How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[snails]

I am sorry you are feeling so alone. I am really feeling alone too. I just cried over some memories of my childhood, thinking back to when I felt safe and looked after, and could always turn to someone even if they weren't perfect. Now I can't really turn to anyone 😢

Hugs

It's hard having no one, sorry @AvidFan

 

[snails]

I can't live like this any longer. The aloneness is what's killing me.
So when these dogs go, I'm pretty sure I will too,

I hope you can talk to someone, and us. I wouldn't like that ti happen

 

[Livelife]

I am sorry you are feeling so alone. I am really feeling alone too. I just cried over some memories of my childhood, thinking back to when I felt safe and looked after, and could always turn to someone even if they weren't perfect. Now I can't really turn to anyone 😢

Hugs

Oh AvidFan, my mind has been doing a lot of memory visiting too these past few weeks. You expressed the situation perfectly. I'm sorry this is a similar situation for you as well. Hugs back

 

[Livelife]

I hope you can talk to someone, and us. I wouldn't like that ti happen

Thank you very much snails. And I hope things are going ok with you.....

 

[SillyOldBear]

I can't live like this any longer. The aloneness is what's killing me.
So when these dogs go, I'm pretty sure I will too,

So sorry you feel this way and can't find a way to relieve the loneliness. I have lived alone most of my life and am not bothered by it. However, money issues and failing health are another matter. I am ready to leave this world anytime.

 

[1964dodge]

Crushingly low with just enough energy to make it feel unsafe. No plan or intent just compulsions. Devastated at how things have gotten, then devastated about the therapy and Dr appointment. Have to piece myself back together tomorrow which feels impossible and all hope of anyone else helping is gone.

i hope things can be better for you in the near future

mike....

 

[Holding my breath]

Emotionally exhausted. My husband is unable to give me any form of emotional support. I don’t even ask him or tell him what’s happening because he will ignore me or change the subject.
Today was the school staff leaving doo. I am leaving after 15 years at the school and I am sad to leave. I am very lucky to have worked in a school where they cared about both staff and students. I knew I was going to find today difficult but a few things happened today, which I won’t go into now, which made the day so much harder. That, and my mother is causing problems, I don’t know if it’s mental illness physical illness or most likely both. The hardest thing for me to get my head around today was the way my husband has offered zero support, zero compassion, but on the other side has been quick to message me when he can’t find something and how he cut his finger whilst looking for it, which will be my fault because I decided not to reply to his message when he messaged me saying he couldn’t it. He wants to drag me into anything he wishes but I get nothing in return. Life sucks. I’m stuck.

 

[PrincessPure]

So my grandma passed just now. Everyone actually saw this happening for a few months now, but it actually happened when i am back home. My father's family had no idea im studying abroad and kept questioning my mom and dad what I am up to in such a nosy way. If this would happen when i was in italy and i wouldnt be able to attend the funeral, they had no idea where i am and would think i skipped the funeral on purpose. Knowing them, they would talk sh*t about me. Or maybe get even more nosy about what I am up to.

Unlike the aunts and uncles tho, i liked my grandma. She was a nice person. I was here for around 10 days before she had a stroke and went to a coma, and i knew she was already sick. I did plan on seeing her in my visit, but i guess i was lazy and didnt get to see her for one last time.
The last time I saw her goes back to 2 years ago when i was flying to italy for the first time. I went there to say goodbye, without actually saying it. She had no idea i was leaving because me and my parents thought its for the best the my dad's family doesnt know im gone. She cried a lot when she saw me, because i dont visit her often. My heart is heavy.

 

[1964dodge]

I can't live like this any longer. The aloneness is what's killing me.
So when these dogs go, I'm pretty sure I will too,

i know how you feel in a way losing both dogs. but to leave this earth because your dogs are gone isn't the only answer. take the time now to prepare yourself for alternatives. the obvious option is to adopt another dog or take one in as foster care. you still have the love for dogs so you can save each other.

you can spend the time now to be less lonely. you can rent a room to an older adult, you can join things in your communty, and you can do some type of community service like volunteering at an aminal shelter or start visiting lonely people in a nursing home. there are a lot of options to consider. and i say start now because it will be incredibly hard once they pass.

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I am sorry you are feeling so alone. I am really feeling alone too. I just cried over some memories of my childhood, thinking back to when I felt safe and looked after, and could always turn to someone even if they weren't perfect. Now I can't really turn to anyone 😢

Hugs

 

[1964dodge]

So sorry you feel this way and can't find a way to relieve the loneliness. I have lived alone most of my life and am not bothered by it. However, money issues and failing health are another matter. I am ready to leave this world anytime.

you are on god's list and your time will come in the not to distant future

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Emotionally exhausted. My husband is unable to give me any form of emotional support. I don’t even ask him or tell him what’s happening because he will ignore me or change the subject.
Today was the school staff leaving doo. I am leaving after 15 years at the school and I am sad to leave. I am very lucky to have worked in a school where they cared about both staff and students. I knew I was going to find today difficult but a few things happened today, which I won’t go into now, which made the day so much harder. That, and my mother is causing problems, I don’t know if it’s mental illness physical illness or most likely both. The hardest thing for me to get my head around today was the way my husband has offered zero support, zero compassion, but on the other side has been quick to message me when he can’t find something and how he cut his finger whilst looking for it, which will be my fault because I decided not to reply to his message when he messaged me saying he couldn’t it. He wants to drag me into anything he wishes but I get nothing in return. Life sucks. I’m stuck.

