How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Windhover]

@Inastorm I forgot to do the playlist; thank you for reminding me. I am going to do it this weekend. It's weird how I have been ignoring things that'd help. I wonder if that's purposeful behind the scenes, because I don't want to let go of things which connect me to him in my mind. If I move on, feel better - like you said - then it is actually over.

I hope you had a good evening.

 

[HappyKitty]

3 days weekend isnt enough to recover my energy back affer a week of work 🤣

 

[Gard]

3 days weekend isnt enough to recover my energy back affer a week of work 🤣

Sometimes even two months is not enough.

 

[puffymilk]

Neutral, and leaning towards good

 

[SillyOldBear]

Frustrated. Was elected to continue service as deacon at church without being asked. Now have to back out of that, tell them I was never asked. Am not the only one they did this to. I just do not have the energy.
Just got invited to grand-niece's graduation. Was given late notice. Will send a card and some money. Its a 40 mile drive from me.

 

[crowgarden]

Horrible. I wanna die really bad.

 

[Inastorm]

Frustrated. Was elected to continue service as deacon at church without being asked. Now have to back out of that, tell them I was never asked. Am not the only one they did this to. I just do not have the energy.
Just got invited to grand-niece's graduation. Was given late notice. Will send a card and some money. Its a 40 mile drive from me.

No wonder your frustrated, it's not nice not having the energy to do things you want to do. It's even more important to be kind to yourself during these times.

 

[SillyOldBear]

No wonder your frustrated, it's not nice not having the energy to do things you want to do. It's even more important to be kind to yourself during these times.

Most of my frustration is for being elected to something I did not want to be elected to and was NOT ASKED if I wanted the position.

 

[JCC988]

I'm alright for now. Not really feeling great, but certainly not feeling bad despite having a difficult day at work. The fact that it should be better tonight is a consolation for me.

 

[puffymilk]

A bit better

 

[JanisSPK]

Ok....It's been awhile since I've been here and I've forgotten how to search for a thread I want to post in so here's where this is going to land. Sounds like me, right? LOL.

I am happy to be back here and see everyone I know and also that everyone is still here as far as I can tell at this point. And glad to see also how everyone is doing. I look forward to getting to know those I haven't met yet.

Hugs and good thoughts to all especially those having a rough moment, day, or week so far....

 

[JCC988]

Ok....It's been awhile since I've been here and I've forgotten how to search for a thread I want to post in so here's where this is going to land. Sounds like me, right? LOL.

I am happy to be back here and see everyone I know and also that everyone is still here as far as I can tell at this point. And glad to see also how everyone is doing. I look forward to getting to know those I haven't met yet.

Hugs and good thoughts to all especially those having a rough moment, day, or week so far....

Yo. I didn't think I'd have to come back here after some years, but here I am. You're in good company, rest assured.

 

[JanisSPK]

Yo. I didn't think I'd have to come back here after some years, but here I am. You're in good company, rest assured.

Thanks so much JCC. I don't know how long you have been back but I hope you are doing pretty ok even though you decided to come back into the forum....I haven't had time yet to read many posts and plan on doing that to catch up......

 

[maybeicanheal]

Well, update for y'all.

My OCD is starting to shift themes, which I am grateful for. Existential OCD it is. Time to feel like I'm being lectured by philosophy majors for a couple weeks.

My wife has agreed to read a letter from me. I think it's important that she knows what she thinks happened is not even remotely close to the truth, and that she is given some context for the depth of my mental illness. I wrote out the letter and am now hyperfixated on what her reaction will be to it. I know that I cannot be a safe partner to her while hating myself to this level and genuinely believing myself to be a predator for being with her. It's not fair to her. But I do feel like I know her better than anyone- and that she's going to read this letter and realize that she and many others ignored multiple major warning flags regarding my mental health, and my only hope is that it brings her closure that this is not her fault. My brain's just not operating correctly.

 

[maybeicanheal]

A bit better

Glad to hear this!

 

[LumberJack]

Frustrated. Was elected to continue service as deacon at church without being asked.

You have every right to say no. I am hopeful that you will maintain your connection with the community there, as in not letting this disrupt your enjoyment of being with others in a community.

I have been in the leadership of a nonprofit that needed a certain amount of volunteers on a rotating basis. It was so very difficult to recruit people! That’s fine; it’s not something everyone can do ongoing. That said, folks have to sign up, as opposed to being “volun-told.” That doesn’t sit right with me. I am learning to say “no” for myself, and it is very uncomfortable, so I’m imagining that it’s not easy for you, but you can take care of yourself first. After all you wouldn’t be able to bring your best self to service unless you do have the energy!
Sending supportive energy.

 

[may71]

Ok....It's been awhile since I've been here

Welcome back

 

[JanisSPK]

Welcome back

Thank you May☺️✨

 

[SillyOldBear]

You have every right to say no. I am hopeful that you will maintain your connection with the community there, as in not letting this disrupt your enjoyment of being with others in a community.

I have been in the leadership of a nonprofit that needed a certain amount of volunteers on a rotating basis. It was so very difficult to recruit people! That’s fine; it’s not something everyone can do ongoing. That said, folks have to sign up, as opposed to being “volun-told.” That doesn’t sit right with me. I am learning to say “no” for myself, and it is very uncomfortable, so I’m imagining that it’s not easy for you, but you can take care of yourself first. After all you wouldn’t be able to bring your best self to service unless you do have the energy!
Sending supportive energy.

Thank you Jack. I am glad you understand. I am standing my ground and declined the position. My term will expire at end of the year. I am not the only one this happened to this year. Pastor apologized and church today. It would not be a bad gig except they have changed things up since I took the position. They are having lunches every other month and expect deacons and fellowship committee to set everything up and buy all the food. I don't have money for that. Also, our monthly meetings have become a totally uncoordinated mess. The department head seems to have trouble concentrating and remembering what is going on. She is a dear woman, but I worry about her.

 

[LumberJack]

still feeling great. a little pissed though. i had a good session with my weight doctor yesterday but found out it was her last day. she never said a word, i found out when the weight clinic called me today, i feel betrayed. they wanted to know if i wanted a new appointmennt and i told them i have to think about it

mike...

It’s happened to me, too. It would have been a courtesy to let you know. Especially if she was aware that you were counting on working with her. IDK, sometimes people are inconsiderate sometimes, and others more frequently. I am with you on this.