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lol shit took xanax 3 days in a row. i so need long term alt. i need to be medicated for my grieve w this life changing events thingy. my symptoms rebounded back whenever I'm stress.
its not funny but it is i took xanax on my aunt funeral and rememberance ceremony at her house and boy did it help numb me, awesome.
i mean my aunt mum be like crying and hugging me cus i remind her of her daughter a lot. they talk abt me alot. if i didnt take xanax, id probably cant regulate any of my emotions and have panic attack in exposure like this.
its not funny but it is i took xanax on my aunt funeral and rememberance ceremony at her house and boy did it help numb me, awesome.
i mean my aunt mum be like crying and hugging me cus i remind her of her daughter a lot. they talk abt me alot. if i didnt take xanax, id probably cant regulate any of my emotions and have panic attack in exposure like this.
My job interview is today and I'm nervous, which logically seems like a normal thing to be. Not just about the interview itself but I also have fears I won't be able to handle it if I get it. Somehow my anxiety seems like it's also connected to my mental illnesses and not just regular old anxiety. But what else can I do about it? I took my benzo already for the morning, the rest is up to me. I've been pretty good at doing things despite my fears when I'm determined enough, and I am determined.
Good luck! I was listening to a classical composer, who went to Juilliard... & this isn't totally related, by the way. But what I found interesting is, that some one had aske d her the question, of whether or not she still gets nervous, before going onto the stage, and playing in front of an audience. To which she replied, ~I feel that there's two-separate kinds or parts (maybe?). And that is: stage-fright, and performance anxiety. And that, she'd like to make the distinction between the two, and to distinguish them. As she'd felt they were not the same. I think sometimes, having this sort of awareness, of what it is that is actually going on with our mental illness, whatever symptoms might be present. Can be helpful. Not always though. If it is somewhat, then maybe it is worth it (the knowledge, or know ing of, what is going on). I think it is very normal, to wonder about your fitness for the job, or more specifically - whether or not you'll be able to handle all that it entails. I will say that I have been in that boat many times in the past. Side bar/back track. I found it interesting, that someone, this musician, who is so capable & proficient at her skillset & craft. Still had such insecurities & doubts! Anyway, I'm glad to hear that you are determined, then. And I think that that will serve you will. Why not see where, or if you will hit your head on the ceiling? In terms of abilities, or potential? You just might stumble upon something that is great, wonderful & extraordinary. And most good things that come to us in life. well there's going to be some risk involved. A sticking of one's neck out there. What's the saying: nothing risked, nothing gained? Or something similar~ / Better to try & fail. Than to fail to try... I was listening to this interview w/Dave Mustaine and he was saying that when he was getting his band together after being kicked out of Metallica. That he is really glad that he didn't listen to all of those little voices in his head, that said... You weren't good enough. You deserved to get kicked out of the band, and etc. Or he never would have maybe even gone on & had the courage to start a new one. Thank good ness he didn't let his fears conquer him. But that said, I can understand & appreciate, where it is you are coming from. And the position from which you are sitting. For overcoming this fear, is a whole lot easier said than done. This might be a little bit of what you were saying, or what you are meaning? But, with me, in this situation. It usually comes a whole lot more down to a mindset of, 'doing - as opposed to thinking!'
I was always terrified not of the interview itself but "what if they offer it me?" One day they did, and then my anxiety about getting it calmed down and started finding other things to stress over. I still feel a jolt of adrenaline even though these days I'm often the interviewer (interviewers can get nervous too, imagine the pressure of trying to ensure the right person gets the job!) - in fact I always feel a little bit of anxiety about interacting with anyone, but it soon dies down once I get into my flow!
Thank you very very much for your support. I think that its that basically, they don't take me seriously even after really telling them what I wanted to do or what I tried to do. They also send me medication that doesn't help me, even again after telling them how bad I am. But yeah it's so sad and i was not expecting this here.
But again thank you for the support and for the understanding of my situation, its very much appreciated.
But again thank you for the support and for the understanding of my situation, its very much appreciated.