How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

Frustrated and a little frightened.

Woke up gasping, my oxygen was 87 (this is low enough to cause problems)

Now, I am on a bipap AND oxygen, so idk maybe the oxygen concentrator isn't working? or maybe I need more liters?

will call the oxygen company in the morning to get them to come out and check the equipment, if that checks out I guess its back to the effing sleep doctor

FML

more than likely your oxygen setting is too low. i use an avap machine with oxygen. i used to be set on one but u'm up to 3. i think calling the company that gives you the concentrator or whichever doctor that prescribed it is a good idea. . 87 is low unless you are very active

mike....

 

[Waves]

That's terrible of them Waves. And how unprofessional and classless of the administrative assistant. You definitely deserve better. A belated Happy Birthday to you.

Thank you. You mentioned it was unprofessional. That is an understatement. Power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely

 

[1964dodge]

I’m feeling really anxious. I’m speaking to my psychiatrist later today. A friend who saw how much I was struggling at the moment pulled some strings to get my appointment moved up and I feel unbelievably guilty about it.

if you need to be seen soon you have nothing to feel guilty about

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

feeling very low tonight. I’ve written all about it in my diary. Life never seems to give you any let up. It’s relentless.

 

[Albatross]

If I were any lower, I'd have to reach up to tickle an earthworm.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

If I were any lower, I'd have to reach up to tickle an earthworm.

I get crushing depression/fatigue in the evenings so I hear you -- and it is evening here right now.

But it does sound like you have your sense of humour and that is so important!

 

[1964dodge]

If I were any lower, I'd have to reach up to tickle an earthworm.

welcome to SF we are a peer community that cares but never judges. please look at the different threads and post when you feel comfortable or go into chat if you prefer real time.

i'm sorry that you feel so low. but there is good news. if you're on the bottom all you can do is go up up and away. there are a lot of good people here willing to listen

mike.....

 

[Albatross]

welcome to SF we are a peer community that cares but never judges. please look at the different threads and post when you feel comfortable or go into chat if you prefer real time.

i'm sorry that you feel so low. but there is good news. if you're on the bottom all you can do is go up up and away. there are a lot of good people here willing to listen

mike.....

Thank you for your kind-hearted support. I'm in a rough season right now. It gets like this every year around this time (unrelated to holidays or weather) and this year it seems especially extreme.

 

[MisterBGone]

Thank you for your kind-hearted support. I'm in a rough season right now. It gets like this every year around this time (unrelated to holidays or weather) and this year it seems especially extreme.

I'm sorry @Albatross - I hope that you can find some help here, and elsewhere; such that, you can eventually get to where you want--&/or need to be.

 

[AvidFan]

I get crushing depression/fatigue in the evenings so I hear you -- and it is evening here right now.

But it does sound like you have your sense of humour and that is so important!

Unfortunately I think I'm starting to get this. I also get more energy in the evenings which is a horrible combination as I want to plough through something but also feel too tired and then feel really bad about it.

I'm frustrated as I pointed out an error on a work task, it's something that doesn't make sense in any world I can put myself into, and yet I've been gaslighted that it's my stubborn lack of comprehension that is at fault, not the documentation. I've noticed that tech people are generally not great at writing instructions (there are exceptions) no matter how good they are at tech, sysadmin or coding, but it's frustrating that instructions are presented such that they could be interpreted in 3 different ways, and yet you're risking your job if you happen to pick one of the ways other than the one they meant due to their awful instructional writing and if I read it another way it's my fault. Like literally one paragraph says "Do X" and 3 paragraphs on it says "do Y". Literally. I point this out and get ignored or the gaslighting starts with another sentence that appears to explain it but actually just adds to the confusion. And nobody else appears to be able to see it so I start doubting my own ability/sanity and it takes me all the way back to being a kid and feeling like the odd one out when I challenged the teacher on a fact they lied about but was gaslit then as well even though I produced a book evidencing it. Or the English exam I failed and the exam appeal board tried to gaslight me into thinking I was rubbish at the subject (I went on to get a rather good degree classification!) Bit the same with my accountant at the moment, who is also gaslighting me into feeling I'm stupid because he's not explaining things clearly either. Please tell me if my posts make no sense and I have actually suffered from some kind of brain implosion?!

 

[Livelife]

If I were any lower, I'd have to reach up to tickle an earthworm.

 

[1964dodge]

Thank you for your kind-hearted support. I'm in a rough season right now. It gets like this every year around this time (unrelated to holidays or weather) and this year it seems especially extreme.

it's common for a lot of people to feel depressed this time of year. the holidays can very stressful. my wife and i have a lot to be happy about but we have mixed emotions. we love christmas but we are sad because we have to put our 64 dodge away for the season. after our first year we made a decision about the holidays. since christmas was so stressful we decided we will always stay home on thanksgiving and everyone is invited. this has worked well for us for 43 years so no point in changing now lol. all you can do is try to give yourself a little " me time "

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Unfortunately I think I'm starting to get this. I also get more energy in the evenings which is a horrible combination as I want to plough through something but also feel too tired and then feel really bad about it.

