I felt ''happy'' for a couple of days. I'm type 2 diabetic sl I'm sure i'll be fine, but I drank some stuff that is loaded with sugar, and way too much of it. Way too much. My head hurts. I stayed up all night to not take my meds that help me sleep to help my digestive issues. Probably would have been better to just sleep like usual. I'm self sabotaging. I don't know why I do it but I've done it before. When I'm facing the whole real picture of my life, it's actually pathetic. I do nothing useful for anyone. I'm the one to call a couple people in my life, and when I realize they never reach out first, well, it's obvious they dont think of me. I just feel like crap again today I'm tired of the same day same stuff nothing really changes and as I get older I wonder if it's worthwhile anymore.