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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I'm up and awake, as I have the maintenance guy coming to look at one of my many issues and as luck would have it he chose a morning slot so it's going to be a long day. I feel a little anxious and nauseous, but nothing too bad as yet. Just on my second and final coffee (have cut down from 3 with all the anxiety lately!)
Hopefully OK so far. Am doing financial calculations and working out best ways forward. If repairs are going to cost megabucks, I need to be in the best position possible by reducing any outstanding debts with savings as I'd have to look at an advance on my mortgage as the cheapest finance option. Will feel painful, but am thinking of the reduced monthly outgoings, have already cut out several £100s and am going to go through with a tooth comb and cancel anything not needed, along with thinking about switching on some things. My energy is cheap, which is one good thing, I fixed before it got expensive and seem to keep finding fix deals with my provider - think they're happy to keep people on a lower rate as long as they stay! My broadband on the other hand promises no existing customer will pay more than a new customer and is advertising deals £50 a month cheaper than I'm paying. 🤨
Confused.com (LOL). Both my mobile and broadband are with the same provider, it suits my needs, got unlimited calls and more than enough data, and the broadband works (apart from the weird new router) along with the mobile. Looking at switching the mobile and broadband deals seem to be all separate and I get a discount for having both with the current provider. Plus the last time I had to change a nano sim card I nearly had a heart attack when it flicked off under the counter top- how do you handle something so tiny with grown man shaky fingers and finesse it into the slot on the tray without touching the gold bit when there's about 1mm of room all around the side, without dying from the fiddly anxiety of it all?! I am thinking maybe I pay a bit more at the moment, but the hassle of swapping routers again, then sim cards then choosing activation dates and trying to keep my current number (essential for work) is all too much of a juggle to think about just now. So I might leave that for a bit!
45 minutes left of the window this window guy said he would call round in 🤨
I hope he's not like the handyman I got round many years ago. He was deaf as a post, about 98 years old, and to fix my leaking shower he just squirted silicone sealant all over the existing sealant (which I now know is totally pointless, as it won't stick, you're supposed to strip off all the old sealant first, at least I know that now!!). On the other hand he did fix my cupboard door, you never know what you're going to get with these people!
I hope he's not like the handyman I got round many years ago. He was deaf as a post, about 98 years old, and to fix my leaking shower he just squirted silicone sealant all over the existing sealant (which I now know is totally pointless, as it won't stick, you're supposed to strip off all the old sealant first, at least I know that now!!). On the other hand he did fix my cupboard door, you never know what you're going to get with these people!
Well he turned up in the time window he specified, he had a uniform on with a logo, and seemed a fairly friendly and OK guy. While talking about the windows he said he could do brickwork and other things too. So I had him look at the wall at the back, I didn't get a rushed intake of breath and a "Oh my God your wall is going to collapse" kind of reaction and he said he could repoint the bits that need doing and said the rest looks OK. Also said the front looks OK too. He did say he would repoint with cement which sounds dodgy as I've read that lime mortar needs to be used on my age of property, but maybe cement will be OK if it's just the bottom of the wall and props that up. He also said the wall looks like it was repointed within the last 5 years. I've been here 23 years and it was done before I moved in which makes me wonder if he's just bullshitting me.
I am not sure whether my feelings of relief are all too good to be true. He's going to email me a quote for both jobs. In the past I've had people visit and then quote something utterly ridiculous because they didn't want the job and then ghost me. I might have to go through the process of getting a few people out. Dare I be hopeful that it's going to cost £100s rather than £10,000s? I'm sure I'm due more anxiety, there is just so much conflicted information online. Whoever had this house was an incompetent DIYer (the windows are sealed with mastic instead of silicone and they installed a shower surround made of wood, duh, the kitchen was a disaster but I had that all put in new after a flood). Problem is I know very little about these things and there are lots of strong opinions online.
At least I've done something and made some progress which has knocked any anxiety on the head for the time being, I also managed to interact with him without becoming a trembling wreck (like I was when I was dealing with the roofer chap, I could barely get keys into doors.
Today is a win so far. I might look at breakfast/lunch.
I am not sure whether my feelings of relief are all too good to be true. He's going to email me a quote for both jobs. In the past I've had people visit and then quote something utterly ridiculous because they didn't want the job and then ghost me. I might have to go through the process of getting a few people out. Dare I be hopeful that it's going to cost £100s rather than £10,000s? I'm sure I'm due more anxiety, there is just so much conflicted information online. Whoever had this house was an incompetent DIYer (the windows are sealed with mastic instead of silicone and they installed a shower surround made of wood, duh, the kitchen was a disaster but I had that all put in new after a flood). Problem is I know very little about these things and there are lots of strong opinions online.
At least I've done something and made some progress which has knocked any anxiety on the head for the time being, I also managed to interact with him without becoming a trembling wreck (like I was when I was dealing with the roofer chap, I could barely get keys into doors.
Today is a win so far. I might look at breakfast/lunch.
I was thinking yesterday that I'm not able to see my grandchild, my other daughter was just offered a new job and is getting older, my niece will be leaving, life is just passing by. It may be right to just give up now. Why keep trying? I just do life half assed anyway, my hearts not in it like when I was younger. And I wish my insecurities and problems would go away...in a perfect world, ha.
Drained
Even after sleeping about 12 hours (versus the 6 or so I've been getting)
I wonder if the fatigue, anxiety and nervous energy were what kept me going?
And why do I just want to go back to sleep?
peace
Even after sleeping about 12 hours (versus the 6 or so I've been getting)
I wonder if the fatigue, anxiety and nervous energy were what kept me going?
And why do I just want to go back to sleep?
peace
Don’t give up. I get it. It’s like I have no purpose. I still don’t. What you need to do is find that purpose in life. Yeah I have a grandchild who I see but I feel that I am just existing. I usually combat the feeling by volunteering but that doesn’t make a difference. You contribute a lot on this forum and you are very helpful. Join meetup and do some activities that get you with people who share the same interests. That’s what saved me after the divorce. I understand you.
