How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AmberMarie]

Got the cancer diagnosis today. Stage one endometrial cancer. I am a mix of numb and frantic.

Next step is a specialized oncologist in gynecology.

This cancer can be "cured" by a hysterectomy, so that is the first step. I have no idea what comes after.

i am so sorry to hear your news. However i am also hopeful. Catching it early hopefully will give you a much easier fighting battle. Hugs and hope being sent your way!

 

[JanisSPK]

Numb and defeated. I've been doing everything I possibly can to self care but the problems keep coming. I don't even get a weekend off problems. I spent thousands earlier this year to fix issues on my house. I already knew I'd been scammed when the new guttering leaked and these bastards failed to fix it
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@AvidFan

I'm starting out with messing this response...my apologies.
I just got handed a $14,000 quote by a house repiping company referred by my current plumber who said it would cost around $5000 to do a complete job. But it's $10,000 of it to repair the 1970's pipe in my house that has started leaking more, this includes knocking out walls and pulling down some bathroom cabinets and repainting etc etc etc.....AND BEING TOLD that the 13 year old water heater needs to be replaced in order for the warranty for the piping job to last the full length of time. not just a year. I figured there was a possibility of a tiny leak a few months ago when I smelled mold in the bathroom small linen closet but ignored it when two plumbers told me they didn't know what it was. Now it's a bigger deal with wet brick area outside the bathroom windows that are next to each other and wet carpet patch in my bathroom near the toilet/shower etc.

I have a second estimator coming Monday at 5pm....just because.
And I now have to involve the insurance company because of the wet wall in the utility room where the water heater is which I didn't know of until the contractor showed me 2 days ago. So that's the extra $4000 to buy the water heater and install new drywall and new flooring underneath in the water heater closet.

It never ends. I am moving this spring, this is the final piece. But I have to spend this money or no one will buy the house when I go to sell. It's not an option to avoid it.

I am leaving for 2 months for Santa Fe which was already planned and I'm just turning the water off on the house by the outside tap and hoping for the best until I return.....

I'm sorry to hear of your challenges with scam artists, I've had several in this house in the past 20 years and after just paying unspeakable amounts this past months in annual mortgage insurance coverage and taxes I'm done with it....

I wish you the very best in these current outcomes. Hang in there.

Janis

 

[LumberJack]

I’m flailing. I’m so off center that I don’t remember what my go-to strategy was. I know I need to do something like exercise or art or music but nothing seems like the right answer.

 

[Lonely dude30]

Tired

 

[1964dodge]

Tired

 

[1964dodge]

like i want to give up. but alas i always fight so not time to wave the white flag yet lol

mike

 

[Windhover]

at them moment, sad and lost, missing a person I shouldn't

 

[1964dodge]

at them moment, sad and lost, missing a person I shouldn't

do you want to talk ?

mike....

 

[Windhover]

Thank you @ mike. I always want to talk too much lol.

 

[JanisSPK]

I’m flailing. I’m so off center that I don’t remember what my go-to strategy was. I know I need to do something like exercise or art or music but nothing seems like the right answer.

How are you now? How about just turning on some meditative or classical or 432hz musical sounds or a little exercise just floor stretching and slow deep breathing alone or with the movement. Hope you get some good rest….

 

[silver-watercolors]

I'm a bit better today than I've been for the past week and a half, but I feel fragile. The more-intense-than-usual depression comes and goes so quickly that even though I'm not as depressed now, I worry that it'll get bad again on a whim. I just keep telling myself I have to make it to therapy this week and then I can vent a bunch and get some advice

 

[1964dodge]

I'm a bit better today than I've been for the past week and a half, but I feel fragile. The more-intense-than-usual depression comes and goes so quickly that even though I'm not as depressed now, I worry that it'll get bad again on a whim. I just keep telling myself I have to make it to therapy this week and then I can vent a bunch and get some advice

 

[Lane]

I'm a bit better today than I've been for the past week and a half, but I feel fragile. The more-intense-than-usual depression comes and goes so quickly that even though I'm not as depressed now, I worry that it'll get bad again on a whim. I just keep telling myself I have to make it to therapy this week and then I can vent a bunch and get some advice

Im glad that you have therapy and are feeling a bit better. I worry too that depression will rear it's ugly head on me and pray that my medicine keeps working. I hope that you continue to feel better.

 

[AmberMarie]

Loads of pain!

 

[JanisSPK]

Loads of pain!

How can you help it release some? Is there anything you can do to help it? I hope some gets better soon🙏🏽✨

 

[Angie]

All I can think is "I have cancer". My brain is exploding with that. I am unable to do my college work and will have to make a decision about that soon. It's a waiting game now and I don't do waiting very well. By that I mean I am waiting for the diagnosing gynecologist to refer me to a oncologist.

 

[AvidFan]

Doing better today. At the moment anyway. Had a surprise encounter with a roofer. Called. They answered. Waited for the runaround but they said are you in now. Turned up in 15 minutes, had a look, gave me some advice and offered to fix the issues the scammers left for a very reasonable price. Does make me realise just how bad the other clowns were, and how much they ripped me off for. But hopefully I've now found at least one reliable tradesman. Someone I vaguely know had reviewed them so I checked out with them via Facebook and they said he was good guy as well. Seems decent. Wish I'd got him out in the first place... but live and learn. Also sorted out a few overdue work admin things. Now at office waiting for people to arrive for meetings. I might actually get through solidly rather than by the skin of my teeth - but my nervous system has shown it can collapse when least expected so I won't count any chickens till the last one is out through the door 😲

 

[SillyOldBear]

All I can think is "I have cancer". My brain is exploding with that. I am unable to do my college work and will have to make a decision about that soon. It's a waiting game now and I don't do waiting very well. By that I mean I am waiting for the diagnosing gynecologist to refer me to a oncologist.

Definitely a frightening diagnosis. Can you push the gynecologist to get the referral in? And try and remember it is stage one. Very treatable.

 

[Windhover]

Angie it'd be an anomaly if a mind as bright and accomplished as yours did not abandon other thoughts and think only of the doctor's telling you it is cancer. It is used to being an incredibly good tool for just about everything you've set out to do, and it wants to help with this too. I think it will help you in fighting the cancer, in caring for your heart, and I hope you can research and find all the information and people you can in order to manage to take care of yourself as best as possible.

hugs @Angie

 

[AmberMarie]

How can you help it release some? Is there anything you can do to help it? I hope some gets better soon🙏🏽✨

Thank you. All i can do is take Tylenol. Can't have N-saids and narcotics cause anaphylaxis. So they are a hard no. However i have put in a couple notes to both my neurologist and my spine doc. i hope i will hear from them soon.