How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lonely dude30]

I’m happy I got approved for disability benefits for my depression, anxiety and mild intellectual disability.

 

[LumberJack]

Right now I feel down, because my medication is making me feel numb still. The doctor is tapering me off of my medication. That's moving me in the right direction, but I just hate feeling like this.

I have heard that described as emotional blunting. I have had it too, particularly when the doc took me too high with fluoxetine. I know the feeling of seeming like you're behind like a fogged window or something and detached from reality. It really sucks.

 

[LumberJack]

I'm feeling overall good, but I'm not happy with my own behavior lately. I'm paralyzed from doing anything about my job search. I did get an hour or so of skills training in on a membership based skills course platform. That's for the whole week, though! And I'm not doing the things to spiff up my online presence to get me higher in the search results on job sites or more attractive to recruiters. I'm really trying, but I just can't. It's gross, IMHO. I had therapy today so we talked about that and my therapist brought up that maybe an addiction specialist is called for here, because the things I'm doing instead of what I think will get me into a better life situation, are what's called process addictions. Meaning you can get addicted to behaviors that are not tied to a certain substance, but they are things like shopping, eating, gambling, or even excercise, that we do to an extreme and cannot stop even when we want to. Same criteria as with a substance disorder, namely is it getting worse over time and is it having a negative impact on your ability to maintain relationships, employment, health, etc. Well.... shoot. Yes, I qualify. Dammit. Oh well, I do have a direction to start attacking this from and that's progress. So, it's scary and I don't like it, but I'm not entirely stuck.

 

[Angie]

Spent several hours at the hospital doing pre op for the biopsy that happens Tuesday.

I feel lost and alone tonight.

 

[AmberMarie]

Spent several hours at the hospital doing pre op for the biopsy that happens Tuesday.

I feel lost and alone tonight.

Thinking of you. i know how difficult it can be.... especially when you feel so alone. You have so many people here that love and support you. i know its not the same as in person. However, we are here for you when you you find you are alone.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Spent several hours at the hospital doing pre op for the biopsy that happens Tuesday.

I feel lost and alone tonight.

I can sit with you. I have a hug for you if you want. I can listen.
🦩🦩🦩

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

I’m happy I got approved for disability benefits for my depression, anxiety and mild intellectual disability.

I am glad you were approved for benefits. 👌

🦩🦩🦩

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

I'm feeling overall good, but I'm not happy with my own behavior lately. I'm paralyzed from doing anything about my job search. I did get an hour or so of skills training in on a membership based skills course platform. That's for the whole week, though! And I'm not doing the things to spiff up my online presence to get me higher in the search results on job sites or more attractive to recruiters. I'm really trying, but I just can't. It's gross, IMHO. I had therapy today so we talked about that and my therapist brought up that maybe an addiction specialist is called for here, because the things I'm doing instead of what I think will get me into a better life situation, are what's called process addictions. Meaning you can get addicted to behaviors that are not tied to a certain substance, but they are things like shopping, eating, gambling, or even excercise, that we do to an extreme and cannot stop even when we want to. Same criteria as with a substance disorder, namely is it getting worse over time and is it having a negative impact on your ability to maintain relationships, employment, health, etc. Well.... shoot. Yes, I qualify. Dammit. Oh well, I do have a direction to start attacking this from and that's progress. So, it's scary and I don't like it, but I'm not entirely stuck.

That’s interesting. Sometimes that little bit of insight helps us find the our way, I believe they are good things ahead for you!
🦩🦩🦩

 

[Angie]

Thinking of you. i know how difficult it can be.... especially when you feel so alone. You have so many people here that love and support you. i know its not the same as in person. However, we are here for you when you you find you are alone.

Thank you.

 

[Lonely dude30]

I am glad you were approved for benefits. 👌

🦩🦩🦩

Thank you

 

[LumberJack]

Spent several hours at the hospital doing pre op for the biopsy that happens Tuesday.

I feel lost and alone tonight.

Feeling isolated is very difficult. I am sorry that I was not in chat last night, but I am glad when I see you there. I know that is no replacement for IRL face to face, heart to heart companionship, and I also feel very lonely.

I don’t even have a scary procedure coming up! I think that’s why we call people brave when they are going through medical difficulties. I can’t say it’s going to be alright in the end, because nothing is certain. Yet, you are doing the things you can to keep the odds on your side. (I was going to say in your favor but the Hunger Games novels and movies were really hard to watch ).

 

[AmberMarie]

i feel done. However i do not have the motivation to do anything right now. i need the energy it takes, however i find it very difficult to eat so i can have the energy. It feels like a losing battle no matter what i do and i want to just give in and forget everything i have been trying to accomplish.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Spent several hours at the hospital doing pre op for the biopsy that happens Tuesday.

I feel lost and alone tonight.

We are all with you.

 

[TiredlyRay000]

Pain, i want to sleep that never ends. to live in my dreams rather than this exhausting life. And just a bit miserable.

 

[Dani24]

I feel nothingness. And somehow I am supposed to get through today feeling like this. I just want to stay home and sleep.

 

[Lonely dude30]

I feel tired

 

[Lane]

Spent several hours at the hospital doing pre op for the biopsy that happens Tuesday.

I feel lost and alone tonight.

We are with you Angie. Big hugs to you.

 

[Lane]

Just checking in. Away with fiance. Hope everyone is doing as well as possible.

 

[Lane]

I’m happy I got approved for disability benefits for my depression, anxiety and mild intellectual disability.

That's great news @Lonely dude30. I hope you can continue to get help for what ails you.

 

[Lane]

Pain, i want to sleep that never ends. to live in my dreams rather than this exhausting life. And just a bit miserable.

Im sorry that youre not feeling well @TiredlyRay000. I agree that life, when not going well is exhausting and painful. However, just wanted to welcome you to SF. I hope you can find some peace and comfort here.