and I also blame the medication for doing longterm damage when I had no option but to take it to be able to function. I went into 2023 off of all my medication except one for my nerves I was fortunately able to take and if you want to count symptom medicine 3 in total. I don’t say this is smart I had serious medical issues and had to stop the huge amounts of medication the had gone on too long. Now 2024 officially cannot take a huge percent of mental health medication. I get sick on the daily now I can’t even take gravel? anyone else have last stage or any stage TD struggles? NOTHING to shut this mind down after being addicted to just that. <Mod edit - method> make it stop. I’m more than ready to give up, I have given up.
Mod edit - timeline>
For the mean time if I can get help with…..
The issue is how do you learn to function off them,
not come across as a complete asshat to everyone who try’s to help,
how do you not lose It on the people who make your struggle worse but are the only ones who actually care about you and are still with you.
I just keep running until my chest burns and I hit the ground. This happens more than it should and I literally have nowhere to run, this is odd behaviour also constant SH its like I’m 13 again and it’s all I have to cope.
dealing with you’re baby in the stars and the new news from a cold doctor that at a freakishly young age your not able to have your much wanted baby. Why go on?
< Mod edit - timeline> i will give on last try
This is my most desperate hour and im so pathetic it’s pathetic, and I know like who fucking cares?
I annoy myself so don’t worry i hate me too. I’ve isolated myself so well|badly to stay sober and yet I want to throw it all away.

Mod edit - timeline and method>

This had to be edited so sorry for confusion didn’t think that would of happened 😬 I tried to be careful

 

[MisterBGone]

No solutions or answers is just fine. I’ll take your lovely post and kind words. Sometimes we need just to be heard but thank you and I’m sorry but the feeling is mutual I don’t fully understand this response but it seems like just good intentions. I do hope you the best too though and thank you.

Sure thing, and no troubles at all. As I'm often hard to follow, or understand on here, with the way I phrase things. I'll take another look at it, and if there's anything I can think to clean-up, or make it more easy to read, digest, and comprehend. Then I will think about redoing it, or giving it another shot. Otherwise, I will just leave it as is, or be. So as not to make matters any worse. : ) If however, there was anything in particular (besides overall, or most all of it?) that you'd have questions about, and didn't mind or felt like pointing out, I'd be happy to address them as well. Take care, and I'll see you later!

 

[MisterBGone]

This had to be edited so sorry for confusion didn’t think that would of happened 😬 I tried to be careful

Hey, no worries! It's an honest misstep that happens to us all, on occasion. Especially when not having been here for very long, or approached this subject, in that manner. But if you read the rules, it may help you to better understand areas where you can avoid things like this in the future. Typically we just want to try to avoid the things which will be pertaining to subject matter revolving around methods, or timelines, things like that. As it can make others who are hurting, or more vulnerable, maybe feel even more-so. Etc.

 

[MisterBGone]

For the mean time if I can get help with…..
The issue is how do you learn to function off them,

how do you not lose It on the people who make your struggle worse but are the only ones who actually care about you and are still with you.

Are you under the care of some very sound & good--and by that; I mean, "competent," (in your eyes) 'professionals?' Primarily thinking in terms of Psychiatrist & Psychologist... Regardless of who is overseeing your care, do they have any ideas, or other suggestions for you - beyond that, which is currently being offered to you now? So, for instance, if you are only seeing a primary care physician. And he or she is prescribing you your meds, and by the sounds of it, no psych meds. Do they then provide you with no opportunity, or outlet, for talk-therapy, or counseling of some sort? These are the kinds of things that may help you with some of the problems that you are bringing to the forefront now. Let me know if anything I just said wasn't clear. : )

 

[KM76710]

Thank you, everyone saying this isn’t pathetic is so supportive. I took a chance posting it because I thought and I was right people here would understand not feel annoyed with someone feeling this way. The things people say to someone who voices this aloud is so hurtful. You’re a good person too if you took time out of your day to show a stranger kindness, I hope all our suffering eases

This is a good spot to take a chance, knowing that supportive and caring people are around and about for you and others.

 

[ElleisForLisa]

Are you under the care of some very sound & good--and by that; I mean, "competent," (in your eyes) 'professionals?' Primarily thinking in terms of Psychiatrist & Psychologist... Regardless of who is overseeing your care, do they have any ideas, or other suggestions for you - beyond that, which is currently being offered to you now? So, for instance, if you are only seeing a primary care physician. And he or she is prescribing you your meds, and by the sounds of it, no psych meds. Do they then provide you with no opportunity, or outlet, for talk-therapy, or counseling of some sort? These are the kinds of things that may help you with some of the problems that you are bringing to the forefront now. Let me know if anything I just said wasn't clear. : )

Psych meds where already in place for a very long time by a psychiatrists then my family GP fully took over until 2 years ago. I am seeing a new kind of therapist since traditional mental health doesn’t help someone who has a different belief system rather than western medicine and westernized therapy. I quit traditional CBT therapy in 2018 focus more on CPT and now as I said a new approach with a new therapist and their form of therapy. And for the physical health issue I am lucky enough to have a specialist now doing what she can as she saw the lack of help from personal GP. So in short the “competent“ ones are few and far between..

 

[ElleisForLisa]

Hey, no worries! It's an honest misstep that happens to us all, on occasion. Especially when not having been here for very long, or approached this subject, in that manner. But if you read the rules, it may help you to better understand areas where you can avoid things like this in the future. Typically we just want to try to avoid the things which will be pertaining to subject matter revolving around methods, or timelines, things like that. As it can make others who are hurting, or more vulnerable, maybe feel even more-so. Etc.

I totally get it but it is weird it is what the website that encouraged me to come here suggest that, but won’t happen again never on purpose anyways

 

[ElleisForLisa]

This is a good spot to take a chance, knowing that supportive and caring people are around and about for you and others.

very caring people indeed

 

[Lifeisthis]

Please don't give up