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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I feel that panic pain of being abandoned. No one to call for support. I understand that people are uncomfortable with depression and anxiety. It Is a helpless depressing feeling for them. Even in good times I am alone. I know I brought this on myself. But I also wonder did I really? People leave people who are devoted to them. People die. Who is to say it would have been any differently. I did try to make a network. But too late. I am not a bad person. I am actually nice. Been told that many times. But was very guarded when young. Afraid if getting hurt. Everyone is old now. No one networks now. They are all suspicious of new people. I understand why. It is challenging.
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Lmao. I cant. Its getting laughable. I feel so sorry I have mother like this everytime I'm trying.
Me: Ma can we---
Mum: Just imagine if I'm no longer around...
Here comes her sad sob story trying to guilt me for even trying, shes definitely wanting exclude me out from her life. Why do I even bother.
Me: Ma can we---
Mum: Just imagine if I'm no longer around...
Here comes her sad sob story trying to guilt me for even trying, shes definitely wanting exclude me out from her life. Why do I even bother.
i feel guilty and ashamed 😞
i feel like a shitty human being because i don't do enough for others. i feel that i am not appreciative enough for the kindness others show me. i feel guilty for causing emotional hurt to others and feel i can be insensitive to that because i am ignorant and unaware at times.
i want to be a kinder person. i want to be a better person. i want to do more for others and repay their kindness better. i want to show more appreciation to the ones who help me.
i hate myself right now for being who i am and i am sorry.
i feel like a shitty human being because i don't do enough for others. i feel that i am not appreciative enough for the kindness others show me. i feel guilty for causing emotional hurt to others and feel i can be insensitive to that because i am ignorant and unaware at times.
i want to be a kinder person. i want to be a better person. i want to do more for others and repay their kindness better. i want to show more appreciation to the ones who help me.
i hate myself right now for being who i am and i am sorry.
This morning I woke up feeling alright but I was very emotional. I can tell therapy is helping me though, because I'm beginning to face everything and talk about things that I've been bottling up and keeping inside. I ended up crying and talking to my brother earlier this afternoon. He was very supportive of me and listened to me. I'm really glad I have him as a brother. I am really thankful for that too.
I understand what you're saying - but did you ask to be born? None of us did that I recall. You don't automatically get put on this earth with an obligation to help others. It's important not to hurt others if possible, but you don't have to prove yourself a worthy person by living up to some standard (and I can tell you it never feels like enough even if you do help others).
You aren't automatically "shitty" because you aren't volunteering at a soup kitchen or saving lost kittens. I would say a "shitty" person is stealing from others or doing harm.
I was brought up strict Catholic so I was indoctrinated to believe that I had to earn my way into Heaven by being a saint. I'm not sure what your belief system is, but I like the Wiccan rede: "An it harm none, do what thou wilt."
Having said that, I now follow the path of Stoicism which is to live virtuously. But you don't do it to earn your way into Heaven or prove yourself (even to yourself).
How would you talk to a close friend who is having the feelings of inadequacy or being bad or worthless? I'll bet you would have compassion. Please see yourself with the same compassion.
And lots of "do gooders" do things for their own reasons that are not necessarily virtuous.
You aren't automatically "shitty" because you aren't volunteering at a soup kitchen or saving lost kittens. I would say a "shitty" person is stealing from others or doing harm.
I was brought up strict Catholic so I was indoctrinated to believe that I had to earn my way into Heaven by being a saint. I'm not sure what your belief system is, but I like the Wiccan rede: "An it harm none, do what thou wilt."
Having said that, I now follow the path of Stoicism which is to live virtuously. But you don't do it to earn your way into Heaven or prove yourself (even to yourself).
How would you talk to a close friend who is having the feelings of inadequacy or being bad or worthless? I'll bet you would have compassion. Please see yourself with the same compassion.
And lots of "do gooders" do things for their own reasons that are not necessarily virtuous.
today started not too good. i had an eye appointment so had to go out today, took my wife to the store first and then to get fish for the aquarium. it was almost 90 f out so not pleasant in a car with no a.c. , one of our 15 year old chihauhas is smort. he goes in back and lays under Barbara our almost life size teddy to keep cool. also when it's hot my wife fills the dish with ice. the other one is stupid and stays out front where it's very hot. i had to spray her down to keep her cool so it wasn't too bad for her.
we scheduled my wife and i at the same time to make t easier. well they gave me my appointment and because we didn't realize her time was different we were 10 minuets late so they wouldn't see her and she had to reschedule. they have a way to check my eyes without drops so that made me happy.
the receptionist said i might be able to get my glasses there through medicare, i had heard about an eyeglasses allowance. well the receptionist checked and there was no allowance for my insurance, another woman checked to be sure and said no it wasn't available. i was in my car just getting ready to leave when one of the guys that handles selling glasses came out. he sad the 2 women were wrong and i did qualify for up to $300 dollars for an eyeware allowance. we had to be careful because i have bifocals. i looked at a bunch of frames and picked a decent pair of frames nothing serious and thinner lenses it came up to $270. when we were done i mentioned i always wanted transition glasses that darken when we go outside. he looked and we haggled but we got it for # 350 so i only have to pay $ 50 when they come in in about two weeks. my pain was around what i call a 10+ which is the worst pain i ever feel. it took around 4 hours to come down, i'm a 6 now. i should have known to take pain meds before i left due to the heat. well at least i'm doing great now and the pressure is off about how much i have to pay for glasses lol.
we scheduled my wife and i at the same time to make t easier. well they gave me my appointment and because we didn't realize her time was different we were 10 minuets late so they wouldn't see her and she had to reschedule. they have a way to check my eyes without drops so that made me happy.
the receptionist said i might be able to get my glasses there through medicare, i had heard about an eyeglasses allowance. well the receptionist checked and there was no allowance for my insurance, another woman checked to be sure and said no it wasn't available. i was in my car just getting ready to leave when one of the guys that handles selling glasses came out. he sad the 2 women were wrong and i did qualify for up to $300 dollars for an eyeware allowance. we had to be careful because i have bifocals. i looked at a bunch of frames and picked a decent pair of frames nothing serious and thinner lenses it came up to $270. when we were done i mentioned i always wanted transition glasses that darken when we go outside. he looked and we haggled but we got it for # 350 so i only have to pay $ 50 when they come in in about two weeks. my pain was around what i call a 10+ which is the worst pain i ever feel. it took around 4 hours to come down, i'm a 6 now. i should have known to take pain meds before i left due to the heat. well at least i'm doing great now and the pressure is off about how much i have to pay for glasses lol.