How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Harmony]

If we walk a straight path and repent our sins, The Lord won't let evil anywhere near us. As it is written in Psalm 91, "It shall not come near you".

I did that and evil got near me as a child. I don't think logic applies to faith.
I don't take the bible literally either.

 

[Astrid78]

try not to upset yourself over that. it can be easily fixed. you can drill larger holes or you can go to the hardware store and get the right screws. you can also try to find someone to help

mike....

I have no drill and lack the vehicle and money to go buy one. As any woman can tell you, walking into a hardware store and asking for smaller size screws when I don't even know how the size, is only going to make me feel worse. And there is no one to call. Hence my feeling alone. So, no its not that easy to fix when you are in my life.

 

[Astrid78]

i wish there was someone handy to help you. I think you're a great mom and I bet the children do too.

Thank you @Lane

 

[MisterBGone]

I have no drill and lack the vehicle and money to go buy one. As any woman can tell you, walking into a hardware store and asking for smaller size screws when I don't even know how the size, is only going to make me feel worse. And there is no one to call. Hence my feeling alone. So, no its not that easy to fix when you are in my life.

Is there any-way, in which you can. . . carry the thing in there--so as to show them (the size they'd need to fit the screw to?). Because, that might do! If you can handle the seemingly arduous task; & - I know, it isn't easy. Believe me! But if you think you can do it: then that just might do the trick... @Astrid78 :^)

 

[MisterBGone]

Alone. Trying to put a doll house together but the pre drilled holes aren't large enough for the included screws. Aside from breaking stuff and stripping screws I've accomplished nothing and am out of ideas. My kids are going to be so disappointed in me. They will cry and blame me. I'm so tired of always having to deal with crap. Alone.

The other thing you might want to do, if you thought you could go through with it, is to call ahead to the store, and ask to speak to somebody and to see if by explaining your situation, and telling them your story, you might then become comfortable in talking with and trusting them. Get their name, and have them meet you when you greet them by the door... (or whatever/sorry! I got temporarily distracted there) / So that may make it easier, or smoother for you - or, I don't know? I had a similar experience one time with a giant over-sized cat carrier that was missing one of the . . . well, what do you call them? Bolts! Anyway, I couldn't secure the top to the bottom with out it, and the store refused to just do a swap or give me an extra part; they'd only accept an entire exchange of the relatively for me - super expensive thing. And so I (was able to) take/took the - or one of the others/ones - bolts, and go into my Home Depot, and have the guy stick it right into their pre-assorted sizes, chart / thing / selector (fitting thing-a-ma-jig, board or wall) .And he found the correct fit. Problem was it was the wrong lenght, and so I'd have still had to cut it down to size in order for the carrier to fit together nice & neat, or tight & snug (securely fastened & all...); so long story, longer: you're not alone in (all of) this @Astrid78 ! ;D

 

[Aurelia]

I did that and evil got near me as a child. I don't think logic applies to faith.
I don't take the bible literally either.

What kind of evil? There is true evil and there is the sinful actions of others. There's a difference between the two.

 

[Harmony]

What kind of evil? There is true evil and there is the sinful actions of others. There's a difference between the two.

I'm sure it was true evil. I'll pm you if okay. I'm not entirely comfortable saying it here for both my sake and others.

 

[1Lefty]

i feel nothing

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I've felt nothing before, too as I'm sure others here have

peace

 

[Aurelia]

I'm sure it was true evil. I'll pm you if okay. I'm not entirely comfortable saying it here for both my sake and others.

Sure, go ahead.

 

[Astrid78]

Is there any-way, in which you can. . . carry the thing in there--so as to show them (the size they'd need to fit the screw to?). Because, that might do! If you can handle the seemingly arduous task; & - I know, it isn't easy. Believe me! But if you think you can do it: then that just might do the trick... @Astrid78 :^)

I don't have a car. Besides idc what anyone says, it's different for women than for men. Women get treated like absolute morons in hardware stores and mechanics. We are patronized and talked down too like our little selves are just too fragile. Also why can't I just feel alone? I am alone, I would know this better than anyone because it's me and only me that's here.

 

[MisterBGone]

I don't have a car. Besides idc what anyone says, it's different for women than for men. Women get treated like absolute morons in hardware stores and mechanics. We are patronized and talked down too like our little selves are just too fragile. Also why can't I just feel alone? I am alone, I would know this better than anyone because it's me and only me that's here.

Okay... I was just only trying &/or wanting to help--that is all: but, other than write to the manufacturer (say if they've got a contact for customer service) & to see what they can do to take care of you; send you a replacement set, should they have either been in the wrong, or if they have others available - or even if they can just provide the proper measurements &/or screw-sizes (see, I don't even know what they're called, or classified as?). . . short of all of that--then I just don't really know what it is you can do. And maybe you don't really want to do anything, and were more just looking to vent, or to blow-off steam. Which is perfectly fine, and most certainly, well within your-right. I just had, misinterpreted things, then, I guess. And for that, you have only my sincerest of apologies. Also: I am sorry that-that is the way it is, with respect what you & others have got to face, when it comes to additional challenges and obstacles placed in front of you in places such as those, when only trying to seek help just like the rest of us (or anybody else). So for this, or these troubles, I do truly wish that you didn't have to go through them. And suffer in the way in which that you do. Sometimes, the world just isn't as fair, as it might be nice. So too, at others, you've just got to say F-it, and blast/or plow through - all of that; if & when you can (as in, you're feeling up to it & strong enough to do so/to stomach it and whatnot), so as to provide a means to an end. And also, not to let them win. But that is just me, and how I might approach similar or such thinking, and by no means any sort of mindset that you have got to adopt. For you aren't any less for not doing so, or whatever else you can think up to find or offer as reasons as to why this is so impossible, or such an impossibility (impossibly difficult, I guess). . .

