How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

I don't know if it's the illness or the heat or just fatigue, but I think I'd rather be dead than carry on with this new work. I just can't understand the instructions or what they want and there's no course correction, you have to absorb like 3000 words of instructions and then get thrown in at the deep end where it's sink or get sacked off. I don't do that badly at my real work, mostly, and it's well paid. I just can't motivate myself to do something that pays less than half what I usually earn per hour - I've been tired enough doing one job, I thought a change might be good but I'm clearly not as smart or adaptable as I thought. Just my luck it comes on the day a heatwave and virus strikes. I think I'll have to just leave it. I tried, at least.

 

[AvidFan]

I effing give up. After banging my head against a brick wall trying to understand stuff way over my head, I thought I'd cheer myself up and escape into the new game, now I've got sick time off. So I fired up Starfield on cloud gaming, got the the first screen that says Press any button to start, and no combination of buttons will do anything, it's stuck on that screen. Hard restarted console. Same bloody thing. Good way to get people to pay for Game Pass on their old consoles AND try to force them to buy the next series up because cloud gaming is shit. Another reason why I never get cloudbooks or use all this cloud computing - cloud goes down and your buggered. I'm honestly running out of ideas to distract me from thoughts about killing myself right now. It's like this week was designed to break me.

 

[Astrid78]

I effing give up. After banging my head against a brick wall trying to understand stuff way over my head, I thought I'd cheer myself up and escape into the new game, now I've got sick time off. So I fired up Starfield on cloud gaming, got the the first screen that says Press any button to start, and no combination of buttons will do anything, it's stuck on that screen. Hard restarted console. Same bloody thing. Good way to get people to pay for Game Pass on their old consoles AND try to force them to buy the next series up because cloud gaming is shit. Another reason why I never get cloudbooks or use all this cloud computing - cloud goes down and your buggered. I'm honestly running out of ideas to distract me from thoughts about killing myself right now. It's like this week was designed to break me.

 

[Astrid78]

Thats why I'm trying to let go of this society and if possible and if it's God's will, I wanna be a monk..it's my desire but I don't know if it will actually happen..
Thanks for your kindwords seabird

I understand about letting go of society, I don't belong in this world and am not 'of it' many hugs @nicktheundoer you are a source of light here

 

[cymbele]

Super awed. Got a promotion and a real raise! I didn't even ask for it although I was trying to figure out how to ask for a raise) And it's mid year! Now I'm only $10k below where I should be. And I haven't done anything differently. Good thing I applied when i did; it's the first job I've felt good about in many jobs!

 

[1964dodge]

In pain. But insurance will cover all of my upcoming CT scan.

i hope they find what's causing the pain barb, it's not fair that you have to live in pain

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Down, demotivated, depressed. Probably because I didn't get much sleep due to my schedule and I also had to skip taking my Latuda because I was working an overnight shift and i feel like i usually get really tired after that one. It'll be like this every Wednesday night into Thursday, so that makes me wonder why I bother.

 

[1964dodge]

I thought I was being really brave going on holiday on my own but in reality I just feel very lonely. I'm sitting here at breakfast and everyone is with family or friends and I'm alone. I wish I hadn't come.

i hope you can find a way to enjoy your vacation

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I don't fit into this world

you fit here so you fit in this world

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I feel terribly upset. My sister's partner has bone cancer, which probably means it has spread from somewhere else. I saw her today and seeing her in that state was distressing. It also makes me feel guilty for whining about my problems.

I wish I could help. Why is life so full of this pain???

i'm sorry about your sister's partner's cancer. i hope the can help with it. you are not whining you are venting and we care about you so vent all you want

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Yes, I'm in Greece. I don't think I chose the area and hotel very well. It's not as pretty as other areas I've been to and although the beach is lovely the sea is very rough so not great for swimming. I didn't want to go back to my favourite places as I thought it would make me sad remembering the happy holidays I had with Nick. It's very quiet here which I normally love but with hindsight it would probably have been better to pick somewhere with a bit more going on. I've just booked myself a spa day at a lovely hotel so I've got something to do every other day.

i hope you enjoy the spa

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I effing give up. After banging my head against a brick wall trying to understand stuff way over my head, I thought I'd cheer myself up and escape into the new game, now I've got sick time off. So I fired up Starfield on cloud gaming, got the the first screen that says Press any button to start, and no combination of buttons will do anything, it's stuck on that screen. Hard restarted console. Same bloody thing. Good way to get people to pay for Game Pass on their old consoles AND try to force them to buy the next series up because cloud gaming is shit. Another reason why I never get cloudbooks or use all this cloud computing - cloud goes down and your buggered. I'm honestly running out of ideas to distract me from thoughts about killing myself right now. It's like this week was designed to break me.

i hope you have a great weekend

mike....

 

[AvidFan]

i hope you have a great weekend

mike....

Thank you. Anything has to be an improvement on yesterday and today!

 

[nicktheundoer]

you fit here so you fit in this world

mike....

I've been broken too much by this world..just like how you've been broken..and I don't know if this so called life is worth holding onto anymore..I wish God has laid a sweet path for me..

 

[nicktheundoer]

Super awed. Got a promotion and a real raise! I didn't even ask for it although I was trying to figure out how to ask for a raise) And it's mid year! Now I'm only $10k below where I should be. And I haven't done anything differently. Good thing I applied when i did; it's the first job I've felt good about in many jobs!

Wow..congrats..

 

[TreeShade17]

Ok

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Super awed. Got a promotion and a real raise! I didn't even ask for it although I was trying to figure out how to ask for a raise) And it's mid year! Now I'm only $10k below where I should be. And I haven't done anything differently. Good thing I applied when i did; it's the first job I've felt good about in many jobs!

 

[Windhover]

Well past whatever edge I used to think was safe so I have no idea how to feel.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I feel pretty good considering I have just one med left to withdraw from -- will probably start that next week.

Also found out that my friend got some sale plane tickets and will be coming to the coast for a week in October - I'm so thrilled she will be visiting.

 

[nicktheundoer]

I effing give up. After banging my head against a brick wall trying to understand stuff way over my head, I thought I'd cheer myself up and escape into the new game, now I've got sick time off. So I fired up Starfield on cloud gaming, got the the first screen that says Press any button to start, and no combination of buttons will do anything, it's stuck on that screen. Hard restarted console. Same bloody thing. Good way to get people to pay for Game Pass on their old consoles AND try to force them to buy the next series up because cloud gaming is shit. Another reason why I never get cloudbooks or use all this cloud computing - cloud goes down and your buggered. I'm honestly running out of ideas to distract me from thoughts about killing myself right now. It's like this week was designed to break me.