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Everybody shouted at me angrily in my school

einimeamullaoo

einimeamullaoo

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#1
#1
This happened when I was in fourth grade in my elementary school.

There was a shallow pit in a small forest near my school backyard. About a half meter deep. I was among with the other children of my age and we decided to make a camouflage to this shallow pit for fun. Something like a simple and a non-serious trapping pit without any target. When the trapping pit was half ready and I was putting a branch in the middle of the pit, I was leaning forward to reach better the middle part of the pit. Then suddenly my other arm slipped from the edge of the pit and I fell to the bottom accidentally. And thus I ruined the camouflage of the pit.

I still remember how everybody shouted my name SO loudly and angrily at the same time. And I still remember how did I went away immediately, my eyes were full of hot tears and I was feeling so broken. Like something unforgiving has happened. The other children apparently thought I did that on purpose, they left me alone and they continued their stupid play like nothing has happened. I was aside all alone ever since then in school. No any kind of resolving or reconcile after that. Not a single word.

One of my earliest moments when I was facing alone against hostile everybody.
 
may71

may71

mr. may
#2
#2
I'm sorry this happened, and that it had such a profound effect on your social relationships. It's understandable that this was painful. I wish things had worked out differently and better than they did.
 
Anchorchain

Anchorchain

Well-Known Member
#8
#8
You cannot forget. You can still hear their shout. There doesn't seem to be forgiveness, reconciling or resolving.......
I believe you and I can find common cause with the experience you're telling us......because I live with my own version of those memories that seem to keep on echoing in my head, years after the events happened.

Just letting it go and moving on is easier said than done, but what other choices do we have? We're not the same person that we were when these things happened to us, so maybe, just maybe, it might be a step in the direction of letting it go and moving toward resolving to forgive the young person that we were then......for ruining the camouflage of the pit (or whatever the mistake was).

Let's both of us, when we still hear the shout from years ago, tell ourselves: 'That isn't me anymore....that was the kid that I used to be who fell into the pit......' And tell that youngster, it's OK, it wasn't your fault.

If we keep doing that, we might be able to resolve the memories and let them go. Good luck to both of us.
 
Lady Wolfshead

Lady Wolfshead

wishes you well
#10
#10
*hug10

It absolutely was not your fault, and I'm sure the other kids forgot about it quickly. I was badly bullied in elementary school, but what works for me is to put those memories in a trunk. I visualize an attic of memories and all the good ones are on the walls of the attic, and the not-so-good ones I put in the trunk. They will always be there, but when I'm tempted to look in the trunk I look at the walls and review my good memories. Even if you think of it, make sure you think of good memories afterwards.
 
nicktheundoer

nicktheundoer

Love love love
#12
#12
einimeamullaoo said:
This happened when I was in fourth grade in my elementary school.

There was a shallow pit in a small forest near my school backyard. About a half meter deep. I was among with the other children of my age and we decided to make a camouflage to this shallow pit for fun. Something like a simple and a non-serious trapping pit without any target. When the trapping pit was half ready and I was putting a branch in the middle of the pit, I was leaning forward to reach better the middle part of the pit. Then suddenly my other arm slipped from the edge of the pit and I fell to the bottom accidentally. And thus I ruined the camouflage of the pit.

I still remember how everybody shouted my name SO loudly and angrily at the same time. And I still remember how did I went away immediately, my eyes were full of hot tears and I was feeling so broken. Like something unforgiving has happened. The other children apparently thought I did that on purpose, they left me alone and they continued their stupid play like nothing has happened. I was aside all alone ever since then in school. No any kind of resolving or reconcile after that. Not a single word.

One of my earliest moments when I was facing alone against hostile everybody.
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I'm so sorry for what you've gone through..hugs...🫂 try not to replay the memory in your head..bcos you get hurt everytime you replay it..forgive them..and wish them love and let go..I'm so sorry tho..it must have been hurtful..hugs....
 
Aurelia

Aurelia

🔥 A Fire Inside 🔥
SF Supporter
#15
#15
einimeamullaoo said:
This happened when I was in fourth grade in my elementary school.

There was a shallow pit in a small forest near my school backyard. About a half meter deep. I was among with the other children of my age and we decided to make a camouflage to this shallow pit for fun. Something like a simple and a non-serious trapping pit without any target. When the trapping pit was half ready and I was putting a branch in the middle of the pit, I was leaning forward to reach better the middle part of the pit. Then suddenly my other arm slipped from the edge of the pit and I fell to the bottom accidentally. And thus I ruined the camouflage of the pit.

I still remember how everybody shouted my name SO loudly and angrily at the same time. And I still remember how did I went away immediately, my eyes were full of hot tears and I was feeling so broken. Like something unforgiving has happened. The other children apparently thought I did that on purpose, they left me alone and they continued their stupid play like nothing has happened. I was aside all alone ever since then in school. No any kind of resolving or reconcile after that. Not a single word.

One of my earliest moments when I was facing alone against hostile everybody.
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I would pray to God to help you forget and feel better about it. I've found it extremely helpful. Sometimes I literally feel better within seconds or less after doing this.
 
nicktheundoer

nicktheundoer

Love love love
#18
#18
einimeamullaoo said:
This happened when I was in fourth grade in my elementary school.

There was a shallow pit in a small forest near my school backyard. About a half meter deep. I was among with the other children of my age and we decided to make a camouflage to this shallow pit for fun. Something like a simple and a non-serious trapping pit without any target. When the trapping pit was half ready and I was putting a branch in the middle of the pit, I was leaning forward to reach better the middle part of the pit. Then suddenly my other arm slipped from the edge of the pit and I fell to the bottom accidentally. And thus I ruined the camouflage of the pit.

I still remember how everybody shouted my name SO loudly and angrily at the same time. And I still remember how did I went away immediately, my eyes were full of hot tears and I was feeling so broken. Like something unforgiving has happened. The other children apparently thought I did that on purpose, they left me alone and they continued their stupid play like nothing has happened. I was aside all alone ever since then in school. No any kind of resolving or reconcile after that. Not a single word.

One of my earliest moments when I was facing alone against hostile everybody.
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*sadhug*sadhug
 
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