How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

I feel like I could keep taking off work til the cows come home but that wouldn't do much because I need to actively address something, but I don't know what to do. Feels like I'm gonna lose it though.

 

[Astrid78]

Physically icky, mild sore throat and low grade fever.

Mentally a bit foggy.

Emotionally sad.

Hope you feel better soon
Hugs @Angie

 

[1964dodge]

Thank you, Mike

you are welcome @Bergerac

mike....

 

[StuartB]

I'm sorry that you're feeling so low @StuartB . Life can be so hard, and down right torturous so you're right there. But, I'm glad you're are here to post. Also, if you want to pm me I'm here for you.

Thanks buddy. My mind won't shut off, depression won't lift, and I've already been through the whole therapy scene. It's a fact that life is crap.

 

[Baywasp]

I am on the edge of a massive metaphorical cliff and feel like I am about to fall but don't know how to get back away.

 

[Holding my breath]

Had a low day. No reason, I think maybe because I drunk some wine last night. The alcohol does not go well with my meds. Of course I do know this, but I still drank the wine! 🤷‍♀️

 

[cymbele]

I am on the edge of a massive metaphorical cliff and feel like I am about to fall but don't know how to get back away.

 

[Windhover]

thanks for the hugs. they do help, a lot.

🍁🍂

 

[KM76710]

Find it really difficult trying to listen and console other people. I am simply not up to it.

Just take and do as you can and feel comfortable. Taking care of yourself and helping when you feel comfortable is a must to not lose yourself. I know I often get to a point of that is enough for today, tomorrow is another time and take it from there.

 

[KM76710]

Physically icky, mild sore throat and low grade fever.

Mentally a bit foggy.

Emotionally sad.

I do hope that your spirits lift because will improve so much. Also that the physical improves and is not serious.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I was watching the Crappy Childhood Fairy on Youtube (she's great) and realized why I was so severely triggered during my IRL depression support meeting on Thursday. A man mentioned his 14 year old daughter is feeling suicidal and getting a ton of help and support.

I was not suicidal at 14 but I was homicidal and fantasized constantly about stabbing my abusive mother when she was beating my younger brother. I took an audio recording of the beatings to my high-school counsellor and he asked if I wanted to go into foster care. I realize now as an adult that obviously this decision should not have been left in my hands. I was scared. My mother was a teacher and had made sure we were terrified of foster care.

So now I blame my lack of courage for the fact that my younger brother, who is now 51, did not get away from the abuse, never fulfilled his life's potential and was recently diagnosed with cancer.

Yes, I blame myself. My lack of courage didn't just destroy my own life, but his too. I realize that it's certainly possible we would have ended up in an even worse situation. However, I will never stop blaming myself for being a coward.

 

[1964dodge]

Physically icky, mild sore throat and low grade fever.

Mentally a bit foggy.

Emotionally sad.

i hope you feel better soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I know it will pass or at least change for a while. I'm mindful of that. But, I am hurt, scared, tired of anxiety, of suffering, of the deep trouble & violence in the world. If I was dead the tiredness would end.

 

[1964dodge]

I wish i would just die. Life is no gift.

 

[1964dodge]

I was watching the Crappy Childhood Fairy on Youtube (she's great) and realized why I was so severely triggered during my IRL depression support meeting on Thursday. A man mentioned his 14 year old daughter is feeling suicidal and getting a ton of help and support.

I was not suicidal at 14 but I was homicidal and fantasized constantly about stabbing my abusive mother when she was beating my younger brother. I took an audio recording of the beatings to my high-school counsellor and he asked if I wanted to go into foster care. I realize now as an adult that obviously this decision should not have been left in my hands. I was scared. My mother was a teacher and had made sure we were terrified of foster care.

So now I blame my lack of courage for the fact that my younger brother, who is now 51, did not get away from the abuse, never fulfilled his life's potential and was recently diagnosed with cancer.

Yes, I blame myself. My lack of courage didn't just destroy my own life, but his too. I realize that it's certainly possible we would have ended up in an even worse situation. However, I will never stop blaming myself for being a coward.

it was not your fault and if you had proof of the beatings the school counseler should have intervened. you are very brave and none of this is your fault

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I am on the edge of a massive metaphorical cliff and feel like I am about to fall but don't know how to get back away.

i hope things improve for you soon

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

Had a low day. No reason, I think maybe because I drunk some wine last night. The alcohol does not go well with my meds. Of course I do know this, but I still drank the wine! 🤷‍♀️

 

[HappyKitty]

So cute. When work ask abt my mbti and my colleagues and friends be sassy at me "you're so ENTP sis. you're the most playful, curious and cheeriest one indeed. mmhmm." everyone nodded.😆🥹

 

[Angie74]

Hoping for some good sleep.

 

[Windhover]

I was watching the Crappy Childhood Fairy on Youtube (she's great) and realized why I was so severely triggered during my IRL depression support meeting on Thursday. A man mentioned his 14 year old daughter is feeling suicidal and getting a ton of help and support.

I was not suicidal at 14 but I was homicidal and fantasized constantly about stabbing my abusive mother when she was beating my younger brother. I took an audio recording of the beatings to my high-school counsellor and he asked if I wanted to go into foster care. I realize now as an adult that obviously this decision should not have been left in my hands. I was scared. My mother was a teacher and had made sure we were terrified of foster care.

So now I blame my lack of courage for the fact that my younger brother, who is now 51, did not get away from the abuse, never fulfilled his life's potential and was recently diagnosed with cancer.

Yes, I blame myself. My lack of courage didn't just destroy my own life, but his too. I realize that it's certainly possible we would have ended up in an even worse situation. However, I will never stop blaming myself for being a coward.

hugs @Lady Wolfshead