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Emergency Box
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Um....in no particular order, save for the first one:
1) A picture of my best friend/unbiological sister
2) a couple bucks for ice cream
3) a program from a play I was in (which is connected to many good memories)
4) 'therapist in a box' I got from Barnes and Noble
5) scented candles
6) Ananda Shankar CD
1) A picture of my best friend/unbiological sister
2) a couple bucks for ice cream
3) a program from a play I was in (which is connected to many good memories)
4) 'therapist in a box' I got from Barnes and Noble
5) scented candles
6) Ananda Shankar CD
it's a bottomless box- an abyss that is my emergency box. the tattered crisis team cards are used , worn , recently discarded and my therapist's card is heading towards a similar fate. the dustbin.
it's not much but it's a lot. who'd have thought looking on to an abyss would save my life.
it's not much but it's a lot. who'd have thought looking on to an abyss would save my life.
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I appreciate this post. It may save my life.
I would put a bunch of pictures of girls that make me happy. I always relate better with girls. I'm not gay or anything, raised by a single mom lol.
I would put this little bear/dog thing in there, if I still have it. My best childhood friend and I both had one. Mine was brown and his was white. We had so much fun.
I would put a guitar pick in there, and a pencil, to remind me to do somethign with my hands, like play guitar or write a poem.
I would put a copy of Reinkaos in there, cuz it's very powerful music.
I'd put a funny hat in there cuz I like feeling goofy.
I'd put some porn in there, cuz it's a good way to remove yourself.
I'd put a pair of socks in there, so I don't have to look for them if I need to leave the house.
I'd put some dark, gothic picture in there, so I could imagine myself there.
I'd put numbers and emails of loving friends, and SF
I'd put a picture of my doggies, cuz they love me more than anybody in the world.
I'd put something to curl up with, like a pillow.
I'd put pictures of my brother. He killed himself, but I don't think it would trigger, since I know I was the only one he cared about. I also know he's still with me. I love my brother more than anybody or anything.
i'd put a hanky in there, to remind myself to cry. My friend told me "it's okay to cry. Tears wash the soul."
I'd put a model space marine in there, and a dark eldar, cuz I love them dudes. I gave mine a custom paintjob and some special rules and a whole indepth back story. I even have custom units.
I would just put things in there that take me away, but remind me that the world still has things to enjoy.
I would put a bunch of pictures of girls that make me happy. I always relate better with girls. I'm not gay or anything, raised by a single mom lol.
I would put this little bear/dog thing in there, if I still have it. My best childhood friend and I both had one. Mine was brown and his was white. We had so much fun.
I would put a guitar pick in there, and a pencil, to remind me to do somethign with my hands, like play guitar or write a poem.
I would put a copy of Reinkaos in there, cuz it's very powerful music.
I'd put a funny hat in there cuz I like feeling goofy.
I'd put some porn in there, cuz it's a good way to remove yourself.
I'd put a pair of socks in there, so I don't have to look for them if I need to leave the house.
I'd put some dark, gothic picture in there, so I could imagine myself there.
I'd put numbers and emails of loving friends, and SF
I'd put a picture of my doggies, cuz they love me more than anybody in the world.
I'd put something to curl up with, like a pillow.
I'd put pictures of my brother. He killed himself, but I don't think it would trigger, since I know I was the only one he cared about. I also know he's still with me. I love my brother more than anybody or anything.
i'd put a hanky in there, to remind myself to cry. My friend told me "it's okay to cry. Tears wash the soul."
I'd put a model space marine in there, and a dark eldar, cuz I love them dudes. I gave mine a custom paintjob and some special rules and a whole indepth back story. I even have custom units.
I would just put things in there that take me away, but remind me that the world still has things to enjoy.
My box would be empty,
why,
because i feel like useless in this world, and by looking at that empty box, it would make me think,
< have i wasted all my years for nothing worth a second thought or nothing that worth remembering it ?,>
it will shock me of course, but in the deepest of all i want, i know i want to stay somewhere, and live, i would say to myself,
°°that i missed something in life°°,
and i cant go wihtout knowing what it is, so i would shake up myself and stand high, with the only ideal of finding it, and maybe being crazy by hoping something again to happen.
Or maybe just to find something worth to be in my box, something that can give me love somehow, and so life on, hoping to find more things, and one day i think i could hope for a full box of thing that i would see everyday (simple things, probably), that make me live over and over.
why,
because i feel like useless in this world, and by looking at that empty box, it would make me think,
< have i wasted all my years for nothing worth a second thought or nothing that worth remembering it ?,>
it will shock me of course, but in the deepest of all i want, i know i want to stay somewhere, and live, i would say to myself,
°°that i missed something in life°°,
and i cant go wihtout knowing what it is, so i would shake up myself and stand high, with the only ideal of finding it, and maybe being crazy by hoping something again to happen.
Or maybe just to find something worth to be in my box, something that can give me love somehow, and so life on, hoping to find more things, and one day i think i could hope for a full box of thing that i would see everyday (simple things, probably), that make me live over and over.
I, too, have nothing for my emergency box. Nothing has any meaning. I screw everything up. I'm too fucked up in the head. Even my dog is better off without me. There's nothing in my past that's worth remembering because its all painful. There's nothing in the future to think about because no one will ever love me and I'll always be fucked up and poor and life will always suck. So no emergency box for me.
nothing is worth living for, i have no future, i screwed up my life with drugs, my parents hate me, my friends are all crackheads, i dont know what to do, in my emergency box all i have is paint and pictures, painting is my life, i dont care if its illegal, i dont care if it pisses ppl off, i dont care if ppl like it or not, it gives me a rush and a reason to live, something to do at night, when everyone sleeps, but it wont get me anywhere, it doesnt help my future, it doesnt make me a better person...
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