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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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at the moment, I'm not feeling positive to put it kindly. Maybe I am a machine trying to function, needing to complete tasks but lacking vital chuncks of software. I can research people, philosophers and scholars from Erasmus to Thích Nhất Hạnh and listen to my music, do my workouts, etc., etc. The pattern shifts but will not repeat, I won't find the pieces I need because apparently once set in motion it's like Penrose tiling and I won't see my self again as that whole self.
Why are you researching philosophers? They are just a bunch of navel gazers (I say that tongue in cheek because I am a philosopher and technically a professional one as I have a degree, lol).
I’m wondering if you are wanting to find any answers, as in a way to live with the human condition. Thich Nhat Hanh is great though. I think I will listen to a talk by him. Even his voice is soothing.
I’m wondering if you are wanting to find any answers, as in a way to live with the human condition. Thich Nhat Hanh is great though. I think I will listen to a talk by him. Even his voice is soothing.
God. Flurry of me posting because it distracts me from doing anything hard. I need groceries because I’m out of everything but milk. All the veggies went bad and the junk food is gone. I feel like it will all just go bad again, and yet I feel like I should have something handy for when the nausea and vertigo spikes.
I've had a fairly productive day. Couple of calls, one to go. Did some shopping. Fed one of the street cats and had a fuss, not seen him for a few days and he came running out to see me. Dusted off a job application I got through to round 2 on ages ago but it's still open - likely to be a huge jump in income but also maybe stress. But then the extra cash might ease other stresses. I have to put together a project. They're paying me for round 2 which is decent, I have nothing to lose really, unless I put in 19 hours and then give up (as then I won't get paid anything!). I've bargained with myself to do 5 hours on it, then decide if I'll go ahead and finish or abandon ship. We'll see. I'll do a bit a day and see how I feel about the whole thing.
i am actually doing pretty good today. now that i know what to expect during sepsis recovery i can accept it. i am still weak, exhausted, cognigitive issues etc. but i feel ok today, if that makes sense lol.
my wife didn't want me to drive or get in the bathtub yesterday or today i disagree but listen, i have too lol. depresssion and anxiety up but that's normal. still not on any depression meds but thinking of starting back on mirtazepine, also ordered more lorazepam. i am still able to pretty much fight those thoughts.
mike
my wife didn't want me to drive or get in the bathtub yesterday or today i disagree but listen, i have too lol. depresssion and anxiety up but that's normal. still not on any depression meds but thinking of starting back on mirtazepine, also ordered more lorazepam. i am still able to pretty much fight those thoughts.
mike
I feel pretty thankful. Years ago I was suffering from depression and found SF. People here gave me a lot of supprot and really become a light in the darkness. Now I'm free from depression. I checked my browser history to get the link of SF and gladly found that the forum is still alive.
So now I'm really thankful to SF and members here. Without you, I may not see the light again in the end.
So now I'm really thankful to SF and members here. Without you, I may not see the light again in the end.
While I agree with you, lol it's somewhat helpful sometimes. It distracts me from thought loops, partially shuts down emotions for a while, reminds me how (not all but) so many humans think they have the key to know how to explain reaity for everyone, and then it all lands me back in my own head with me sitting at my desk in misery. Perhaps a tiny bit less miserable, and having become aware of a feeling of gratitude.
I'm not criticizing philosophers; even if I did I do not have your kind of education, so it'd be a mistake to even try. My degree is a combo of fine art and business lol gah. . : ) I like reading your posts LumberJack. I hope you're feeling better and that the better becomes a base for from now on.
I'm not criticizing philosophers; even if I did I do not have your kind of education, so it'd be a mistake to even try. My degree is a combo of fine art and business lol gah. . : ) I like reading your posts LumberJack. I hope you're feeling better and that the better becomes a base for from now on.
I'm sorry this is happening. Unfortunately, when you don't have a set of symptoms that are easily understood, all too often you'll get put in a catch-all category like hypochondria, or get dismissed in some way.
Even if he sees a neurologist, there's a good chance he'll get pretty much the same response.
I hope he'll be ok.
Even if he sees a neurologist, there's a good chance he'll get pretty much the same response.
I hope he'll be ok.
I’m better for now. I went to a zoom meeting that is a book club and I have a few very long term friends there. Coincidentally the reading was about being open to whatever is… as opposed to only one outcome and everything else is a bad outcome.
I got some good practical ideas to try. By practical I mean a specific action that I can do and know I did it, like go for a walk in a park and just listen to whatever I hear. So at least I’m not paralyzed.
I got some good practical ideas to try. By practical I mean a specific action that I can do and know I did it, like go for a walk in a park and just listen to whatever I hear. So at least I’m not paralyzed.
A little out of sorts. Got up at 5 but not going in until 9. (Used to be at work at 7). Little work left to do. I'm wondering what next week would be like when I don't have a place to go to. Haven't been unemployed for over a decade. I look forward to sleeping in but not without plans for each day. Guess I'll find out.
One co-worker wanted to have a send-off party for me but I pointed out that everyone else has left the company. So I told him no. But it would have been nice.
One co-worker wanted to have a send-off party for me but I pointed out that everyone else has left the company. So I told him no. But it would have been nice.