How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Livelife]

I don't know where else to put this. I wanted to die many times in my life. Now I'm worried about my health. I didn't know leaving the gallbladder in too long when i was told it should come out could cause cancer. I'm not saying i have cancer. But something is really wrong, I can't eat without stomach issues. Nothing stays in. Hopefully it's just a virus but I'd been told to get this gallbladdr out sooner... I had to google it...

I'm not ready to die. My younger son needs me, and last winter when I went away my older son said he needs me. My doctor just went away for two weeks. I'll wait and book an appt. I just want my sons to be ok, content, but it seems a real struggle for them. I'd still like to grow older with them and see their lives unfold into something greater for themselves with a lot of love in their lives.

Did they tell you you have sludge? or gallstones? infection? What is the actual diagnosis if you care to share?.......How long have you been having the stomach issues and how long ago did they tell you to start thinking about having it removed, if I'm reading this correctly? Just questions for discerning further since it sounds like you still might be trying to decide which way to go with this.....don't mean to pry. If I am, please just completely ignore me.

 

[DowntheRabbitHole]

not doing so good i seem to be spiraling down the drain. i haven't taken my lorazepam in ages but i'm back on them again

mike

Sending you some calming, healing energy, Mike

 

[Gonz]

not doing so good i seem to be spiraling down the drain. i haven't taken my lorazepam in ages but i'm back on them again

mike

I’m sorry mike. I hope the lorazepam helps. Just remember that things have gotten better before, and will again. I hope that happens soon.

 

[SillyOldBear]

not doing so good i seem to be spiraling down the drain. i haven't taken my lorazepam in ages but i'm back on them again

mike

Sorry you are doing so poorly right now. I am thinking about taking lorazepam myself today. Left the office early because I felt so bad. It is so time for both of us to go home.

 

[1964dodge]

nobody worry i'm doing fine enough

mike

 

[KM76710]

Guys,

Got some AMAZING news today. My brother's rectal scans and biopsy results came back, and his cancer is gone! There's a tiny lump of scar tissue apparently, but the biopsy was negative for any malignancy. So, the radiation and chemo appear to have destroyed the cancer.

He meets with the surgeon this week and they will tell him if there's a need to remove the small lump of tissue that's left. But he is unlikely to need the colostomy bag which of course is a BIG deal.

He is thrilled and it's still sinking in and he might not even need surgery.

That is excellent news. I hope the future continues well and improves for your brother.

 

[James1200]

No friends. My parents are mentally-ill and cruel. No work history and 32. Rent is outrageous. Shelters are awful. I am slowly giving up.

 

[Waves]

I understand, I live in my home and barely get a conversation with my own children. And the chance of making friends gets slim to nothing as one gets older. I'm glad you had that mentor. I also had a kind neighbor who taught me much about a luv for nature and sports. I miss him. I am glad to see you here Waves. I'm not sure what words will bring you comfort except that you can count on me for support and pm me anytime.

Thank you

 

[Astrid78]

nobody worry i'm doing fine enough

mike

 

[TragicReality]

Did they tell you you have sludge? or gallstones? infection? What is the actual diagnosis if you care to share?.......How long have you been having the stomach issues and how long ago did they tell you to start thinking about having it removed, if I'm reading this correctly? Just questions for discerning further since it sounds like you still might be trying to decide which way to go with this.....don't mean to pry. If I am, please just completely ignore me.

It's got to be over 10 yrs ago a surgeon told me to take it out or everything will get worse. I think it's time to schedule a surgery with my doctor. The problem was I had troubles a few years ago, my doctor sent me to a different surgeon, and even though it was obvious I had sludge and big gallstones, he said my symptoms meant i didn't need surgery, and this is about 7 yrs after being told I must get it out. It was googling cancer symptoms that scared me. Unexpected wieght loss, I have that, I've dropped another ten pounds without trying... and the running to the bathroom (sorry if tmi)...
Thanks for asking @Livelife!

 

[TragicReality]

No friends. My parents are mentally-ill and cruel. No work history and 32. Rent is outrageous. Shelters are awful. I am slowly giving up.

I'm sorry for what you are going through. yes some shelters are awful... I hope you find somewhere safe

 

[SillyOldBear]

I feel in need of permanent sleep.

 

[MAC0]

Hey, wow didn't know that you had no internet for months. I always see your ID "online" on PSN. That was strange, but hey, it's been a while. Haven't seen you in the game thread. Are you still playing our usual fav games? lol.

Been using a mobile phone for a hotspot so i get into youtube and watch stuff

Gaming yeah still playing just spent 100 on the sales on xbox but .also been giving mum 50 a week for shopping

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Went to my writing group's social gathering's last night. This is the group where the organizer rejected me for my mental health diagnosis (which is actually wrong but that's a whole other story). Anyway, she and 2 other people were there (supposed to be 6 people but 2 cancelled) and it was pretty good. We had a good time talking about books and writing and various things. But I can't help feeling a bit sad still that she has rejected me as a friend, and I feel like she will only be seeking to confirm her bias, so will tend to see me in a negative light. But there's nothing I can do about it so I don't want to dwell on it but it's hard - I even dreamed about her.

 

[Sammyz44]

I just want to fucking die!

I know how you feel

 

[Sammyz44]

Isn’t life just so so hard? You try to be a good person. Work hard. Work through trauma. And yet. You still end up in a ditch. My relationship has broken up. He has just cut me off. I have no family my parents passed away so did my sister. I lost my job. I’m interviewing like crazy with no job on the horizon. I feel unseen by my friends. I have no one & nothing. And have had enough of this so called thing called life.

 

[Windhover]

Welcome @Sammyz44 . Sorry that you're feeling and experiencing this level of distress and on multiple fronts. Coming here can help, because it's a safe place to let it out and be heard by understanding people.

I hope your interviews turn out well and you revieve some good offers.

hug

 

[Windhover]

I don't think going into details would help. I am not okay today

 

[AvidFan]

I don't think going into details would help. I am not okay today

😥

 

[Gonz]

I don't think going into details would help. I am not okay today

I’m sorry. I hope tomorrow is better.