How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

Also a risk of their children getting fentanyl on the street and not knowing the dose for sure, and what other poisons they put in there (I’m not making this up, street fentanyl is found with a benzo used on horses, and in humans it causes deep wounds that never heal).

But surely that's the fault of those over the border rather than a failure your side of the border! Tariffs will stop the tranq dope! /s

 

[AvidFan]

I'm definitely feeling like it's mid week. Just trying to pace myself, soon be Friday and another weekend. Have had to dial down work on my second job as I've just been so tired and need to recover from the last 2 months. I'm Ok apart from needing to be careful I don't over stretch myself - that's when things start to go wrong mentally and emotionally for me.

 

[SillyOldBear]

not well

 

[LumberJack]

I recently got home from picking up a pizza in the next town over. This is good. I also couldn’t remember which route I took to get home out of the three routes I could take. I had to go back and piece together the events going forward from my leaving with the pizza.

I am concerned by this. I had taken the scenic route that goes almost up to the foothills in front of the mountains. It’s beautiful, and I know I was enjoying it. I usually remember my drives. Hopefully it is just stress and not me having a near blackout for no immediate reason.

 

[AvidFan]

not well

Hope you feel better soon.

 

[AvidFan]

I recently got home from picking up a pizza in the next town over. This is good. I also couldn’t remember which route I took to get home out of the three routes I could take. I had to go back and piece together the events going forward from my leaving with the pizza.

I am concerned by this. I had taken the scenic route that goes almost up to the foothills in front of the mountains. It’s beautiful, and I know I was enjoying it. I usually remember my drives. Hopefully it is just stress and not me having a near blackout for no immediate reason.

Maybe it's just stress, you've had a lot to deal with - for a long time, and a lot recently.

 

[1964dodge]

I'm doing well today.

great news

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

I regret even trying.

 

[Windhover]

not well

what's going on, if it is okay to ask?

healthy wishes to you

 

[Windhover]

I also couldn’t remember which route I took to get home out of the three routes I could take

Do you think there was so much chatter in your mind that you were on automatic pilot for most of the drive? I know I've unintentionally done that, especially when I do something kind of anomalous.

 

[1964dodge]

Also a risk of their children getting fentanyl on the street and not knowing the dose for sure, and what other poisons they put in there (I’m not making this up, street fentanyl is found with a benzo used on horses, and in humans it causes deep wounds that never heal).

the real fentanyl is a great medication when tightly controlled and extreme caution when prescribed. before the opioid crises i used 100 mcg strength which the patches lasted 3 days with morphine and as needed hydro-morphone. the fentanyl patch eliminated pain spikes. i lived in the 2 or 3 pain range out of 10 and sometimes hit zero for a few hours and i was much more active. as with any med fentanyl prescriptions helps if used wisely , the illegal fentanyl is in everything and is very dangerous

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

"Once more into the fray"
I am tired, just tired.
I want to stop pretending but i can't.
The person i lie the most is myself.

i lie to myself all the time to help put a more positive spin on things, otherwise everyday would be a bad day. i figure if it helps and i'm not delusional it's a good thing

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

not well

i'm sorry to hear that, i hope you feel better soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

feeling pretty good. i had a really bad pain spike for a couple hours but as usual it came down. i had my first appointment with a weight loss clinic. i was against going because one of my kids had a bad outcome in another town. they said it's not that way and shouldn't have been that way for my kid.

we talked openly and the doctor was open and honest, i told her no surgery but we did agree to make surgery a last resort and i might still say no. she changed 3 of my meds and i'm very hopeful

mike

 

[Inastorm]

Totally fed up. Struggling. Had a telephone assessment with an nhs psychiatrist yesterday for over an hour. Wants me to take some online autistic assessments and if high to get further formal assessments.
Is wanting me assessed also for the personality disorder. Its a long story but another psychiatrist saw me for 15 mins when i was having crisis and diagnosed me with a personally disorder. This one yesterday said they thought maybe if i had one it would maybe dependant personality disorder/ traits, but wanted this and autism looked at.

 

[Ash600]

Feels as if I'm nothing but a ghostly spectator peering through a frosted barrier watching as the world spins round. Knowing that deep down I never have been nor ever will be a part of it.

 

[Windhover]

I'm feeling like an angry gresaille with a sad hurt mixture on top for what might have been, certain paintings I had planned to do, the moments which cannot ever happen.

 

[cymbele]

Coming out of my slump. Nothing has been interesting; my life is boring, exercise is boring; my work projects boring; tai chi boring; woodworking (hobby) has been boring; my life is one big boring life. But I'm starting to get interested in things so maybe I've hit a turning point. I hope so. Being boring all the time is well, boring and depressing.

 

[AvidFan]

Totally fed up. Struggling. Had a telephone assessment with an nhs psychiatrist yesterday for over an hour. Wants me to take some online autistic assessments and if high to get further formal assessments.
Is wanting me assessed also for the personality disorder. Its a long story but another psychiatrist saw me for 15 mins when i was having crisis and diagnosed me with a personally disorder. This one yesterday said they thought maybe if i had one it would maybe dependant personality disorder/ traits, but wanted this and autism looked at.

 

[AvidFan]

Coming out of my slump. Nothing has been interesting; my life is boring, exercise is boring; my work projects boring; tai chi boring; woodworking (hobby) has been boring; my life is one big boring life. But I'm starting to get interested in things so maybe I've hit a turning point. I hope so. Being boring all the time is well, boring and depressing.

I never seem to be allowed to get bored in my life, there's always some kind of survival challenge going on. Part good, part bad, I suppose! I hope you have indeed hit a turning point!