How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[mosaic hearts]

I feel absolutely terrible right now. A 6 going on 7 year old child alter came out about an hour ago & wrote & drew & cried about something that happened with our father. I feel sick after coming back to myself. I can feel Sandy's distress & emotional & physical pain. I feel like throwing up & I have to go to work in a few minutes pretending everything is great with a huge smile on my face. I just want to crawl under a big rock & hide right now. This is so hard. And this is on top of the other stuff I'm going through. All I can say is God help me get.through today intact. I don't know what else to say at the moment.

Mosaic Hearts

 

[Windhover]

Shaky, sick and sunburned.

Sorry to read this. How'd you get sunburned? If you don't mind me asking AvidFan.

Calendula cream if you can find it, for when the sunburn starts to heal.

 

[AvidFan]

Sorry to read this. How'd you get sunburned? If you don't mind me asking AvidFan.

Calendula cream if you can find it, for when the sunburn starts to heal.

I went out to do a bit of garden work, was supposed to be 5 minutes but then I found a tree/bush had wrapped itself around my fence and was also blocking the alley at the back, so a 5 minute job turned into about 45 minutes of sawing and snipping and it was high noon. I had my sunhat on but hadn't put on any sunblock (which I normally do if I know I'm going to be out, eg running) and had a t-shirt on. Fortunately it's not too bad, I think my nervous system wasn't ready for the exertion which led to the other stuff, my hands are still shaking a bit!

 

[KM76710]

Jaded by expressing my desires in terms of wants and needs. For once, what if I lead with “I will”?

I will some other day.

I hope that you can hold that...

I will...if it makes me feel better.

I will...if I may be able to help another along.

I will...if it may bring some ease and comfort whether for myself or others. I Will.

 

[KM76710]

Time to leave this stinking life. Just wish I had the nerve to do it.

I am pleased that you are still around. Who doesn't love a bear? I just wish your pains were not so great and that you are able to enjoy your times.

 

[KM76710]

Dark thoughts with no relief, difficult to distract. Maybe tomorrow will be better

I hope those days are better, for you and so many others.

 

[Windhover]

Hope the sunburn cools and shaking subsides @AvidFan . That happens to my wrists and hands after using the weed-snipper machine. I was just reading how sunburn is really hard on the immune system, which I hadn't known, (though it's obvious now that I've read about it).

 

[mosaic hearts]

I feel absolutely terrible right now. A 6 going on 7 year old child alter came out about an hour ago & wrote & drew & cried about something that happened with our father. I feel sick after coming back to myself. I can feel Sandy's distress & emotional & physical pain. I feel like throwing up & I have to go to work in a few minutes pretending everything is great with a huge smile on my face. I just want to crawl under a big rock & hide right now. This is so hard. And this is on top of the other stuff I'm going through. All I can say is God help me get.through today intact. I don't know what else to say at the moment.

Mosaic Hearts

Sandy wrote about something that happened with our father. Just want to clarify.

 

[Windhover]

We at SF love your presence here. Though I understand about wanting to go. I wish your life was not stinking but the opposite. hugs @SillyOldBear

 

[Inanimate]

I hope that you can hold that...

I will...if it makes me feel better.

I will...if I may be able to help another along.

I will...if it may bring some ease and comfort whether for myself or others. I Will.

Thank you.

 

[SillyOldBear]

I am pleased that you are still around. Who doesn't love a bear? I just wish your pains were not so great and that you are able to enjoy your times.

It wouldn't be so bad if the shit didn't keep piling up.

 

[SillyOldBear]

i understand but i hope you can find ways to stick around

mike.....

It just gets less and less worth it.

 

[Aurelia]

My ADHD makes it hard to concentrate. I want to read but can't do it for long

 

[1964dodge]

My ADHD makes it hard to concentrate. I want to read but can't do it for long

 

[AmberMarie]

Extremely sick... Can't function at all!

 

[cymbele]

Work was so slow I left and went to tai chi. Invigorating. As I have said before this style of tai chi is very much an active style - i call it karate without the pushups. Felt better than I have in a while, returned to work and lo and behold I had work to do! I had a very good afternoon at work. Tomorrow (Wednesday) I have work for the morning and then nothing at all. And no tai chi.

But for some reason I am afraid to go to bed. Somewhat fearful that I will be attacked by insomnia which has been happening as of late. Might have to do with my not getting up at the regular since I don't have a commute. Oh well, there are more fearful things to face.

 

[lonelyguy_in_CoMo]

I feel like a worthless piece of crap. I turned 61 today (plz no Happy Birthday) and that means I've been disabled with panic attacks for 1/2 of my life. I haven't accomplished anything. No wonder I'm tired of life 😞

 

[full]

Good

 

[epicpwner420]

I would feel better if I died.

 

[AvidFan]

Good. Calm, capable, enough energy. Hope it lasts at least a day before I spiral into anxiety and exhaustion again 🤞