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Yes, very different. I'm an artist at heart and very much value alone time. One can be excruciatingly lonely despite being in the same room with other people one has known for years.
Hope you're doing alright @snails .
Hopeyou are feeling better @AmberMarie .
Hope you're doing alright @snails .
Hopeyou are feeling better @AmberMarie .
anxious, struggling, sick that I've probably caused the end of a friendship
I have a temper, (which is normally controlled), but I lost it at a friend of mine, in an exaggerated response to a small trigger
I blame it on the decrease in my mood stabilizer, but still, the damage is done
I hate seeing my anger come out, as I tend to express it badly
To compound it, I messaged her, apologized and asked to talk
She called, but either I inadvertently hung up, or the call dropped, or she hung up
I wish I knew what was wrong with me,
I've been diagnosed as having bi-polar, or BPD, or even ASD
I guess it doesn't matter, as the mood stabilizer was treating symptoms including irritability and impulsivity
peace
I have a temper, (which is normally controlled), but I lost it at a friend of mine, in an exaggerated response to a small trigger
I blame it on the decrease in my mood stabilizer, but still, the damage is done
I hate seeing my anger come out, as I tend to express it badly
To compound it, I messaged her, apologized and asked to talk
She called, but either I inadvertently hung up, or the call dropped, or she hung up
I wish I knew what was wrong with me,
I've been diagnosed as having bi-polar, or BPD, or even ASD
I guess it doesn't matter, as the mood stabilizer was treating symptoms including irritability and impulsivity
peace
I would message her, and let her know what happened, in terms of the potential blunder (on your end? Or no-end...)
so that she gets clarification on. . .
I think, or find / that it is a very good sign, that she'd returned your call -- after having sent her your note, trying to explain
your situation, and yourself.
I would talk with my prescriber, of your mood stabilizer, and let them know what happened. And why you are concerned, or what the differences are, or might be (now in this dosage-reduction). Unless, of course, you'd prefer it that way & are on board with the decision.
Try not to be too hard on yourself. You've got a great awareness of your situation. Which is good. That is a good thing, I believe.
If you can recognize it, then maybe whatever is within your ability to control, or temper it, may be of good service or use...
I would explain: if you haven't already done so, and this is true; that you were simply expressing anger/or rage, and that it was coming from some other place entirely. Whether that was another source, yourself, etc.
Unless she was calling you back, to return fire or say "good-bye!" & give you up,
then if she knows you as well as you say, hopefully, she will understand your situation. And the function therein that is contained
as a result of your enviroment, w/respect to your change (or reduction in) medication.
Perhaps there is a very good reason the Dr. is doing this (that it's in relation to something else, or some other kind of effect?).
Regardless, I wish you good luck - with this @1Lefty ~
so that she gets clarification on. . .
I think, or find / that it is a very good sign, that she'd returned your call -- after having sent her your note, trying to explain
your situation, and yourself.
I would talk with my prescriber, of your mood stabilizer, and let them know what happened. And why you are concerned, or what the differences are, or might be (now in this dosage-reduction). Unless, of course, you'd prefer it that way & are on board with the decision.
Try not to be too hard on yourself. You've got a great awareness of your situation. Which is good. That is a good thing, I believe.
If you can recognize it, then maybe whatever is within your ability to control, or temper it, may be of good service or use...
I would explain: if you haven't already done so, and this is true; that you were simply expressing anger/or rage, and that it was coming from some other place entirely. Whether that was another source, yourself, etc.
Unless she was calling you back, to return fire or say "good-bye!" & give you up,
then if she knows you as well as you say, hopefully, she will understand your situation. And the function therein that is contained
as a result of your enviroment, w/respect to your change (or reduction in) medication.
Perhaps there is a very good reason the Dr. is doing this (that it's in relation to something else, or some other kind of effect?).
Regardless, I wish you good luck - with this @1Lefty ~
I’m sorry to hear you are experiencing this. I also deal with losing my temper with friends, and it feels so bad afterwards. So many mixed feelings of anger, frustration, sadness, despair, etc, at least, in my case.
I hope everything will work out for you. In the meantime, I’m here for you if you ever want or need to talk. Sending hugs
I hope everything will work out for you. In the meantime, I’m here for you if you ever want or need to talk. Sending hugs
Pissed off. People get in touch and want to arrange a meeting, like today, as if I haven't enough to do. I check my diary, bend over backwards and offer them two options. Nah, sorry, I want the evening slot where you have like 10 people queued up for it. People want me to be super flexible but won't be flexible themselves. MFers.
Thanks for the response Mr. B,
The dosage decrease was due to my request (insistence?), and my doc was reluctant, she suggested that increased impulsivity and irritability could result. I don't want to let my doc know yet, I'm hoping that my emotions will adjust to the change and that I'll be able to decrease the dose again.
I did text my friend, also called and left a message a few days ago, I think I'll wait a week or two for everything to settle, then try again
With the medication, I feel my emotions are being flattened, that I'm losing some of the dynamics of life, and there are other side effects as well
peace
The dosage decrease was due to my request (insistence?), and my doc was reluctant, she suggested that increased impulsivity and irritability could result. I don't want to let my doc know yet, I'm hoping that my emotions will adjust to the change and that I'll be able to decrease the dose again.
I did text my friend, also called and left a message a few days ago, I think I'll wait a week or two for everything to settle, then try again
With the medication, I feel my emotions are being flattened, that I'm losing some of the dynamics of life, and there are other side effects as well
peace
Tonight is the night where the urges to sh are high. I am fed up with my husband sitting on the sofa all day, every day, taking a break!! 
While I work from the moment I wake to the moment I go to bed. I go into the kitchen to find no one has tidied up, so having worked for hours I am still the one clearing up after everyone else. Why does that make me want to sh? Because they make me feel like I am unworthy and just a slave to their needs.
it will take a lot of effort to not sh tonight. The thing is, I don’t want to make that effort.
While I work from the moment I wake to the moment I go to bed. I go into the kitchen to find no one has tidied up, so having worked for hours I am still the one clearing up after everyone else. Why does that make me want to sh? Because they make me feel like I am unworthy and just a slave to their needs.it will take a lot of effort to not sh tonight. The thing is, I don’t want to make that effort.
