I found this video on Youtube of a guy who talks about his experience with Fibromyalgia and it really just does all the talking for me.. I relate a lot to what he says. I am frustrated with everything. And I wish I could do so much more. I'm tired of the stigma. I'm tired of hiding my pain. Some days I just wish I could muster the energy and calm down the anxiety enough to go to the store just to go for a walk. But my back has been killing me really bad lately. I have tried working 5 separate times. All to fail. And I am now severely paying for my last attempt to work. I don't know how I can accept this. But I somehow have to.. I cried today reading an article about a fairly popular man, a football player, who went to an anime convention recently. It made me cry because the last 2 times I have tried going to a convention I hardly could do anything.. I was constantly trying to care for myself and It's just so stupid to cry over.. I know it is selfish.. I'm not looking for answers here.. I am tired of all the theories and "cures" out there.. I am tired of being told just do this or that.. All I want here is people to understand what I go through.. And to be there for me to vent if I need it..