I'm frustrated as I pointed out an error on a work task, it's something that doesn't make sense in any world I can put myself into, and yet I've been gaslighted that it's my stubborn lack of comprehension that is at fault, not the documentation. I've noticed that tech people are generally not great at writing instructions (there are exceptions) no matter how good they are at tech, sysadmin or coding, but it's frustrating that instructions are presented such that they could be interpreted in 3 different ways, and yet you're risking your job if you happen to pick one of the ways other than the one they meant due to their awful instructional writing and if I read it another way it's my fault. Like literally one paragraph says "Do X" and 3 paragraphs on it says "do Y". Literally. I point this out and get ignored or the gaslighting starts with another sentence that appears to explain it but actually just adds to the confusion. And nobody else appears to be able to see it so I start doubting my own ability/sanity and it takes me all the way back to being a kid and feeling like the odd one out when I challenged the teacher on a fact they lied about but was gaslit then as well even though I produced a book evidencing it. Or the English exam I failed and the exam appeal board tried to gaslight me into thinking I was rubbish at the subject (I went on to get a rather good degree classification!) Bit the same with my accountant at the moment, who is also gaslighting me into feeling I'm stupid because he's not explaining things clearly either. Please tell me if my posts make no sense and I have actually suffered from some kind of brain implosion?!

your posts make sense

mike...

 

[Lane]

I'm so lonely, depressed and anxious. I'm here reading posts and hoping it helps. Hugs to everyone hurting out there.

Thinking of you during this time. Sorry you are suffering. I hope your depression and anxiety alleviates. Thank you for the hugs.

 

[Lane]

If I were any lower, I'd have to reach up to tickle an earthworm.

Thanks for the chuckle @Albatross. I really like your avi pic too. I hope you can start to feel better.

 

[Astrid78]

What I was worried about has resolved. Feel better on that front.

 

[Angie]

Unfortunately I think I'm starting to get this. I also get more energy in the evenings which is a horrible combination as I want to plough through something but also feel too tired and then feel really bad about it.

I'm frustrated as I pointed out an error on a work task, it's something that doesn't make sense in any world I can put myself into, and yet I've been gaslighted that it's my stubborn lack of comprehension that is at fault, not the documentation. I've noticed that tech people are generally not great at writing instructions (there are exceptions) no matter how good they are at tech, sysadmin or coding, but it's frustrating that instructions are presented such that they could be interpreted in 3 different ways, and yet you're risking your job if you happen to pick one of the ways other than the one they meant due to their awful instructional writing and if I read it another way it's my fault. Like literally one paragraph says "Do X" and 3 paragraphs on it says "do Y". Literally. I point this out and get ignored or the gaslighting starts with another sentence that appears to explain it but actually just adds to the confusion. And nobody else appears to be able to see it so I start doubting my own ability/sanity and it takes me all the way back to being a kid and feeling like the odd one out when I challenged the teacher on a fact they lied about but was gaslit then as well even though I produced a book evidencing it. Or the English exam I failed and the exam appeal board tried to gaslight me into thinking I was rubbish at the subject (I went on to get a rather good degree classification!) Bit the same with my accountant at the moment, who is also gaslighting me into feeling I'm stupid because he's not explaining things clearly either. Please tell me if my posts make no sense and I have actually suffered from some kind of brain implosion?!

Your posts make perfect sense!

and it looks like you are referencing some sort of IT documentation? that stuff is notoriously hard to understand because the people writing it may be genius IT creators but suck at basic English, this was a big problem in one of my jobs back in the day

Don't let them make you doubt yourself!

 

[Aurelia]

People can be so fucking preachy. If it's none of your business, stay out of it. Or better yet, be supportive. Act like a friend should act. I'm not going to change my mind just because you think you know what you're talking about and you insisting upon it won't get you anywhere either. Get over it.

 

[AvidFan]

Your posts make perfect sense!

and it looks like you are referencing some sort of IT documentation? that stuff is notoriously hard to understand because the people writing it may be genius IT creators but suck at basic English, this was a big problem in one of my jobs back in the day

Don't let them make you doubt yourself!

This is exactly it! 😃

 

[Lane]

Nervous that I got a notice to be on jury duty in the mail. I filled it out but I got a felony years ago that might disqualify me. The appearance is only a month away so I have to wait. I don't think I get paid at work if I have to serve on jury duty, I'll ask my boss when she comes in.