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How Are You Feeling Right Now?

AvidFan

Retired Cat Staff
SF Supporter
Exhausted. I don't think I'll even finish my steps today. Getting 2 hours sleep or less a night is taking its toll, my brain is shredded. I did an analysis of my health stats and medication (still stuck on the fucking amitriptyline). It might not explain everything, but I started tapering the amitriptyline about 3 weeks ago and my current bout of severe insomnia correlates almost exactly with the cut I made 2 weeks ago - from 9mg to 7.5mg. After figuring this out I experimented with taking 2.5mg and my watch went into rest mode almost immediately. It was almost spooky. Have still felt shit all day due to so little sleep, but am going to reinstate at 10mg as the stress levels on my watch today have totally shifted after taking the 2.5mg. My watch said rest on the bus, it was a bad night for bus, but I didn't have a meltdown. My watch says rest sitting here. It hasn't said rest all day for 4 days, crumb of a pill and boom! The only thing that changed is I took a small topup of the medication and it's like it's knitted something back together. There is just too much going on to deal with this kind of withdrawal on top of everything else. I am praying this is part of the answer and reinstating will get me some very badly needed sleep.
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
I’m oscillating between feeling like, “okay, I got this,” and then, “I am lost in an entire ocean of sadness and it’s too hard to keep treading water so why even try???”
 
Today was the lousiest day I have had since my last day of work. Primarily because I didn’t have much interaction with people. This is going to be tough. I hope that it gets better and I don’t have to count on others for my good moods. Tomorrow I have exercize class and I hope that I can get some good endorphins to carry me through the weekend. Otherwise I will try to get a job
 

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