How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

I have to laugh at my clueless optimism and positive self talk. I told myself I was going to feel relieved if they said it was £8k as that might be just about doable, somehow. This is in fuck it CTB territory. Let someone else pick up the pieces and deal with it. Now I'm supposed to be completely on it for a couple of meetings.

if you can't afford the work to be done could you find a roofer to let you put the 8k down and make payments or maybe do the work in stages, it is tough but not worth the bus ride

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

Frustrated

welcome to SF @Gravestone we are a peer community and we treat each other like family. this site is anonymous so very safe to talk. feel free to talk here or if you'd like privacy feel free to use my inbox. i'm sorry that you feel frustrated, would you like to talk about it? i hope you feel better soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Awake. I'd just started getting my sleep back on track but with today's stress no chance. I've ended up researching methods because I can't sleep. I did go to sleep for 5 minutes and then dreamt someone was banging on the door and that was it. I'm not doing anything with the methods, I know it would work, was just double checking it would be peaceful. I'm worried it's becoming inevitable. All for the sake of £10k or so. Surely a life is worth more than that. Try telling the absolute fuckers who are making my life hell right now (work shit on top of the roof shit). Sorry for rambling I don't want to worry anyone I'll still be here tomorrow if only for my SF friends 🤗❤️

you probably know looking for methods is a bad idea, but sometimes life draws us to the act of looking for methods, i still do it sometimes but i fight the urge, i guess i'm asking you to fight that urge as hard as you can. i'm concerned if you have the method you could commit an accidental suicide. i consider accidental suicide as a time when we let things get to us so bad we act impulsively, not an act we would normally consider. i am very pleased you want to stay for your friends here, you are loved

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

extremely frustrated

i'm sorry @SillyOldBear would you like to talk about it?

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

i'm actually doing pretty good right now. i'm hoping for more good days ahead

mike

 

[Inanimate]

Disappointed. Not by individuals but the general idea that someone somewhere could’ve done more to make life easier but merely chose to make it easier on themselves. Not even out of selfishness or self-preservation but laziness and indifference. Because the simplest, most efficient use of one’s time and the easiest way to solve problems is to leave it for someone who cares.

I guess I’d better go take my meds.

 

[puffymilk]

I feel pretty okay

 

[LumberJack]

I am in hell, or hell is in me, and it wants out. Please help me.

 

[AvidFan]

I am in hell, or hell is in me, and it wants out. Please help me.

I'm with you in hell, don't know if that helps.

 

[Lane]

Suicidal. Knew I'd woken up in too good a mood and life was just waiting to kick me. Thought this would be like most things in life - never as bad as you think. Unfortunately it is as bad as I thought - I have been told I need a new roof, new tiles, new woodwork, chimney work, everything - £13000. That's the kind of money I don't have, and kicks in my plan of letting my inheritors pay for the work with my life insurance if they want to live in the house or sell it on. I'm essentially fucking finished financially.

Sorry this is all happening Avid. I hope those suicidal thoughts lessen.

 

[Lane]

I am in hell, or hell is in me, and it wants out. Please help me.

Lumber Jack please be gentle with yourself if you can. We care about you here.

 

[Lane]

Frustrated

Welcome to the forum Gravestone. Would you like to say more about why you're frustrated? We are a friendly, non judgemental group of folks here.

 

[Inastorm]

I used to work with dementia patients on a locked ward. Many of them would wait at the doors, where a member of staff would chat to them and gently guide them back to their beds. The ward was considering getting a bus stop sign and a time table, so that people would wait by the bus stop. I thought this sounded cruel but there is evidence behind it for dementia patients, that it reduces stress ect. Then it came to me, this is exactly how im feeling, like im waiting at a bus stop for a bus thats never going to come. Sad.

 

[SillyOldBear]

i'm sorry @SillyOldBear would you like to talk about it?

mike....

Am making progress on one of the frustrations.

 

[AvidFan]

Totally baffled. Another roofer came out, gave me a completely and utterly different story. Chimney needs fixing, rest looks OK. But didn't even go up to take a closer look. Will send me a quote based on a look from the street. JFC. Didn't even look at the back, which could have had huge holes in it. WTF. One said my slate issue is caused by moss and delamination - ie falling apart. The other said it's lichen and nothing to worry about. Which is true? No idea because I'm not a roofer, I'm trying to get so-called professionals in to advise me 😂

 

[Inastorm]

That's really annoying @AvidFan. But maybe it wont need the 13K spent on it after all though. Were these roofers recommended to you?

 

[AvidFan]

I have nobody in my life who could recommend a roofer. I shortlisted them after pains-taking research, checking Google, companies house listings, online reviews, web presence, etc etc. At least they seem to exist - I had roofers parked outside the house the other day, I googled their name and mobile number to find no online presence at all. Try going after those if they mess it all up. I honestly don't know how anyone actually has a roof on their house with all the scammers and cowboys out there. I've got the 3rd coming out tomorrow - called Act Fast and will have taken them 2 weeks to come out 😂 I can almost guarantee I am going to get something completely different again. Like suggesting the whole thing needs to be demolished, and they will do it for a fee 🤷‍♂️

I don't have many options at the moment. I can't just rush into £13k of debt that would be crippling no matter how I financed it, if that's even possible. I can't do nothing. I suppose as long as I've not got water pouring through the ceiling I've still got some time to try to find someone who might actually be helpful.

 

[Ash600]

" They are just dead men, merely waiting confirmation.... Like me. "

Can't at the moment remember from where I heard that from but damn that line resonates so strongly with me. Has done for quite some time now.

 

[AvidFan]

I'm mentally broken. I got my credit card sorted out, new card, got back into my account, payment has gone through. The bastards have refunded the Canadian visa charges of over £100 but they've left the dominos pizzas for over £50 on my card and put it through to the new account. I was told they'd be refunded and they've just left them on there. I tried to ring and their lines are closed. I called the Fraud line and they said they can't do anything, all they can do is block cards, I will have to ring the regular line tomorrow. Just one more thing. It's a small thing but when you're on the edge, it just all starts mounting up. This roof saga is ridiculous utterly fucking ridiculous, I can't find any useful help, I've no idea if people are lying to me, clueless, or couldn't care less and I have no way of finding out. I could get 10 different lots of feedback and still have no idea who's telling me the right thing. Honestly? I wish I was dead and I wish I had the balls and disregard for others that other people in my life have had, to go get my method and go and have a long lie down. I know when I feel like this there is no way I am going to sleep, I am completely on edge, wound up, sad, despairing, stressed out of my mind and completely fucking fed up. I've tried to work today and made $65. I haven't even scratched the surface. And my brain just isn't clicking. For absolute fuck's sake when is this relentless crap just going to take 5 minutes off?

 

[ClassicsFan]

Giddy.