 

[Livelife]

So sorry you feel this way and can't find a way to relieve the loneliness. I have lived alone most of my life and am not bothered by it. However, money issues and failing health are another matter. I am ready to leave this world anytime.

I agree Barb....I have an incurable fatal illness and it's probably part of not seeing any light anymore. I'd like to die before that gets to the point of being in constant pain and bedridden. And out of money of course.

 

[Livelife]

i know how you feel in a way losing both dogs. but to leave this earth because your dogs are gone isn't the only answer. take the time now to prepare yourself for alternatives. the obvious option is to adopt another dog or take one in as foster care. you still have the love for dogs so you can save each other.

you can spend the time now to be less lonely. you can rent a room to an older adult, you can join things in your communty, and you can do some type of community service like volunteering at an aminal shelter or start visiting lonely people in a nursing home. there are a lot of options to consider. and i say start now because it will be incredibly hard once they pass.

mike....

Thanks Mike.

 

[1964dodge]

So my grandma passed just now. Everyone actually saw this happening for a few months now, but it actually happened when i am back home. My father's family had no idea im studying abroad and kept questioning my mom and dad what I am up to in such a nosy way. If this would happen when i was in italy and i wouldnt be able to attend the funeral, they had no idea where i am and would think i skipped the funeral on purpose. Knowing them, they would talk sh*t about me. Or maybe get even more nosy about what I am up to.

Unlike the aunts and uncles tho, i liked my grandma. She was a nice person. I was here for around 10 days before she had a stroke and went to a coma, and i knew she was already sick. I did plan on seeing her in my visit, but i guess i was lazy and didnt get to see her for one last time.
The last time I saw her goes back to 2 years ago when i was flying to italy for the first time. I went there to say goodbye, without actually saying it. She had no idea i was leaving because me and my parents thought its for the best the my dad's family doesnt know im gone. She cried a lot when she saw me, because i dont visit her often. My heart is heavy.

my condolences on your grandma's passing

mike.....

 

[AvidFan]

So my grandma passed just now. Everyone actually saw this happening for a few months now, but it actually happened when i am back home. My father's family had no idea im studying abroad and kept questioning my mom and dad what I am up to in such a nosy way. If this would happen when i was in italy and i wouldnt be able to attend the funeral, they had no idea where i am and would think i skipped the funeral on purpose. Knowing them, they would talk sh*t about me. Or maybe get even more nosy about what I am up to.

Unlike the aunts and uncles tho, i liked my grandma. She was a nice person. I was here for around 10 days before she had a stroke and went to a coma, and i knew she was already sick. I did plan on seeing her in my visit, but i guess i was lazy and didnt get to see her for one last time.
The last time I saw her goes back to 2 years ago when i was flying to italy for the first time. I went there to say goodbye, without actually saying it. She had no idea i was leaving because me and my parents thought its for the best the my dad's family doesnt know im gone. She cried a lot when she saw me, because i dont visit her often. My heart is heavy.

So sorry to hear of your loss

 

[Aurelia]

you are on god's list and your time will come in the not to distant future

mike....

I agree but in the meantime all we can do is our best

 

[Windhover]

My heart is heavy.

sorry for the loss of your grandma PrincessPure. When you saw each other 2 years ago, you and she exchanged a goodbye even though it was unsaid. I hope your grief isn't too bitter and the memories lift you up. Like she would want.

 

[Windhover]

Emotionally exhausted. My husband is unable to give me any form of emotional support. I don’t even ask him or tell him what’s happening because he will ignore me or change the subject.
Today was the school staff leaving doo. I am leaving after 15 years at the school and I am sad to leave. I am very lucky to have worked in a school where they cared about both staff and students. I knew I was going to find today difficult but a few things happened today, which I won’t go into now, which made the day so much harder. That, and my mother is causing problems, I don’t know if it’s mental illness physical illness or most likely both. The hardest thing for me to get my head around today was the way my husband has offered zero support, zero compassion, but on the other side has been quick to message me when he can’t find something and how he cut his finger whilst looking for it, which will be my fault because I decided not to reply to his message when he messaged me saying he couldn’t it. He wants to drag me into anything he wishes but I get nothing in return. Life sucks. I’m stuck.

These are a really heavy combination of burdens, I'm sorry Holding my breath. I was wondering about your leaving the school, as you'd mentioned it a few months ago. Is there any way / time in which you could take a little vacation so as to celebrate the good work you did for all those years? Here is a hug for you if it helps.

 

[Windhover]

I feel like I can't help the world in the way it needs helping. i was reading that we begin to suffer distress if we have no one in which to look in the eyes every day. The internet helps, especially good places like SF, but it's not entirely sufficient for social support. if we spend all our time without connecting to someone, then we are at risk for mental and physical health problems. I wish this was solveable for all those who are too lonely.