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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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still feeling great. a little pissed though. i had a good session with my weight doctor yesterday but found out it was her last day. she never said a word, i found out when the weight clinic called me today, i feel betrayed. they wanted to know if i wanted a new appointmennt and i told them i have to think about it
mike...
mike...
still feeling great. a little pissed though. i had a good session with my weight doctor yesterday but found out it was her last day. she never said a word, i found out when the weight clinic called me today, i feel betrayed. they wanted to know if i wanted a new appointmennt and i told them i have to think about it
mike...
mike...
Wishing you all happiness 
I'm sure you'll give those paintings enough attention to finish them. If your anything like me at the moment, I think it's okay to be tired, all the thinking takes a lot out of you. The mind will be practically battling away, confusion, emotions, trying to do day to day things, it's all soo exhausting.
It's 19.17 here, so it's the evening and Im going to do a few things in the house and have a beer. I hope you manage through with your sadness, I don't think it's going to be a quick fix. Did you put together some of your own play lists of music from the other day?
It's 19.17 here, so it's the evening and Im going to do a few things in the house and have a beer. I hope you manage through with your sadness, I don't think it's going to be a quick fix. Did you put together some of your own play lists of music from the other day?
well, for no reason just descended into hellish suffering. I keep thinking about things I wish didn't happen, but they did so it's not like holding this anger is useful in any sense of the word.
I don't think that's the true nature of my upset though. I don't know what is torturing me, and it feels so bad that my thinking brain is running around trying to find an explanation for why my amygdala is on fire. I think I need to go fight off a saber toothed tiger or something. I.just.want.to.stop.hurting. This is when sobriety gets hard, but they call it work, so I can't be exempted from what everyone else has to do.
In reality I am going to do some physically demanding house work. If that doesn't help me descend from utter chaos into at least moderate anxiety, then breathing exercises (breathwork? is that a term outside of the yoga studio???)
I don't think that's the true nature of my upset though. I don't know what is torturing me, and it feels so bad that my thinking brain is running around trying to find an explanation for why my amygdala is on fire. I think I need to go fight off a saber toothed tiger or something. I.just.want.to.stop.hurting. This is when sobriety gets hard, but they call it work, so I can't be exempted from what everyone else has to do.
In reality I am going to do some physically demanding house work. If that doesn't help me descend from utter chaos into at least moderate anxiety, then breathing exercises (breathwork? is that a term outside of the yoga studio???)
. Hope your mood improves and you feel better I admire you for working on your artwork or even just thinking about it. Its something I neglect that's healing. It's mainly due to lack of space, but it feels so good to create.
I understand about missing an ex. Feelings are only natural. I still think about my ex-husband and how things would be if I never left. I imagine I'm better off.
I wish you a good weekend seabird.
I understand about missing an ex. Feelings are only natural. I still think about my ex-husband and how things would be if I never left. I imagine I'm better off.
I wish you a good weekend seabird.
Last night after a few Coronas and weed, I broke down to my friend, feeling embarrassed, about my daughter. Her birthday and my grandsons first birthday is tomorrow. They were born on the same day. Sometimes I feel like I have it in perspective and on occasion I break down.
I feel like I know it's my daughter's choice and I tey to respect that. But at the same time I wish she could let things go after all these years. She's 30 now and I just remember loving her so much when she was a baby, being my first born. I just wish she would come around.
I feel like I know it's my daughter's choice and I tey to respect that. But at the same time I wish she could let things go after all these years. She's 30 now and I just remember loving her so much when she was a baby, being my first born. I just wish she would come around.
I so badly want to send the letter I have written explaining my state of psychosis to my wife- but I am self aware enough to recognize that she has asked for space, and to send the letter is to overexplain myself (another OCD compulsion). I am working so hard to break myself free of the ruminating and delusions but it's so hard. My brain is fighting against me, and clearly wants to stay sick. 
Apprehensive, I'm going to a family reunion, with relatives I haven't seen in years, some of them decades. I have really strong political beliefs, but am normally not vocal about them, and like to think that I am tolerant enough to allow others to have theirs. I've seen Facebook posts by some cousins, who believe differently about politics (and religion), and are both vocal and intolerant. It will be a challenge to keep smiling.
peace
peace
Apprehensive, I'm going to a family reunion, with relatives I haven't seen in years, some of them decades. I have really strong political beliefs, but am normally not vocal about them, and like to think that I am tolerant enough to allow others to have theirs. I've seen Facebook posts by some cousins, who believe differently about politics (and religion), and are both vocal and intolerant. It will be a challenge to keep smiling.
peace
peace
