How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

Really is time for bed. I would really like to sleep tonight, brain and body, do you think you can manage to do the right thing and drop off without a palaver?

 

[LumberJack]

Really is time for bed. I would really like to sleep tonight, brain and body, do you think you can manage to do the right thing and drop off without a palaver?

I am at work for about 1.5 hours longer today. I’m thinking about going straight to bed and then I will wake up in the middle of the night from hunger

 

[AvidFan]

I am at work for about 1.5 hours longer today. I’m thinking about going straight to bed and then I will wake up in the middle of the night from hunger

I hope you get to sleep and eat, whatever the time may be!

 

[AmberMarie]

I am at work for about 1.5 hours longer today. I’m thinking about going straight to bed and then I will wake up in the middle of the night from hunger

Maybe if you have a small and quick something that can be easy on your system like a sandwich before you go to bed. That might help you to get through the night and allow you to sleep.

 

[Inanimate]

More depleted than usual. Exercises that are otherwise routine make me feel winded and clammy. It’s absurd to me that progress made over several months can fall off within just a few weeks because I went to the wrong place at the wrong time.

 

[AvidFan]

Awake and warm. Another day in paradise awaits....

 

[LumberJack]

I feel just insanely suicidal right now. I’m still constantly having memories of painful past experiences coming up every minute I am not actively distracting myself. I’m not able to think of any way out. To the contrary, I’m sensing that trying to analyze my way to health is not working.

Perhaps thinking so much is only digging me deeper. I don’t know what else to do, though. The obvious answer (to me) is to reach out to someone who cares about me. I’m downplaying the possibility of that, because I don’t want to burden someone else with my dangerous feelings. My loved ones have their own problems and obligations and I worry that I might be asking too much.

So instead, I’m working at 5:00 AM. It feels so pointless. I know this is a temporary state. I’m also aware that it’s been so long since I’ve felt even okay that I hardly remember what it’s like.

 

[Livelife]

Waking up really rough a few hours ago. Had a deeply troubling dream. Hard to shake.

 

[Bergerac]

bloody crap lol

 

[mosaic hearts]

I feel just insanely suicidal right now. I’m still constantly having memories of painful past experiences coming up every minute I am not actively distracting myself. I’m not able to think of any way out. To the contrary, I’m sensing that trying to analyze my way to health is not working.

Perhaps thinking so much is only digging me deeper. I don’t know what else to do, though. The obvious answer (to me) is to reach out to someone who cares about me. I’m downplaying the possibility of that, because I don’t want to burden someone else with my dangerous feelings. My loved ones have their own problems and obligations and I worry that I might be asking too much.

So instead, I’m working at 5:00 AM. It feels so pointless. I know this is a temporary state. I’m also aware that it’s been so long since I’ve felt even okay that I hardly remember what it’s like.

I understand your struggles 100%. Hugs.

 

[puffymilk]

Anxious, but also a bit better at the same time.

 

[epicpwner420]

Bored. I wish I was dead instead.

 

[AvidFan]

I feel just insanely suicidal right now. I’m still constantly having memories of painful past experiences coming up every minute I am not actively distracting myself. I’m not able to think of any way out. To the contrary, I’m sensing that trying to analyze my way to health is not working.

Perhaps thinking so much is only digging me deeper. I don’t know what else to do, though. The obvious answer (to me) is to reach out to someone who cares about me. I’m downplaying the possibility of that, because I don’t want to burden someone else with my dangerous feelings. My loved ones have their own problems and obligations and I worry that I might be asking too much.

So instead, I’m working at 5:00 AM. It feels so pointless. I know this is a temporary state. I’m also aware that it’s been so long since I’ve felt even okay that I hardly remember what it’s like.

I wish you could feel better and hope it helps a bit to post here.

 

[SillyOldBear]

A lot of room to be better.

 

[cymbele]

Another slow day at work although I have done an hours' worth of work that HAD to get done. Guilt, guilt, guilt. But it is not my fault it's the company's burden to bear so I shouldn't feel guilty.

 

[AvidFan]

It's relentless. I'd just reconciled myself to getting through the next 2 days and then resting for the weekend, when I get a call from the builders I contacted last week to arrange an inspection and they're coming on Saturday. I had just about given up on that project. But at least some genuine experts are coming to look, so I will get an idea of the damage (both physically and financially!)

 

[AvidFan]

Another slow day at work although I have done an hours' worth of work that HAD to get done. Guilt, guilt, guilt. But it is not my fault it's the company's burden to bear so I shouldn't feel guilty.

Wish we could swap jobs, though as I'm working for myself it's good I'm snowed under at the moment as every little fee and commission helps!

 

[cymbele]

Wish we could swap jobs, though as I'm working for myself it's good I'm snowed under at the moment as every little fee and commission helps!

I can't leave the laptop but i can listen to music. But it is better than being stuck in the office sitting in front of everyone twiddling my thumbs. I DO like my job when it is busy. But starting tomorrow I am on vacation for a week!

 

[Kiwi2016]

anxiety is high of course and depression rising but considering everything i'm ok. we have already done a ton of stuff and just barely climbing the mountain. i will get through this

mike

Remember to be gentle on yourself and take one step at a time...sending s

 

[epicpwner420]

Daydreaming of being dead