How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

Fairly rubbish. But I have this pattern of feeling terrible for the first half of the day and then feeling better as I put the day behind me. My head feels like it's in a vice at the moment, tired, though I felt I did get a bit of sleep - had a dream I can't quite remember, anyway. Resting heart rate has been high the last few days. The weird thing is I never get sick (as in colds etc, or at least very rarely). But that doesn't mean I don't pick anything up - my immune system could be working overtime in the background and that's what I notice in my slightly elevated heart rate and background stress levels. Or maybe it's wishful thinking. Just had a late breakfast which will spike my heart rate for a bit. Just get through another day and survive somehow.

 

[AvidFan]

I had to put work to one side and lie on the sofa watching Sci Fi shows from 4pm. My heart rate finally dropped under 70, got down to 61 and my watch acknowledged a restful state for the first time in 3 days (prior to that either high stress, medium or low level stress, but constant - even lying on the sofa watching TV all weekend). Some kind of physical wave. After an hour of this restful state I had to go shopping, got back and had another hour on the sofa - managed to reduce the stress level but it wouldn't go near rest mode again. Doing anything seems to trigger my system into high alert.

I am cooking my meal now and will just keep losing myself in other worlds.

 

[Windhover]

Strange in that the moods are bouncing back and forth quickly. I'm testing out my promise to myself to keep negative thoughts from sticking. Being committed to getting stronger is my focus, as well as coping strategies for when the sadness or loneliness gets heavy. It's a limbo sort of place. I feel I have to trust that I can survive the destruction that was done, but not think too much about what success might look like.

 

[imjustathinker]

This topic is simple. Post how you are right now. It could be what your thinking, doing, listening to, writing...whatever! Because you know what they say:

"Get out of the past, stop dreading the future, and worry about now!"

Right now, I'm so-so, not happy, not sad, but less stressed because it's Saturday.

I think I've been in a manic and depressed mixed episode for while and right now I'm pretty much spiraling so not good. But I came here to get that off my chest and feel better so I keep on fighting!

 

[Inastorm]

Thank you! I'm okay. I'll talk to my therapist about it next week, maybe she can help me cope better.

Just checking in @cev77. Hope your weekend was better.

 

[Inastorm]

I think I've been in a manic and depressed mixed episode for while and right now I'm pretty much spiraling so not good. But I came here to get that off my chest and feel better so I keep on fighting!

Welcome to the forum. This a really good place to get things off your chest. Everyone here are going through or have gone through tough times. We support each other.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

I think I've been in a manic and depressed mixed episode for while and right now I'm pretty much spiraling so not good. But I came here to get that off my chest and feel better so I keep on fighting!

Welcome to the forum @imjustathinker . I am glad you found us. It’s important to share & feel heard. There are a lot of great people in this community. Keep posting. I hope to see you around.
Be well.
🦩🦩🦩🦩

 

[LumberJack]

I had to put work to one side and lie on the sofa watching Sci Fi shows from 4pm. My heart rate finally dropped under 70, got down to 61 and my watch acknowledged a restful state for the first time in 3 days (prior to that either high stress, medium or low level stress, but constant - even lying on the sofa watching TV all weekend). Some kind of physical wave. After an hour of this restful state I had to go shopping, got back and had another hour on the sofa - managed to reduce the stress level but it wouldn't go near rest mode again. Doing anything seems to trigger my system into high alert.

I am cooking my meal now and will just keep losing myself in other worlds.

I was just reading about target heart rates for each level of exercise. According to the American Heart Association (AHA), a RHR is normally 60-100 bpm, but it is lower for endurance athletes. I’m probably not saying anything new to you there, but fluctuations throughout the day are subject to more factors than we can possibly keep track of. As for what we do know, stress is a main culprit.

I think earlier you mentioned that your body might be fighting off a bug. I know that feeling. I have found that 100% of the times I notice it right away, I can take a rest day and clear the infection in one day. This is far more quickly than if I wait until the sore throat. I am glad you are able to do that, too.

If it’s okay to suggest some advice that I picked up on the AHA website, I will, but I don’t want to end up telling you something that is not suitable for you. So, if you ask, I’ll share but if not I won’t.

For reference the AHA is the ultimate authority in the US with respect to cardiovascular disease prevention, diagnosis, and treatment. Every primary care provider I’ve seen follows their guidelines exactly. For example, my tryglycerides were high from my recent preventative blood tests. The same recommendations he gave me were almost verbatim from the AHA website. I have had other physicians just send me a link to the relevant page on their website.

 

[cev77]

Just checking in @cev77. Hope your weekend was better.

Thank you, it was alright.

 

[iloverachel]

Strange in that the moods are bouncing back and forth quickly. I'm testing out my promise to myself to keep negative thoughts from sticking. Being committed to getting stronger is my focus, as well as coping strategies for when the sadness or loneliness gets heavy. It's a limbo sort of place. I feel I have to trust that I can survive the destruction that was done, but not think too much about what success might look like.

