I have always had problems with relationships, that is nothing new. After yet another botched relationship that ended with me getting cheated on yet again.. I decided I was done searching, Id let them find me. I am a nerd at heart, and I enjoy my online video games. Well I met this wonderful woman. She has a husband and is in a polyamarous relationship. She is 10 years older than me (she's 30). We began falling for each Other pretty quickly..neither of us ever thought of a long distance relationship..she lives a couple states away..we have even taken off work to meet at the end of next month. We have grown very dependant of each Other..I am very anti social. And her husband is often away a majority of the time. She doesn't want a poly relationship per se, just one more (like me for instance). We've learned each Other so much and she has always been there for me and I her.. She gets really insecure..the past couple weeks she has been getting upset at me almost daily. No matter how hard I try I always end up upsetting her or making her feel unimportant. I honestly try my hardest, I've never been so invested. She says I put her through mind games and she is tired of it.. I honestly don't know how..but I understand the struggle, hence it being a long distance relationship. But we are happy 99% of the time.. And when we are good, we are gold, nothing can bring us down..but when we are down, I'm reminded of how hard life is and I am not focused on her face. I look past that and think of how close I was to ending things before she came into my life.. I want so much with her.. But I honestly don't know what more I can do..
