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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Thanks @1964dodge. It has. I'm doing ok today.
I just feel really sick like I have a really high fever, but I don’t. I just joined a forum to get help with the intentions I have to take my own life, so I think the stress of where I currently am in life is doing this.
I’m deeply in love with one of my best friends but she’s married (very unhappily though). I’m feeling too sick to go into detail, but I’ll just say that I’ve reached the point of believing that committing suicide would be a tremendous act of self-compassion. [mod edit - methods] [mod edit - timeline].
Anyway, though the thought of death brings me an incredible amount of peace, I suppose some part of me still wants to continue living otherwise I wouldn’t be here. But after 40+ years of having plenty of anonymous sex, yet never having had the pleasure of experiencing another human being return my love or affection, I just don’t think I can take much more loneliness and perpetual heartbreak.
So IDK. I’m going to bed now but I’ll probably return here tomorrow. [mod edit - timeline] We’ll see.
With that said, my heart truly goes out to each and every one of you who is reading this and in as much as pain as I am.
I’m deeply in love with one of my best friends but she’s married (very unhappily though). I’m feeling too sick to go into detail, but I’ll just say that I’ve reached the point of believing that committing suicide would be a tremendous act of self-compassion. [mod edit - methods] [mod edit - timeline].
Anyway, though the thought of death brings me an incredible amount of peace, I suppose some part of me still wants to continue living otherwise I wouldn’t be here. But after 40+ years of having plenty of anonymous sex, yet never having had the pleasure of experiencing another human being return my love or affection, I just don’t think I can take much more loneliness and perpetual heartbreak.
So IDK. I’m going to bed now but I’ll probably return here tomorrow. [mod edit - timeline] We’ll see.
With that said, my heart truly goes out to each and every one of you who is reading this and in as much as pain as I am.
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Someone above me says this questioning is good but ugh no one wants to play this stuff over and over like that. I don't find anything really works well for this but plain old distraction. Cause we can replay that stuff for 20 hours a day but it doesn't change anything at all. All we can do is move ahead. Brains don't know that though, do they?
I understand the meaning behind this - that you want someone there to hold you and to talk with and work out life's problems beside. But you can tell your own self that things will be okay. Right? If you literally wanted someone there to tell you it'll be ok, regardless of whether they believe that, you could do that right now. So tell yourself! And why does it have to be a boyfriend? Can it not be your platonic friend, your parent, your sibling? You're the only one living your life. You can do this. We believe in you (least I do!). It really IS going to be ok.
Hi, welcome to the forum. Your post is somewhat hidden because it stashed away in this giant thread but hopefully a few people see it. You should consider creating a thread when upper feeling up to it and telling is more about why you're feeling so terrible.
What I'm hearing is that maybe nothing has happened but rather you're tired of nothing happening
You sound really... tired.
How long have you been into your friend? Does she know?
What I'm hearing is that maybe nothing has happened but rather you're tired of nothing happening
You sound really... tired.How long have you been into your friend? Does she know?
Thank you for asking. I came here to update. After being wide awake for literally 36 hours, I didn't fall asleep as fast as I thought I would/used to after such stints (when I was a student I'd party then just stay up until the next night or do double study all nighters where I would be awake for 2 days straight reading books or writing essays - the joys and faculties of youth!). I did fall asleep after about an hour of wondering if I was in for another night of insomnia hell, and woke up after 7 hours, managed to doze off a little bit, but it was all better than nothing. Hopefully I can catch up further over the next few nights. I feel relatively OK. Just on my first coffee. I love my coffee first thing ❤️