How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[LumberJack]

I was feeling very gloomy this morning. I got out of bed at 10:24 to be at a yoga class in my complex's gym at 10:30, lol. But then I felt so tired I took a little bit of a nap, and all of my resentments flared up at once. Mostly related to hospital abuse. I still have a few complaints that I have not filed because it is taxing, but I used my personal hurt to get one filed. I am going to file one/day because I've tried doing a batch before and they got all mixed up. The person from the state BHA (regulatory agency) kept referring to things by date, but I had 3 on one date, 2 on two other dates, so keeping them separated just didn't happen.

I have looked into regulations again lately, and found more things that they should have done under my pt rights that did not happen. It might go nowhere, but it felt better to use my suffering as motivation to possibly prevent future people, who are so unfortunate as to end up there, from being treated in the same way. I'm feeling better emotionally but physically I'm dizzy and sleepy.

 

[Auri]

You're welcome to say more about your situation if you'd like.

I know, thank you. I won't talk about it, I also don't need to, but I might use SF to describe my feelings. It's not fair to anyone who reads me, but it won't help me.

The situation got so much worse since yesterday though, that I'm likely to lose my mind in the upcoming days/weeks/months. Literally nothing can help it.

 

[AvidFan]

I am calm so giving myself the day off worrying helped. I just watched shows and had a few walks. Life can be OK when demands are not being placed on me. I am safe in bed right now.

 

[Auri]

Emotional "blunting"? I get that when my depression is so bad that I'm emotionally numb. You can't stay in freeze over a certain limit before you go numb, anyway. However I also feel a lot of shame when this happens, as in apologizing to someone for being in their way if they bump into me, level of shame. Regardless, it feels like it would be so much better to just feel anything at all. But then the anxiety hits and I wish I was numb again. Life, don't talk to me about life....

Thank you for your reply, I can certainly relate to that in my past. I am not really "depressed" anymore though, I haven't been for years because my life has been good and I have been on antidepressants that work for me very very well.

I think I am simply reacting to deep life problems without depression and it's less... dramatic? However, I can certainly fall back into depression again in the upcoming months...

I really hope not.

 

[Auri]

Today something else - unrelated - happened, and it is so much worse than my first problem. I cried a lot, now I am "stable", but I know I won't be.

PS. No death, no divorce, no illness, nothing you should worry about. Only my mental health will suffer from now on.

 

[Windhover]

Feeling a tiny shread of goodness happening with some recent changes, so hope I can keep it going. At the same time, I've a lot of work to do in the next few weeks and months.

 

[Windhover]

@Auri I'm sorry. I don't like hearing how bad this seems to be, but I'm glad you're posting.

We are here for you.

 

[LumberJack]

well, sudden downturn. I am feeling like such a useless waste of space that I should just stop breathing to free up the oxygen for actual humans

 

[Angie]

I know, thank you. I won't talk about it, I also don't need to, but I might use SF to describe my feelings. It's not fair to anyone who reads me, but it won't help me.

The situation got so much worse since yesterday though, that I'm likely to lose my mind in the upcoming days/weeks/months. Literally nothing can help it.

Here for you in whatever way you need.

 

[JanisSPK]

I have about 10 additional pounds in excess. I wish we could swap, lol. About feeling sickly, I have been feeling vaguely under the weather for about 1-2 weeks constantly. One day I woke up feeling kind of feverish, but thermometer said I had no fever. No other symptoms except for more congestion than usual, however this could just be seasonal allergies coming in at the same time. I don't have any respiratory symptoms - so maybe my diet of M&Ms and Cheeze-its is related...


Do "clean" protein bars even exist? I used to be fond of Cliff bars, but then I found out how much sugar was in them - they are designed for endurance athletes, lol.

I have to be very picky about protein bars so I have figured out a couple, and will give you the names of the ones I eat if you like. And lol, to your food combo listed above. Heluva combo there
I'll take your pounds from ya....overnight them for me, I'll pay at this end
I'm glad you don't have respiratory symtoms, although allergies are so annoying just by themselves......

 

[Lane]

Today something else - unrelated - happened, and it is so much worse than my first problem. I cried a lot, now I am "stable", but I know I won't be.

PS. No death, no divorce, no illness, nothing you should worry about. Only my mental health will suffer from now on.

Thinking of you during this trying time.

 

[DarkNightshade]

It's probably transient, but I'm not feeling very well this afternoon. I teared up a bit earlier, without crying. General motivation is not there, but I keep going with my routine. I'll be fine.

 

[may71]

I know, thank you.

You're welcome

I won't talk about it, I also don't need to, but I might use SF to describe my feelings. It's not fair to anyone who reads me, but it won't help me.

Ok. Please feel free to change your mind.

Sending hugs if you would like hugs

 

[LumberJack]

I have to be very picky about protein bars so I have figured out a couple, and will give you the names of the ones I eat if you like. And lol, to your food combo listed above. Heluva combo there
I'll take your pounds from ya....overnight them for me, I'll pay at this end
I'm glad you don't have respiratory symtoms, although allergies are so annoying just by themselves......

yes I would be happy to know about any good protein bars. I have found some shakes that are sweetened with stevia instead of artificial sweeteners, so those are pretty good, but a bar would be more portable. I'm also trying to get more eggs into my diet.

 

[JanisSPK]

yes I would be happy to know about any good protein bars. I have found some shakes that are sweetened with stevia instead of artificial sweeteners, so those are pretty good, but a bar would be more portable. I'm also trying to get more eggs into my diet.

I have posted here also a picture of the front of the labels. Don’t know why I couldn’t get it to open like the other did…. Balanced tiger has 7 gms of sugar. The others have 4gms. The Balanced Tiger is a bar with functional mushrooms in it so I am ok with the this one having the 7 grams.
I also need the proteins so these have 11gms, 6gms and the Novos has 15 gms
I cant eat almonds which most have so I don’t k is anything about bars that contain them…..
I’m doing my darndest to put eggs back into my weekly intake for protein, went about 35 years without eating them and I don’t have a taste for them again yet so I’m also working on that source as well

 

[JanisSPK]

 

[JanisSPK]

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picture of front of labels

 

[JanisSPK]

yes I would be happy to know about any good protein bars. I have found some shakes that are sweetened with stevia instead of artificial sweeteners, so those are pretty good, but a bar would be more portable. I'm also trying to get more eggs into my diet.

Geez I just now am seeing that almonds are in the Balanced Tiger functional mushroom bar. Cr*p, somehow missed it…I’ll have to quit these. But they are still great bars if you don’t have a kidney stone issue👍🏼☺️

 

[1964dodge]

getting better

mike

 

[LumberJack]

@JanisSPK - I would be decimated if I had to avoid almonds. I'm trying to move away from dairy after figuring out I am lactose intolerant and almond milk is a big part of that (although wtf to do about yogurt and cottage cheese is still a question mark). Then there is my obsession with marzipan + chocolate. So, if you have to avoid that, I'm really sorry.

I am also not a huge fan of eggs, but then again, my last 2 blood tests have shown that I'm overdoing it on the red and processed meats. One thing that helps for me is using soy sauce on boiled eggs instead of plain salt.

BTW the pic of the front of the bars comes up if I click on the text.