How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[puffymilk]

Hating my life & myself a bit. Not sure why.

 

[Baywasp]

A little nervous. Touring 2 apartments the next couple days.

 

[AvidFan]

how am i feeling right now ? really ? i feel like crying lol. my cell phone is on it's last leg and i have to screw around with it to get a charge. it won't hold a charge long and it's really f#$ked, my wife's phone isn't much better. so i ordered 2 new galaxy 23's. so both phones and accessories will raise my phone bill by around $86 a month for 2 years. i expected it because our old phones are at least 4 years old, probably older. the expense is the least of it, now i have to try to save everything and set up a new phone. i hate getting new phones lol

mike

Sorry to hear about your phone. I'm the same, I only changed my last one because the screen broke and I had to get a replacement, I still have the old one but use the replacement as by the time the screen was fixed I'd got used to the replacement one! At least now I have a spare. I change phones that infrequently that I find swapping a complete pain. Good luck with your transition, that sounds expensive just to replace a handset! Hope it goes smoothly!

 

[AvidFan]

I am doing not well. I’ve been trying to keep it together but it’s leaking out. As in literal leaking. Sometimes I realize I’m crying and I didn’t even notice. Or know why. Just tears running down my face. And a couple people have said over the last year that they think I’m very depressed or “really going through it” and I’m always like no I’m not. And think it’s ridiculous. But when I’m really honest with myself and slow down and check in with my body I think I might be very very sad. And in the past when I was like this I didn’t have great coping skills and I’d end up going inpatient.
which might be what I need but I don’t think anything will or is able to change. Regardless I can’t do that right now. But I think it might be really bad. If I let it out and feel it. I think it might be really really bad. And I don’t have anyone to say that to irl. So I’m here saying it to you.
I found this site a decade ago. Under a different name that I don’t even have the email for anymore. But I was crying in that why am I sobbing kind of way and remembered it after trying a couple text helplines.

😢 Sorry things are tough for you, glad you found your way back here.

 

[AvidFan]

Exhausted! Nauseous n ears won't stop ringing from not sleeping... and i just feel... done!

Not sleeping is one of the worst things (I know from painful experience!). Hope you can get some sleep and feel at least a little better soon.

 

[iloverachel]

The urge to die is stronger than ever

 

[Bergerac]

when people continually talk to you like you're a piece of muck. Well, spot-on, I guess. Lol.

 

[Lane]

I am doing not well. I’ve been trying to keep it together but it’s leaking out. As in literal leaking. Sometimes I realize I’m crying and I didn’t even notice. Or know why. Just tears running down my face. And a couple people have said over the last year that they think I’m very depressed or “really going through it” and I’m always like no I’m not. And think it’s ridiculous. But when I’m really honest with myself and slow down and check in with my body I think I might be very very sad. And in the past when I was like this I didn’t have great coping skills and I’d end up going inpatient.
which might be what I need but I don’t think anything will or is able to change. Regardless I can’t do that right now. But I think it might be really bad. If I let it out and feel it. I think it might be really really bad. And I don’t have anyone to say that to irl. So I’m here saying it to you.
I found this site a decade ago. Under a different name that I don’t even have the email for anymore. But I was crying in that why am I sobbing kind of way and remembered it after trying a couple text helplines.

Welcome back to SF @Bearinatophat. Sorry to hear of the circumstances that brought you back here. I think it's good that you can check in with yourself and try to understand where your crying is coming from. I don't think you're alone here in that regard. I hope that being here with us is healing for you and that you can find some moments of happiness.

 

[Bergerac]

The urge to die is stronger than ever

I'm so sorry to hear that. It creeps up on me, too. So I hear you and am with you.

 

[Lane]

when people continually talk to you like you're a piece of muck. Well, spot-on, I guess. Lol.

That's not right. You are a good person and deserving of respect. Just my 2 cents worth @Bergerac.

 

[Lane]

The urge to die is stronger than ever

@iloverachel I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way right now. Hugs across the miles.

 

[Bergerac]

That's not right. You are a good person and deserving of respect. Just my 2 cents worth @Bergerac.

This man gets a kick out of telling me I'm worthless and he's indifferent. He shouldn't even chat with me in the first place. But to be fair, I started the conversation this time, when it wasn't wanted, so only myself to blame. He teaches me to be stronger and value the decent people more though, so not entirely wasted.

I appreciate your support no end. Thank you

 

[Lane]

This man gets a kick out of telling me I'm worthless and he's indifferent. He shouldn't even chat with me in the first place. But to be fair, I started the conversation this time, when it wasn't wanted, so only myself to blame. He teaches me to be stronger and value the decent people more though, so not entirely wasted.

I appreciate your support no end. Thank you

You're welcome. He should be lucky to be in your presence. Arrogance burns me up, especially when it's directed at a friend. But I'm glad that you can turn it around @Bergerac.

 

[Bergerac]

You're welcome. He should be lucky to be in your presence. Arrogance burns me up, especially when it's directed at a friend. But I'm glad that you can turn it around @Bergerac.

I am learning, bit by bit. I bounce back quicker each time now. Just be happy to go from this set of people. Thanks again, so much

 

[Lane]

A little nervous. Touring 2 apartments the next couple days.

Good luck @Baywasp

 

[Lane]

Hating my life & myself a bit. Not sure why.

Ive definitely been there @puffymilk. Right now, I've been questioning my life, even hating parts of it, and even myself because I feel stuck so I can very much relate with your post.

I hope that you can be kind to yourself, as a friend would be. We are rooting for you here.

 

[puffymilk]

Ive definitely been there @puffymilk. Right now, I've been questioning my life, even hating parts of it, and even myself because I feel stuck so I can very much relate with your post.

I hope that you can be kind to yourself, as a friend would be. We are rooting for you here.

Oh man I've been feeling that way for the past... 2-3 months now? It's the worst thing. Feeling stuck makes you feel like there's no point in life. What's the point of me living? Why am I here? Why am I even still alive? I don't like it. I don't like living, I don't like getting older/growing up.

I'm glad to hear that you understand my feeling, thank you.

 

[Bergerac]

wonderful religious help from one of our local churches. he's agreed to help in assisting my friend and even thanked me for coming forward to ask for help on my friend's behalf. what a lovely man. so grateful

 

[Windhover]

@Bergerac that is the person who you've been wanting to get help and support for? How great it is when yout intention and action bear fruit. This cheers me thanks for posting it.

 

[Windhover]

The urge to die is stronger than ever

I think I know what you mean by an urge to die. I'm sorry - I wish there were reliable times when the anxiety dropped down. I was interested & glad to read the thread about you seeking a new more nuanced(?) acceptance of life. Are you coming up against some obstacle to feeling a way forward @iloverachel? hugs