 

[Lane]

Thank you for your kind words. I hope you will consider my opinion in this because I truly believe it may make you feel better. It goes along with the old saying that the grass is not always greener on the other side. That is to say, your ex's relationship with his new wife is most likely not as beautiful and perfect as it seems. People will always have flaws and they take those flaws out on one another constantly. Sure, couples seem happy when they post Facebook pictures and dinners they've made and children smiling. But behind all that, we don't know what truly goes on. And I'm willing to bet their lives aren't perfect either. No one's life is perfect, for that word is reserved only for God. Yes, reading the Bible has gotten me to think about my life. I'm currently reading Job, I don't know if you're familiar at all but it's about a man who claims to be innocent and yet all this calamity has struck him, and all ten of his children died. And while reading, I can't help but think that no one is perfectly innocent or flawless. God knows what he's doing whether He brings fortune or misfortune upon us. His actions are undoubtedly still righteous and it is foolish to argue the latter. And me, having been highly upset with my loneliness as of late, and begging God to help take that pain away, I'm realizing I have to be faithful and patient, for there is truly no other way. And the misfortune that has come upon me is still righteous as well, no matter how difficult it may be, for who can say to God, "what You are doing is wrong and unfair?" No one has a leg to stand on uttering such blasphemy. I was a non-believer for 32 years, and this is my reward for my foolishness all those years. I accept that, and I will keep hoping in Him because I've changed tremendously since that time, and I know He sees it. Not to mention, he has still blessed me with family and finishing school despite everything, and that is enough for now.

You have made me feel better Aurelia because in viewing their life, I get snipets of FB posts, like her recently saying happy birthday to my ex, her hot husband, partner in adventure and crime, etc. Or their vacation in the tropics. Seems so picture perfect. it's just recently that I'm happy for him because in the past I've only had evil thoughts towards him for turning my children against me. But time has healed my harsh feelings. Maybe this is growth as a person.

Your post really had me thinking about the story of Job and misfortune and having to be patient, strong and I believe you said faithful through the process of say healing. I feel like loneliness is epidemic. I feel it, when I have no one to confide in how I'm feeling emotionally. I hope that you will be blessed with a friend(s) to ward off the lonelies when the time is right.

 

[Lane]

Good luck Lane..😊😊

Thanks Nick

 

[Ju]

I feel pretty good, things seem to be working out at the moment

 

[Aurelia]

You have made me feel better Aurelia because in viewing their life, I get snipets of FB posts, like her recently saying happy birthday to my ex, her hot husband, partner in adventure and crime, etc. Or their vacation in the tropics. Seems so picture perfect. it's just recently that I'm happy for him because in the past I've only had evil thoughts towards him for turning my children against me. But time has healed my harsh feelings. Maybe this is growth as a person.

Your post really had me thinking about the story of Job and misfortune and having to be patient, strong and I believe you said faithful through the process of say healing. I feel like loneliness is epidemic. I feel it, when I have no one to confide in how I'm feeling emotionally. I hope that you will be blessed with a friend(s) to ward off the lonelies when the time is right.

Friendship is a strange concept to me. I thought I met a friend via an app. We talked daily for weeks, had a lot in common. Then I made a comment he didn't like and just like that he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. However, during the time we spoke, I still can't say it subsided my loneliness much. I also had someone I was dating for a little while too, and as you may have guessed, that didn't subside the loneliness either. My counselor was right telling me that my feelings of emptiness and loneliness come from the need to be closer to God. It's not so much a lack of friends or a romantic partner. Those are just things we use to try to fill the hole, but if they do work at all, it's only temporarily. I, however, couldn't even get temporary relief from those things because I think deep down I'm starting to realize what it is my soul truly yearns for. Yet, that being said, I'm still not quite sure how to make it right, aside from reading the Bible, which I've already been doing. I guess it's a process/journey.

 

[AmberMarie]

Kinda all over the place right now. Angry, manic, sad, self-pity, frustrated, undecided, wavering... (yes, many words mean the same per say... yet slightly different at the same time). i'm trying to decide if i should pull back further at work by reducing my hours further, turn in my resignation for my operations manager position and just return to a part time front desk person that can fill in anywhere else needed at the hotel, from housekeeping to breakfast and so on.

 

[Aurelia]

Kinda all over the place right now. Angry, manic, sad, self-pity, frustrated, undecided, wavering... (yes, many words mean the same per say... yet slightly different at the same time). i'm trying to decide if i should pull back further at work by reducing my hours further, turn in my resignation for my operations manager position and just return to a part time front desk person that can fill in anywhere else needed at the hotel, from housekeeping to breakfast and so on.

I think if you can adapt to the change financially speaking, you should do whatever makes you feel better and makes life feel more bearable.

 

[Aurelia]

I think my husband has been trying to contact me recently. Lord, please help me. My heart still hurts from this separation, but I'm not myself anymore when we're part of each other's lives. I instantly turn into a paranoid mess because I know I can't trust him. And I don't want that. Please, hear me, my God, and give me the strength to deal with this the best way possible.

 

[AmberMarie]

financially speaking

It will seriously hurt financially speaking... however...

makes you feel better and makes life feel more bearable

i absolutely LOVE my job and everyone i work with and for... i am just trying to faze myself out... it feels like it will be much better for everyone. i have been scatterbrained and mentally unavailable, as well as medically going downhill n just not functioning as i should be right now. It's just better all around.

 

[Windhover]

missing warmth and ocean