I know what you mean. That's what depression is. We don't feel what "normal people" feel when we do activities. We don't get a feeling of accomplishment or joy. So it often seems like there's no point to doing anything. I feel like that a lot too. You're not alone, my friend. But one thing I do know I feel good about is hearing from you and knowing that you're still keeping on.
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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I’m angry, and wondering if it’s something wrong with me. I’m angered so frequently, and it takes me longer to get over it than I think it should. There seems to be a theme going on, where the reason I feel angry is that I have been trying to accommodate the other person, but they are not reciprocating. So the second I need to take up space, my needs are not relevant.
I feel bullied when I’m pushed aside to make space the one time I feel that I have to take care of my own needs. But why do I keep allowing that to happen? I think it’s to keep the peace, but again, no one is willing to bend on my account to keep peace with me.
So it’s probably better if I start demanding my own space rather than waiting until I get fed up and explode. I just don’t know how to do that. I mean, how do I assert myself without feeling like I’m selfish? I’m so used to not mattering that when I do dare to be allowed to have needs of my own, I feel guilty and then like I need to apologize. What I do know is that I am fed up.
I feel bullied when I’m pushed aside to make space the one time I feel that I have to take care of my own needs. But why do I keep allowing that to happen? I think it’s to keep the peace, but again, no one is willing to bend on my account to keep peace with me.
So it’s probably better if I start demanding my own space rather than waiting until I get fed up and explode. I just don’t know how to do that. I mean, how do I assert myself without feeling like I’m selfish? I’m so used to not mattering that when I do dare to be allowed to have needs of my own, I feel guilty and then like I need to apologize. What I do know is that I am fed up.
Exhausted! i went in for a bit to work to get the week's meetings set up... i shouldn't have gone in. i WAS on the schedule tomorrow. Not happening. Going in again Tuesday evening. We sha;; see how i handle the easiest shift... right now.. i feel pretty damn worthless. Still only holding down water... at least it's that much.
you have so much joy in your life, the only problem is your pain puts blinders on your eyes. you have your wonderful teddy bear collection, your friends from church, your friends here , and i hope my friendship as well. pain either eotional, physical or both can suck joy out of life. i know you are suffering and like me will until we go home but there is hope. when we pass we can touch the face of god and live in peace for eternity
mike....
mike....
practice
You can do this Lumber Jack. Practice with something you want, a small item or activity, that you can do completely alone so you can run throught the feelings without the complications of another person's reactions. Practice soothing down the guilt, the anger, the sense of not-deserving, by literally observing and telling them they're loved, but not needing to be in charge of everything (you) at this time.
hug
You can do this Lumber Jack. Practice with something you want, a small item or activity, that you can do completely alone so you can run throught the feelings without the complications of another person's reactions. Practice soothing down the guilt, the anger, the sense of not-deserving, by literally observing and telling them they're loved, but not needing to be in charge of everything (you) at this time.
hug