Good luck. Don't let those negative thoughts win. You can do this. Could go for a walk in nature to clear your mind, and keep posting on here as usual. I still get intrusive negative thoughts from time to time,, just need some positive distractions like exercise or music you like

 

[AvidFan]

I was just reading about target heart rates for each level of exercise. According to the American Heart Association (AHA), a RHR is normally 60-100 bpm, but it is lower for endurance athletes. I’m probably not saying anything new to you there, but fluctuations throughout the day are subject to more factors than we can possibly keep track of. As for what we do know, stress is a main culprit.

I think earlier you mentioned that your body might be fighting off a bug. I know that feeling. I have found that 100% of the times I notice it right away, I can take a rest day and clear the infection in one day. This is far more quickly than if I wait until the sore throat. I am glad you are able to do that, too.

If it’s okay to suggest some advice that I picked up on the AHA website, I will, but I don’t want to end up telling you something that is not suitable for you. So, if you ask, I’ll share but if not I won’t.

For reference the AHA is the ultimate authority in the US with respect to cardiovascular disease prevention, diagnosis, and treatment. Every primary care provider I’ve seen follows their guidelines exactly. For example, my tryglycerides were high from my recent preventative blood tests. The same recommendations he gave me were almost verbatim from the AHA website. I have had other physicians just send me a link to the relevant page on their website.

Thanks. Yeah - it's not just heart rate but heart rate variability (variation in interval between consecutive heartbeats). Mine is often clearly influenced by a hard workout/run, and eating (can have the RHR of a zombie but then eat a cracker and heart rate rises and HRV goes down indicating stress - stress just means the bodies working hard at something, so not always mental stress, but if I haven't eaten for hours, feel OK, and stress is through the roof it suggests some underlying factor). It's been very odd at times for me - finish a long day, end up on a crowded bus, heart rate goes down to 50s, and watch indicates a zen rest state (18/100) - lie on my bed listening to a relaxation recording, heart rate is in 70s or 80s, stress level 75/100. Almost like my body finds relaxation a threat lately, but then it liked watching shows yesterday...).

Always appreciate any advice or info I might not have heard of, I will absorb and synthesise it. I'm sorry you are in hell too and hope you are getting through to the other side of it sooner or later.

 

[AvidFan]

A night of 2 halves. Awake till at least 2.30am, then appeared to doze off between 3-5am. Woke up, got up, and then maybe dozed a bit more between 5-30-7.30am (at least according to perception and watch data). Got up about 8.20am, feel groggy, maybe slightly more positive than yesterday. It shows what could be, if I could just get a full night, or a few full nights' sleep. Which hasn't been the case for weeks now.

 

[Auri]

In quite a bit of physical pain. I guess being in your 30s does that to you. lol

I woke up with terrible shoulder/neck pain and stiffness on one side. I can't turn my head more than 10°, in any direction, and a massage also hurts too much. I don't know what I did last night, but it didn't get any better during the day, so I'm now trying the heated pad. ^^

 

[nicktheundoer]

I think I've been in a manic and depressed mixed episode for while and right now I'm pretty much spiraling so not good. But I came here to get that off my chest and feel better so I keep on fighting!

You've got this. Happiness will find you. May you be happy and be free from suffering. Have a great day.

 

[nicktheundoer]

Guys, I'm feeling a lil bit depressed and other than that things are okay.

 

[nicktheundoer]

In quite a bit of physical pain. I guess being in your 30s does that to you. lol

I woke up with terrible shoulder/neck pain and stiffness on one side. I can't turn my head more than 10°, in any direction, and a massage also hurts too much. I don't know what I did last night, but it didn't get any better during the day, so I'm now trying the heated pad. ^^

Sorry,friend.

 

[nicktheundoer]

Strange in that the moods are bouncing back and forth quickly. I'm testing out my promise to myself to keep negative thoughts from sticking. Being committed to getting stronger is my focus, as well as coping strategies for when the sadness or loneliness gets heavy. It's a limbo sort of place. I feel I have to trust that I can survive the destruction that was done, but not think too much about what success might look like.

🫂

 

[Lane]

In quite a bit of physical pain. I guess being in your 30s does that to you. lol

I woke up with terrible shoulder/neck pain and stiffness on one side. I can't turn my head more than 10°, in any direction, and a massage also hurts too much. I don't know what I did last night, but it didn't get any better during the day, so I'm now trying the heated pad. ^^

Feel better @Auri. Neck pain is the worst.

 

[Lane]

Guys, I'm feeling a lil bit depressed and other than that things are okay.

Sorry to hear youre feeling depressed @nicktheundoer. Hope you feel better real soon

 

[Lane]

Worried for NY after election results as well as my own state. Concerned for my best friend who this news will really upset him. Other than that, no drama in my life, so that's good. For the first time in a long time looking forward to Thanksgiving bcz my niece will still be with me.