Back from work and going to do a few hours diy in the garden. Don't feel very good in myself, it's a feeling like I'm being pulled very slowly backwards through honey, something very sticky. It's almost like every now and again I feel myself going under, like Im going to drown.
I had an interesting experience yesterday, where someone wasn't being very nice to me. The situation took a turn and was in my favour, but I didnt like that. It would have been a win lose to me. I'm learning that I don't want to be in power struggles, I don't want to have this sense of victor or victim. So I worked with this person so the situation had a lose lose, which in my opinion was a win win. I felt good about doing that, as normally I may have just done a lose win situation and been all people pleasing or been the other way and had be combative and uptight.
